they live inside us

[thememening]

FIGHTING YOUR INNER DEMONS

Everybody has them. Some are louder than others. Some are stronger. Some are overwhelming, and sooner or later you just give up fighting. But there are other people around you who want to help you - maybe they're suffering too, either because of your inner monster or their own. Or maybe they're one of the lucky ones with demons that don't howl so much.

You can help each other. It's better than the alternative.

• Leave top levels with your character name and info.
  
• Specify what you're running from, or if you're running at all, or if you just want to help.
  
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Warning: responses to this meme could potentially contain triggering material.

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[cosmo_call]

[ There's something weirdly attractive to Aoba about having Ren half dressed but so debauched, his cock out of his pants and clearly desperate for more contact if Ren's reactions and the way it twitches like it's yearning is anything to go by. Aoba can't resist wrapping his hand around the head, fingertips tracing the oozing slit and shuddering at how it twitches in response to his hand, and how warm it is.. It wants, Ren wants, and Aoba knows exactly what it is that they both want.

He licks his lips, tongue flicking out to wet them softly, before Aoba's eyes fix on Ren's mouth and the heavy groans coming from it. He leans up suddenly, pressing their lips together for a deep kiss in which it's almost like Aoba is trying to swallow down the sounds Ren is making as Aoba jerks him off slowly.

When he pulls away, his lips are wet and his mouth is just as hungry as the eyes are that he fixes on his boyfriend. ]

Can you last long enough for me to-- to suck you off? [ It makes Aoba flush and stumble just a bit, but his libido is a pressing matter at the moment, so he doesn't have all that much time to be shy about it. ]

[deepvoice]

[ Ren brushes his thumb over the head of Aoba's cock, letting out a choked moan as he feels his own cock being stroked in return. The sudden kiss catches him by surprise, but he responds to it eagerly, nipping at Aoba's lips and licking into his mouth. When their lips part, he's panting heavily.

Ren feels his mouth go dry again. Hearing Aoba speaking like that... it seems to set a fire inside of him. If he hadn't been hard already, this would've done it in no time. ]

I.. I think so. [ He manages, voice breathy and full of excitement. His stamina is another thing that has improved since the early days of their relationship, though he's never had much of an issue getting hard again after coming regardless. Aoba is just that irresistible.

He leans back a little, pulling Aoba closer and kissing him - unable to resist now that his mouth looks so wet and inviting. ]

[cosmo_call]

[ It isn't often that Aoba guides the situation with his own hands, often opting to instead only allude to these kind of things, responding to whatever Ren wants to do to him, offering little suggestions here and there - like off, more, faster... But that doesn't mean he doesn't have fantasies of his own, and in moments where he gets caught up in the pleasure and in Ren himself, sometimes not even Aoba's shyness can stand in his way. Being between Ren's legs is a fantasy he daydreams about.. probably more than he should. It's not that he hasn't done it before, more that every time he does Ren looks so deliciously overwhelmed under Aoba's mouth and unbreaking attention that it's honestly addictive. He can feel himself drooling at the thought even as Ren pushes his tongue into his mouth, their kiss getting wetter and wetter by the second, to the point where Aoba feels like he's about to drown and doesn't care at all.. as long as Ren keeps moving his hand on his cock like that, and kissing him so hard it's like he's trying to swallow him whole. Speaking of swallowing, though... Soon enough Aoba starts to shift, his hand around Ren's cock tightening and then releasing as Aoba pushes him back and then twists his shoulders for the second time. However now, instead of pulling Ren on top of him, he's switching their positions so that Ren is on his back, leaving Aoba knelt between his legs. Trying not to get too distracted by how good Ren looks, how hot it is that his hair has fanned out on the pillow and how appealing his skin looks against the sheets of Aoba's bed, Aoba distracts himself by kissing slowly down Ren's chest, following the lines of his muscles and the concave of his stomach till he gets to his groin, where he kisses his hipbone in a tender way, then effortlessly lifts Ren's cock and envelops it in the waiting heat of his mouth. ]

[deepvoice]

[ Ren is more than a little happy every time Aoba overcomes his shyness in bed as there are few things he finds to be as much of a turn-on as his boyfriend taking the initiative.

