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FIGHTING YOUR INNER DEMONS

Everybody has them. Some are louder than others. Some are stronger. Some are overwhelming, and sooner or later you just give up fighting. But there are other people around you who want to help you - maybe they're suffering too, either because of your inner monster or their own. Or maybe they're one of the lucky ones with demons that don't howl so much.

You can help each other. It's better than the alternative.

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[ Ren eagerly pulls Aoba's shirt off and once it's off, he takes a moment to just admire Aoba's naked torso. He can't quite understand how someone can be so cute and yet so sexy at the same time. ]

Aoba... you are so beautiful. [ He breathes the words, somewhat in awe as if it's the first time he's seen Aoba like this. He just can't believe how lucky he is sometimes.

Ren feels like he knows every detail of his lover's body, but he never tires of looking, of touching, of kissing...

Before he has a chance to do any of the latter two, Aoba begins to tug at Ren's own shirt. He quickly lifts his arms to make it easier and as soon as it's out of the way, he leans in close to press his lips to Aoba's throat, his mouth trailing down it at a slow pace.

He can't resist nipping softly at the skin with his teeth, but as always he takes care to not actually cause Aoba any pain. ]

[ Aoba is ridiculously easy to fluster, so of course Ren's compliment does a wonderful job of making the color warming up the rounds of Aoba's shoulders and the apples of his cheeks turn a darker shade and spread further, visibly portraying the warmth flooding his body. ]

D-- [ He starts to say don't say things like that but his voice shuts down before he can articulate it all, both because Ren is suddenly pressing a hot mouth against his throat, but also because he doesn't mean it at all. He doesn't want Ren to stop. Ever.

Aoba straightens his back a little, lifting himself just a fraction off of Ren's lap to make the downwards creep of his mouth easier. He slides his hands into Ren's hair, fingertips pushing through to his scalp, gripping in balled fists when he feels teeth against sensitive skin. Ren is always so gentle with him, but rather than it seeming like Ren thinks he needs it, like he's soft or weak, it feels more like Ren is doing it because Aoba is precious to him. The thought alone is enough to make Aoba shudder and so he does, letting out a whine of encouragement so Ren can bite him a little more. ]

[ Ren glances up when it sounds like Aoba's about to say something, but when he appears to change his mind, Ren goes back to what he was doing - namely kissing, sucking and nipping at his throat. He's determined to leave some marks before he's done.

That is very much the case. Ren knows that Aoba isn't weak in any way, he just happens to be the last person Ren would ever want to hurt and so he's gentle. At least until Aoba's tugging at his hair and soft whines makes it clear that he wants more. Ren is only happy to oblige, after taking a moment to enjoy the feeling of Aoba's fingers through his hair. It always reminds him of when Aoba used to brush through his fur back when he was an Allmate. It's a nice, comforting, and in this situation, arousing feeling.

He then moves a further down, teeth scraping slightly against the skin until he reaches Aoba's collarbones and gives one of them a nip, this one sharper than before. Meanwhile, his hands move from Aoba's waist to his sides and stomach, fingers drawing a path up to Aoba's nipples. He's always enjoyed playing with them and he doesn't hesitate to let his fingers rub over the cute little nubs. ]

[ Ren's hands feel like hot coals as they reach up his chest, the points of contact feeling like they're about to blister his skin, but in the best kind of way. It hasn't even been that long since the last time they did this (Granny has been going out a lot more, even letting Koujaku take her out to the store every so often) and yet Aoba feels as though it's been years, and has missed this feeling more than he at first realised.

Teeth on his collarbone makes him whine, but it's nothing like those fingers brushing over his nipple, and he inhales a quick breath that sounds a lot more heated than he intended.. he blushes, but doesn't deny another. He even starts to rock his hips, just a little, as he kneels over Ren's lap, as though looking for something to grind up against. ]

Ren.. [ He whines again, desperate for more contact, for more pressure, for.. for more. He leans in, tugging softly at Ren's hair as his mouth comes to his ear. He runs his tongue along the shell, then nuzzles it with his nose before murmuring his request in the most enticing voice he can muster. ] More..

[ Aoba's responses, no matter how small, are all exciting and arousing. Ren lets out a low groan when Aoba grinds against him as he's starting to grow hard and he eagerly does it back.

When Aoba begins to lavish attention on his ear Ren feels as if he might melt out of his remaining clothes, and when that hot murmur is breathed against it Ren's breath hitches in his throat. Hearing Aoba begging for more and acting so needy makes Ren heat up all over with desire. He's feeling that same neediness. ]

Aoba. [ He almost growls it, his voice rough and deeper than usual from lust.

