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Secret dating et al

SECRET dating;

The fact that you're in a relationship with this person isn't public knowledge. Actually, no one knows about it except for the people involved. Maybe you guys are just private like that; on the other hand, it may be a necessity to keep things a secret from others. Maybe you're both team mates, and others on the team would give you grief, or you're not suppose to be dating, or you're not the type to usually date and you're only testing the waters. Perhaps it's the combination of you two, possibly an odd couple, that would bring some controversy or some teasing. Or, you know, you could not want to deal with friends and relatives being busybodies. Your reasons are your own.

Are you content with stealing moments to be together as a couple? Do you want to make your relationship known and the fact that you can't drives you batty? Remember, there are lots of benefits to dating in secret. You can be yourselves completely, away from prying eyes, and get to know each other better as potential longterm romantic partners. In a way, it's ideal.

...still, do you ever wish you could scream from the rooftops how much you care for your significant other?

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Zell couldn't stop smiling from all of Squall's reactions. This was going great! He was happy Squall liked it and even wanted to do it more often! "Sure! We'll figure out more dates." He'd look around for even more private locations now that this one was going so well.

But while Zell liked the band too, he wasn't watching the stage. He kept his gaze on Squall to see what he thought about exactly which band was playing. So it wasn't just the beginning notes that let him know the concert started, it was also from the expression that came over Squall's face, looking surprised and maybe a little excited too? Zell's smile just widened when he heard his name for confirmation. "You said you liked them."

Edited 2016-08-01 23:09 (UTC)

Squall let the music wash over him for a few moments, even closing his eyes to listen. The beat felt good and being here without any prying eyes made it more enjoyable for him. No crowds, no background noise, just the music and the two of them.

After a moment he moved to Zell and pulled him into a hug, wrapping his arms around Zell's waist and leaning to press his forehead against Zell's. "Thank you." He murmured, though he wasn't sure if Zell would hear him over the music now.

It was easier getting affectionate with Zell like this, especially when he didn't have to worry about people walking in on them or people noticing.

Zell spent another moment watching Squall enjoy himself before he turned back to the stage and enjoyed the music as well. His head bobbed lightly with the beat and his mind supplied the lyrics at the same time that the band sang them. He really didn't get out to many concerts, but liking the same band and being here with Squall, this had quickly turned out to be one of his favorite ones.

When he felt Squall touch him, he turned to look at him again, his smile softer now. He actually didn't hear the words with the concert in full swing now, but Squall's actions always spoke for him too. He loved it when Squall became affectionate and he couldn't help but respond in kind. A hand moved up to rest on Squall's shoulder while he tilted his head up to give him a languid kiss. "I'm glad you're enjoying yourself."

Squall smiled into the slow kiss, always enjoying it when Zell initiated. He felt that little flutter of love in his chest again and squeezed Zell closer.

Maybe someday he'd be able to say it. He hoped Zell somehow knew that he did? It was such a complicated thing to say...

But wrapped up in this little tiny paradise on this balcony. He didn't want to complicate things.

He decided to deepen the kiss as the song continued, feeling the beat thump in his chest.

Even now Zell couldn't get enough of being with Squall this way, he didn't think he ever would. When Squall decided to deepen the kiss, Zell's other arm moved to wrap around Squall and keep him close also. He kissed back, releasing his own feelings into the kiss. Since the first time Zell told Squall he loved him, he became more sure of the feeling and said it to him again a number of times, whenever he felt he couldn't contain the words. But the fact was, he wasn't sure how Squall felt about him. Yes, he knew Squall cared about him, quite a bit, that much was obvious even if it was never said quite that way. But did Squall love him back? He liked to think so... certain touches, certain looks... Zell liked to think of them as Squall saying 'I love you too'. Zell would never push it on him to say it though. He knew Squall had a different way of communicating than he did.

Though it would be exciting to hear, Zell didn't need the words. He would take moments like this over any awkwardness that Squall might feel wording his feelings.

The first song slowed and ended and the sound of cheers erupted into the air like thunder. Squall broke the kiss to watch the crowd cheer and clap and turned back to Zell to smile.

He knew deep down that eventually everything would come out. His feelings for Zell in words, telling everyone about what was going on, things like that. Because that was life. The future was always something Squall was worried about though. Peoples reactions and what they would think. He knew none of that probably didn't matter to Zell but he always had a habit of being over critical of things himself.

"I honestly don't know what I did to deserve all this. To deserve us." Squall said next, honestly and openly.

Once the kiss was over, Zell's smile was back. There probably would be a time when all that happened, but there was no reason to worry about it now. When it happened it would be because they were both absolutely ready for it.

He shook his head at Squall's words. "You shouldn't be so hard on yourself!" His expression took on a more serious look. "You're a great leader and you care about everyone under your command, even if it's just in your own way. You'd sacrifice yourself to save your friends... and life has been pretty crazy. You deserve to be happy!" He could go on. Does he need to go on? He looked up at Squall, his hold around him tightening a bit, one hand moving to brush against the clothing that covered where he knew the soulmate mark was, as if by habit now.