The messy, desperate kiss has him throbbing with desire, his hand working Aoba's cock as much as he can manage with all the wonderful distractions he's getting. When the kiss finally breaks, Ren just wants to dive back in for more, but that's when Aoba pushes him onto his back and Ren remembers what it was his boyfriend wanted to do. It just makes him even more excited, and he lays down without protest, watching Aoba through lidded eyes as he kisses down his body.

By the time Aoba reaches his groin, Ren is so wound up that he fears this may all end prematurely, but thankfully he manages to find some vestige of self-control just as Aoba's mouth descends on him. ]

Aoba...!

[ The wet heat enveloping him is maddening. His eyes slip shut for a moment as he just enjoys the feeling, but he opens them again only a moment later. He wants to be able to watch Aoba as he goes down on him. One of his hands finds its way down to gently rest at the back of Aoba's hair, encouraging but not forceful. His fingers slide softly through the strands of hair because while Aoba's hair may not be as sensitive as it used to be - Ren is still worried he might hurt him if he touches it too carelessly. ]

[cosmo_call]

[ Ren saying his name has always been a key factor of their relationship, even before everything happened, back when they were just a master and his AllMate; Ren's voice is the one that pulls him out of bad dreams, is the first thing he hears in the morning even now, is the one thing that grounds him when his brain trips over itself or when he's just in need of a little reassurance. Ren simply saying Aoba's name makes his heart soar, even after years of hearing it, and the effect is no different now... in fact, given the situation and the pure heat Aoba can hear in the deep intonation of Ren's voice, the reverberation of sound through Ren's chest travels straight through Aoba too and catches his heart in a vice. Aoba wants to hear more, wants to hear just how far he can push that voice, if he can make it crack in pleasure like Ren does so easily to him. The touch to his hair is surprisingly nice like this - Ren is always so sweet and so soft with his hair that he doesn't feel that familiar habitual fear anymore when Ren reaches for it - and Aoba takes the intended encouragement and lets his head fall lower. Ren's cock slides through his mouth, the head bumping the back of Aoba's throat before he hollows out his cheeks and sucks hard as it slips back out again. He doesn't dare to go any further yet, for fear that he might choke and ruin the mood, instead he opts for lapping lasciviously at Ren's cockhead, his tongue swirling and his hand working at his base in an almost clumsy but intense kind of rhythm, intending to fully overwhelm Ren rather than impress him with any kind of unpractised skill. ]

sorry for the delay! ended up busier this weekend than i thought i'd be

[deepvoice]

[ It's more the fact that Aoba is so eager to pleasure him, that he seems to enjoy this so much, than anything else that turns Ren on the most. Even if Aoba's technique had been awful, it wouldn't have mattered. Seeing Aoba's lips wrapped around his cock, feeling the warm heat and hearing the muffled little sounds that he lets out while blowing him is enough to make Ren feel hot all over.

The sudden increased suction and the feeling of his cock so far into Aoba's mouth makes him moan loudly and threatens to do him in, and so it's probably a good thing that Aoba pulls away when he does. His fingers grow a little clumsy as they continue to slide through Aoba's hair, but Ren still takes care to keep his touches gentle.

He sighs in pleasure as Aoba's tongue laps at the tip of his cock, straining to keep his eyes open so that he can watch Aoba. ]

Aoba... that feels good. [ He murmurs the words in a voice filled with a mixture of affection and lust. ]

no worries at all! <3

[cosmo_call]

[ Aoba's cheeks are already pinkened from his efforts and the general heat hanging in the air -- so thick and smelling so sweet that had he any time to waste on being bashful then he might have spared a thought for the possibility of Granny catching on to what they've been up to while she's been gone (though lets be honest, she's probably been onto them since the beginning) -- but when Ren compliments him in such a breathless way, like he's struck not only by how good it feels but how much he cares for Aoba in that moment, his face feels like a furnace. It shakes his confidence just a little, making him feel bashful and desperate to hide his face.. but the weeping cock in his hand and the weight of it on his tongue does a good enough job of convincing him to push through it. He wants to keep making Ren feel that good, he wants to keep hearing those noises and see that hot, heavy look in his eyes get darker and even hotter.

He opens his mouth a little wider to let his tongue slip out, lapping all the way down Ren's length like he's licking up traces of something sweet and addictive. The whole time he keeps his eyes fixed on Ren's face, not wanting to miss a moment. ]

Is it enough? [ Aoba manages, his voice kind of quiet both from the pressing issue of his libido and from shyness at asking such a question. ] Is.. is it enough to get you there?