He doesn't waste any time before he attaches his mouth to one of Aoba's nipples, rolling his tongue over it while his hands fumble to unbutton his boyfriend's pants. Self-control be damned, he needs to see and feel Aoba's naked body and he needs it now.

[ The low grumbling register of Ren's voice, lower than usual, resonates deeply through Aoba's body, seeming to vibrate through his very veins and leave nothing but lust in their wake. It's reminiscent of the way Ren always greets him, but there's something more to it.. A sense of an animalistic hunger that makes Aoba want to dig his fingernails into the hot skin around Ren's shoulders. Perhaps it's that part of him flaring up again, but Aoba finds himself thinking not for the first time, that even though he's happy Ren is getting better and more human every day, he can't help but miss the big hands that had pawed at him and the growling - almost claiming - bites and kisses that had overwhelmed him so thoroughly on that beach, in the early days when Ren still couldn't connect with his new body. ]

Aahn-- [ He's distracted from his desires by the tongue on his chest, by the rough and hasty unfastening of his pants.. Aoba is overtaken with need for this man, all of a sudden. This man, who's desperate to touch him because of who he is to him first and foremost. Aoba pauses for a second so that he can wrap his arms around Ren's head, give the crown of his hair a quick kiss, and then he's reaching down to help Ren, to shimmy out of his pants, to hook his thumbs in his underwear..

He takes a slow, steadying breath.. but it's hard to feel particularly steadied when your lover has his hands all over you in the hottest way, and his eyes shimmer with a desperate need to touch. Aoba had asked for more, after all, hadn't he? The least he could do was give Ren the tools neccesary to give it to him.

He shucks his underwear down, lifting a leg to kick the clothing away, then looping his arms around Ren's shoulders again so he can twist them both around and pull Ren's body over his as he flops down on the bed. ]

[ There is still something of that animalistic drive inside of Ren when Aoba gets him to this kind of aroused state. He's managed to rein it in in the past months, scared of accidentally hurting Aoba, but he's also noticed that his boyfriend doesn't seem to mind some of those tendencies. Even if he tried, he's not sure he could completely rid himself off of the intense passion he feels for Aoba and so he's glad that Aoba seems to enjoy it.

He's too excited to do a very good job at removing Aoba's pants and so he's grateful for the help. He's so impatient to get his lover naked. While Aoba takes care of his own pants, Ren continues to lick and suck at his nipple, even giving it a soft bite before he notices that Aoba's pants are off. He pulls away from his chest and stares eagerly as Aoba removes his underwear too.

He's too enamored by the familiar, but no less exciting, sight of Aoba fully naked - his pale skin flushed red and his cock clearly excited - to react to Aoba pulling him down and on top of him until he's suddenly got his boyfriend pinned underneath him. ]

Aoba...

[ He growls again, voice even deeper now as he lets one of his hands travel down to grasp around Aoba's cock, feeling his own erection straining in his pants at the feeling. He leans down to capture Aoba's lips in another kiss, this one even more passionate, as he tries with his other hand to undo his own pants. ]

[ Aoba can't help the little grin that forms on his face as he watches Ren looking down at him like that. Usually Aoba doesn't enjoy too much attention, would rather be out of the spotlight than in it, but when Ren holds him up on his own little pedestal Aoba finds that he doesn't really mind, because it's always for Ren and Ren only. It even disperses the jittery nerves he still instinctively feels over being naked, because when he has his boyfriend's weight pressed over him, all that matters is this. ]

Ah! Nnn-- aah, Ren.. [ His cock is already leaking excitedly into Ren's palm as he grips it with such a strong hand, words swallowed momentarily by the tongue that laps into his mouth, making Aoba's entire body feel wound tight and sensitive.. And then he feels Ren struggling with the fastenings, and he tugs away with that same content smile, his voice surprisingly light and soft considering the heat radiating between them. ]

Ren.. Let me. [ For a second it sounds like the voice he used on the phone is back, something sickly sweet and enticing, encouraging in a way that doesn't seem to make sense but yet feels right. Aoba gasps as he lifts his hips a little, pushing his cock through the ring of Ren's fist while his hand dexterously unfastens his jeans and roughly shoves them down around his thighs. His fingers press into the bulge of him through the fabric of his underwear, feeling how he twitches in response to the pressure and moans helplessly, unable to resist shoving that fabric down too to feel that heat unhindered. ]

[ Ren knows very well how shy Aoba can be, especially in intimate situations, but he seems to have grown more and more comfortable with it as their relationship has progressed. It makes Ren happy, both because he doesn't want Aoba to ever feel self-conscious, but also because it means his boyfriend no longer protests whenever Ren looks at him like this.

Feeling just how excited Aoba is only further enhances Ren's own excitement. It's always so gratifying to know that he can make Aoba so aroused. He already knows that Aoba loves him and finds him attractive, but it's nice to have such physical proof of it.

Aoba's voice sounds so different, yet familiar, and Ren can't other than to obey and let Aoba unbutton his pants. He's doing a better job at it anyway as Ren is too preoccupied with stroking Aoba's cock. A breath catches in his throat and he lets out a shuddering gasp when Aoba's fingers find the bulge in his underwear. He's so hard it feels like his underwear might not be able to keep his dick confined much longer so when Aoba pulls them down Ren's cock springs free and he groans from the sheer relief of it. ]

[ There's something weirdly attractive to Aoba about having Ren half dressed but so debauched, his cock out of his pants and clearly desperate for more contact if Ren's reactions and the way it twitches like it's yearning is anything to go by. Aoba can't resist wrapping his hand around the head, fingertips tracing the oozing slit and shuddering at how it twitches in response to his hand, and how warm it is.. It wants, Ren wants, and Aoba knows exactly what it is that they both want.

He licks his lips, tongue flicking out to wet them softly, before Aoba's eyes fix on Ren's mouth and the heavy groans coming from it. He leans up suddenly, pressing their lips together for a deep kiss in which it's almost like Aoba is trying to swallow down the sounds Ren is making as Aoba jerks him off slowly.

When he pulls away, his lips are wet and his mouth is just as hungry as the eyes are that he fixes on his boyfriend. ]

Can you last long enough for me to-- to suck you off? [ It makes Aoba flush and stumble just a bit, but his libido is a pressing matter at the moment, so he doesn't have all that much time to be shy about it. ]

[ Ren brushes his thumb over the head of Aoba's cock, letting out a choked moan as he feels his own cock being stroked in return. The sudden kiss catches him by surprise, but he responds to it eagerly, nipping at Aoba's lips and licking into his mouth. When their lips part, he's panting heavily.

Ren feels his mouth go dry again. Hearing Aoba speaking like that... it seems to set a fire inside of him. If he hadn't been hard already, this would've done it in no time. ]

I.. I think so. [ He manages, voice breathy and full of excitement. His stamina is another thing that has improved since the early days of their relationship, though he's never had much of an issue getting hard again after coming regardless. Aoba is just that irresistible.

He leans back a little, pulling Aoba closer and kissing him - unable to resist now that his mouth looks so wet and inviting. ]

[ It isn't often that Aoba guides the situation with his own hands, often opting to instead only allude to these kind of things, responding to whatever Ren wants to do to him, offering little suggestions here and there - like off, more, faster... But that doesn't mean he doesn't have fantasies of his own, and in moments where he gets caught up in the pleasure and in Ren himself, sometimes not even Aoba's shyness can stand in his way.

Being between Ren's legs is a fantasy he daydreams about.. probably more than he should. It's not that he hasn't done it before, more that every time he does Ren looks so deliciously overwhelmed under Aoba's mouth and unbreaking attention that it's honestly addictive.

He can feel himself drooling at the thought even as Ren pushes his tongue into his mouth, their kiss getting wetter and wetter by the second, to the point where Aoba feels like he's about to drown and doesn't care at all.. as long as Ren keeps moving his hand on his cock like that, and kissing him so hard it's like he's trying to swallow him whole.

Speaking of swallowing, though... Soon enough Aoba starts to shift, his hand around Ren's cock tightening and then releasing as Aoba pushes him back and then twists his shoulders for the second time. However now, instead of pulling Ren on top of him, he's switching their positions so that Ren is on his back, leaving Aoba knelt between his legs. Trying not to get too distracted by how good Ren looks, how hot it is that his hair has fanned out on the pillow and how appealing his skin looks against the sheets of Aoba's bed, Aoba distracts himself by kissing slowly down Ren's chest, following the lines of his muscles and the concave of his stomach till he gets to his groin, where he kisses his hipbone in a tender way, then effortlessly lifts Ren's cock and envelops it in the waiting heat of his mouth. ]

[ Ren is more than a little happy every time Aoba overcomes his shyness in bed as there are few things he finds to be as much of a turn-on as his boyfriend taking the initiative.