[deepvoice]

[ Ren is a little too busy feeling good to take note of Aoba's embarrassment... and well, Aoba being embarrassed in sexual situations is nothing new. As long as Aoba doesn't appear to be uncomfortable by something, Ren knows that it's nothing to worry about. Honestly, it's pretty adorable how Aoba still gets so flustered when they're intimate.

Ren strains to keep his eyes open as he doesn't want to miss a second of Aoba working on his cock like that, but it's difficult with how amazing it feels. He's a little dazed and doesn't quite understand what Aoba is asking him. Is he asking if it's enough to get him off, or enough to get him ready for more? Whatever Aoba means, the answer is a resounding yes and Ren manages to nod his head enthusiastically, feeling like he's lost the ability to speak for the moment. ]

[cosmo_call]

Ah.. Ren.. Good boy. [ Aoba can't help but smile, just a bit, when Ren nods so enthusiastically. He still retains some of his doglike qualities and seeing him lose words and rely solely on eager reactions, especially when they're in response to something Aoba is doing to him, makes him feel so helplessly good that he can't resist diving back in with even more vigor than before. The hand that isn't working Ren's shaft in time with his mouth slips down further, fingers massaging the skin below the length of his cock, feeling every twitch of arousal and beat of Ren's pulse through his sensitive skin.. Aoba groans around the dick in his mouth, then hollows his cheeks and lets Ren slip further into his mouth, hitting the back of his throat again. Ren used to be so easy to get there, just a few touches and he'd be growling and gritting his teeth and coming in Aoba's fist.. but now there's a little more restraint, a little more self control, and Aoba has learnt finesse and knows exactly how to drag things out so that they feel as good as possible.. but right now dragging it out is the last thing Aoba wants to do; which should be evident in the way he sucks at Ren's cock with no inhibitions.. ]

[deepvoice]

[ Ren blushes up to his ears in response to the praise. It's unexpected and somehow really, really hot. It's not as though he needs to get more aroused at this point, nor had he even thought it possible, but that's exactly what happens. His breathing picks up considerably and his fingers grasp tightly at Aoba's hair for a moment before he finds his senses again and lets go.

It's definitely obvious that Aoba's working diligently to make him come, and he's definitely succeeding. The wet, wonderful heat around his cock, Aoba's fingers touching his shaft would've been enough on their own, but those words just seems to get Ren there faster. He moans, his stomach tensing, thighs shaking somewhat as he feels the heat and the pleasure start to pool down below at a rapid pace. ]

A-Aoba!

[ It's the only warning Aoba gets before Ren's releasing, helpless to stop it. As much as he's been trying to keep his eyes open, he can't anymore and they squeeze shut as he releases all the tension that had been building up. His body shakes and he gasps loudly, his fingers grasping at Aoba's hair again. Once he starts coming down, he finally opens his eyes and looks at Aoba again, breathing heavily. ]

[cosmo_call]

[ Seeing Ren fluster is a rare sight, and Aoba almost (veeeery almost) regrets the busy pace his mouth is picking up as it means he can't see Ren's reaction in full view.. but as soon as he feels Ren's thighs start to tense and shake he knows that leering at his lovers face can wait, for now at least.

When Ren comes Aoba feels something tug in his heart, pulling at his own libido just enough to make it a pressing problem though Aoba can't will himself to pay it any attention right now as Ren fills his mouth-- He jerks away but Ren's hands in his hair are holding him close. His mouth pops off, Ren's release spilling down his chin and making his cheeks burn with the immediate realization that he must look entirely debauched. He swallows and tries to wipe the rest away with the back of his hand, flickering his eyes up at the exact moment Ren's open. He flushes a little darker, but even through his embarrassment he smiles. ]

Heh.. Ah-- [ He lowers his hand, fingertips resting gently on Ren's inner thigh. ] ...Was that good?

[deepvoice]

Aoba... [ Ren breathes harshly as he gives Aoba a look full of affection. ] It was incredible. [ It always is, honestly, but sometimes Aoba just seems to get especially into it, making it just that bit even better.

Ren sits up and cups Aoba's chin with his hand, pulling him into a tender kiss - not in the least squeamish about the fact that Aoba's mouth was full of Ren's own release mere seconds ago. When he pulls away his eyes trail down to Aoba's arousal and he licks his lips slowly. ]

But I should not be the only one feeling good...