The messy, desperate kiss has him throbbing with desire, his hand working Aoba's cock as much as he can manage with all the wonderful distractions he's getting. When the kiss finally breaks, Ren just wants to dive back in for more, but that's when Aoba pushes him onto his back and Ren remembers what it was his boyfriend wanted to do. It just makes him even more excited, and he lays down without protest, watching Aoba through lidded eyes as he kisses down his body.

By the time Aoba reaches his groin, Ren is so wound up that he fears this may all end prematurely, but thankfully he manages to find some vestige of self-control just as Aoba's mouth descends on him. ]

Aoba...!

[ The wet heat enveloping him is maddening. His eyes slip shut for a moment as he just enjoys the feeling, but he opens them again only a moment later. He wants to be able to watch Aoba as he goes down on him. One of his hands finds its way down to gently rest at the back of Aoba's hair, encouraging but not forceful. His fingers slide softly through the strands of hair because while Aoba's hair may not be as sensitive as it used to be - Ren is still worried he might hurt him if he touches it too carelessly. ]

[ Ren saying his name has always been a key factor of their relationship, even before everything happened, back when they were just a master and his AllMate; Ren's voice is the one that pulls him out of bad dreams, is the first thing he hears in the morning even now, is the one thing that grounds him when his brain trips over itself or when he's just in need of a little reassurance. Ren simply saying Aoba's name makes his heart soar, even after years of hearing it, and the effect is no different now... in fact, given the situation and the pure heat Aoba can hear in the deep intonation of Ren's voice, the reverberation of sound through Ren's chest travels straight through Aoba too and catches his heart in a vice. Aoba wants to hear more, wants to hear just how far he can push that voice, if he can make it crack in pleasure like Ren does so easily to him.

The touch to his hair is surprisingly nice like this - Ren is always so sweet and so soft with his hair that he doesn't feel that familiar habitual fear anymore when Ren reaches for it - and Aoba takes the intended encouragement and lets his head fall lower. Ren's cock slides through his mouth, the head bumping the back of Aoba's throat before he hollows out his cheeks and sucks hard as it slips back out again. He doesn't dare to go any further yet, for fear that he might choke and ruin the mood, instead he opts for lapping lasciviously at Ren's cockhead, his tongue swirling and his hand working at his base in an almost clumsy but intense kind of rhythm, intending to fully overwhelm Ren rather than impress him with any kind of unpractised skill. ]

[ It's more the fact that Aoba is so eager to pleasure him, that he seems to enjoy this so much, than anything else that turns Ren on the most. Even if Aoba's technique had been awful, it wouldn't have mattered. Seeing Aoba's lips wrapped around his cock, feeling the warm heat and hearing the muffled little sounds that he lets out while blowing him is enough to make Ren feel hot all over.

The sudden increased suction and the feeling of his cock so far into Aoba's mouth makes him moan loudly and threatens to do him in, and so it's probably a good thing that Aoba pulls away when he does. His fingers grow a little clumsy as they continue to slide through Aoba's hair, but Ren still takes care to keep his touches gentle.

He sighs in pleasure as Aoba's tongue laps at the tip of his cock, straining to keep his eyes open so that he can watch Aoba. ]

Aoba... that feels good. [ He murmurs the words in a voice filled with a mixture of affection and lust. ]

[ Aoba's cheeks are already pinkened from his efforts and the general heat hanging in the air -- so thick and smelling so sweet that had he any time to waste on being bashful then he might have spared a thought for the possibility of Granny catching on to what they've been up to while she's been gone (though lets be honest, she's probably been onto them since the beginning) -- but when Ren compliments him in such a breathless way, like he's struck not only by how good it feels but how much he cares for Aoba in that moment, his face feels like a furnace. It shakes his confidence just a little, making him feel bashful and desperate to hide his face.. but the weeping cock in his hand and the weight of it on his tongue does a good enough job of convincing him to push through it. He wants to keep making Ren feel that good, he wants to keep hearing those noises and see that hot, heavy look in his eyes get darker and even hotter.

He opens his mouth a little wider to let his tongue slip out, lapping all the way down Ren's length like he's licking up traces of something sweet and addictive. The whole time he keeps his eyes fixed on Ren's face, not wanting to miss a moment. ]

Is it enough? [ Aoba manages, his voice kind of quiet both from the pressing issue of his libido and from shyness at asking such a question. ] Is.. is it enough to get you there?

[ Ren is a little too busy feeling good to take note of Aoba's embarrassment... and well, Aoba being embarrassed in sexual situations is nothing new. As long as Aoba doesn't appear to be uncomfortable by something, Ren knows that it's nothing to worry about. Honestly, it's pretty adorable how Aoba still gets so flustered when they're intimate.

Ren strains to keep his eyes open as he doesn't want to miss a second of Aoba working on his cock like that, but it's difficult with how amazing it feels. He's a little dazed and doesn't quite understand what Aoba is asking him. Is he asking if it's enough to get him off, or enough to get him ready for more? Whatever Aoba means, the answer is a resounding yes and Ren manages to nod his head enthusiastically, feeling like he's lost the ability to speak for the moment. ]

Ah.. Ren.. Good boy.

[ Aoba can't help but smile, just a bit, when Ren nods so enthusiastically. He still retains some of his doglike qualities and seeing him lose words and rely solely on eager reactions, especially when they're in response to something Aoba is doing to him, makes him feel so helplessly good that he can't resist diving back in with even more vigor than before.

The hand that isn't working Ren's shaft in time with his mouth slips down further, fingers massaging the skin below the length of his cock, feeling every twitch of arousal and beat of Ren's pulse through his sensitive skin.. Aoba groans around the dick in his mouth, then hollows his cheeks and lets Ren slip further into his mouth, hitting the back of his throat again. Ren used to be so easy to get there, just a few touches and he'd be growling and gritting his teeth and coming in Aoba's fist.. but now there's a little more restraint, a little more self control, and Aoba has learnt finesse and knows exactly how to drag things out so that they feel as good as possible.. but right now dragging it out is the last thing Aoba wants to do; which should be evident in the way he sucks at Ren's cock with no inhibitions.. ]

[ Ren blushes up to his ears in response to the praise. It's unexpected and somehow really, really hot. It's not as though he needs to get more aroused at this point, nor had he even thought it possible, but that's exactly what happens. His breathing picks up considerably and his fingers grasp tightly at Aoba's hair for a moment before he finds his senses again and lets go.

It's definitely obvious that Aoba's working diligently to make him come, and he's definitely succeeding. The wet, wonderful heat around his cock, Aoba's fingers touching his shaft would've been enough on their own, but those words just seems to get Ren there faster. He moans, his stomach tensing, thighs shaking somewhat as he feels the heat and the pleasure start to pool down below at a rapid pace. ]

A-Aoba!

[ It's the only warning Aoba gets before Ren's releasing, helpless to stop it. As much as he's been trying to keep his eyes open, he can't anymore and they squeeze shut as he releases all the tension that had been building up. His body shakes and he gasps loudly, his fingers grasping at Aoba's hair again. Once he starts coming down, he finally opens his eyes and looks at Aoba again, breathing heavily. ]

[ Seeing Ren fluster is a rare sight, and Aoba almost (veeeery almost) regrets the busy pace his mouth is picking up as it means he can't see Ren's reaction in full view.. but as soon as he feels Ren's thighs start to tense and shake he knows that leering at his lovers face can wait, for now at least.

When Ren comes Aoba feels something tug in his heart, pulling at his own libido just enough to make it a pressing problem though Aoba can't will himself to pay it any attention right now as Ren fills his mouth-- He jerks away but Ren's hands in his hair are holding him close. His mouth pops off, Ren's release spilling down his chin and making his cheeks burn with the immediate realization that he must look entirely debauched. He swallows and tries to wipe the rest away with the back of his hand, flickering his eyes up at the exact moment Ren's open. He flushes a little darker, but even through his embarrassment he smiles. ]

Heh.. Ah-- [ He lowers his hand, fingertips resting gently on Ren's inner thigh. ] ...Was that good?

Aoba... [ Ren breathes harshly as he gives Aoba a look full of affection. ] It was incredible. [ It always is, honestly, but sometimes Aoba just seems to get especially into it, making it just that bit even better.

Ren sits up and cups Aoba's chin with his hand, pulling him into a tender kiss - not in the least squeamish about the fact that Aoba's mouth was full of Ren's own release mere seconds ago. When he pulls away his eyes trail down to Aoba's arousal and he licks his lips slowly. ]

But I should not be the only one feeling good...

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sorry for the delay! ended up busier this weekend than i thought i'd be

no worries at all! <3

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