Edited 2016-08-03 07:15 (UTC)

Squall was silent as he listened to Zell speak. Sometimes he had second doubts if any of that was true. He liked to command these days and he did care but that was only after he was pressured to do it all and was now accustomed to it. He protected his friends and cared about them, but only because they had tolerated him long enough to become closer to him. It seemed like everything in his life was only because people seemed to gravitate towards him and expected those things from him. And stuck around long enough to allow Squall to adjust.

To just be handed this companionship with Zell. It just...

Instead of replying he just kissed Zell again, rougher this time, clutching him close. Almost desperately.

When it broke he looked down. "I'll try to believe that."

Edited 2016-08-03 21:57 (UTC)

Zell didn't know what to do when he was kissed like that. He could feel a sort of longing desperation in the kiss and the hold around him. Zell tried to reassure him as best he could, but when the kiss broke and Squall spoke those words, he felt his heart ache a little. He wanted Squall to enjoy himself on their first date, not feel like he wasn't good enough. It hurt that Squall didn't think he deserved to be happy, or even the relationship that they had.

"Squall..." Zell spoke, nearly choking on the word as he tried to think of what else he could say. He looked up to Squall again, his eyes wet with unshed tears for the feelings that his best friend and soulmate had. "I love you. Even if you think you don't deserve it, we both wanna be together. ... Right? That should be good enough. I ain't going anywhere." Even if Squall wanted to push him away because of these ridiculous feelings. Squall would have to seriously not want to be with him for him to leave.

There Zell goes again wearing his emotions on his sleeve and letting it all come out as easy as taking a breath. Squall didn't know how he did it.

Squall had a habit of getting inside his own head when these deep thoughts started to whirl up inside him. When he had too many things to think and feel about, to worry about. It was a bad habit he had.

"I'm sorry." He apologized, "I didn't mean to ruin this."

The song was already deep in its second chorus. He let the music wash over him again. It wasn't fair to Zell for him to be getting into one of his moods.

"This is just the happiest I think I've been in a long, long time. Just you and me, that's all that matters."

Zell didn't blame Squall, it was just one of those things that happened. He just wanted Squall to be happy, it wasn't Squall's fault that other feelings popped up. Maybe Zell should have held off on this kind of date until later, after Squall was more used to being in a relationship with him? "You didn't ruin it," he mumbled, looking down again. No, the date probably was too much too soon for Squall. Zell should have thought of that, made their first date a little... less, a movie in one of their rooms, or... or something else...

But Squall's next words stopped that train of thought. Squall was happy, despite the feelings that popped up of not being worthy of it? He closed his eyes and wiped the excess water away with one of his hands before he looked back up again. "So are you... okay with being here?" He knew Squall had earlier, but that was before these feelings came up.

"Of course I am." Squall replied easily, reaching up to mess up Zell's hair. "How could I not, even with a sap like you?"

Perhaps lightening the mood would be healthier for both of them. He inwardly laughs to himself. Maybe he did learn something from Rinoa after all.

He let go of Zell to return to leaning on the balcony to enjoy the music.

"They're really good live. I didn't expect the to be so good. We should do things like this more often."

Zell frowned, a hand instantly moving up to fix his hair. Only it was lying loose right now so it didn't really matter. But it was such a normal response from Zell and as Squall continued to talk, Zell relaxed even more. By the time Squall repeated his earlier statement of doing this more often, Zell was able to give a small smile again.

The issue would probably still be there for a while, but Zell would keep trying to reassure him every time until it got better. He'd also show Squall that it was okay to enjoy moments like this and not worry over if it was deserved or not.

He leaned on the edge of the balcony next to Squall, looking over the stage again as the second song ended. "Yeah, sure, whenever you want!"

Edited 2016-08-04 08:53 (UTC)

As the concert progressed Squall would occasionally touch Zell, a squeeze or a nudge here and a small kiss there. He was thoroughly enjoying himself. As the last song ended and the crowd erupted into a huge thundering chorus of clapping, Squall clapped right along with them. His previous broody mood gone.

The lights got brighter and and he looked to Zell. "You're staying in my room tonight, I hope you know that." He commented, giving Zell a somewhat teasing smile.

Fortunately, the mood stayed light and fun for the rest of the concert. Zell delighted in the touches Squall gave him and he moved to stand close enough to Squall so that he'd always be touching him back in some way or another. A brush of their hands or arms, when Zell didn't actively touch him back.

When the concert ended, Zell felt like it was way too soon. Still, he cheered with the audience below them and in accompaniment to Squall's clapping. It was hard to believe so much time had passed; he was left excited and energized from listening to the band live with Squall beside him. The fact that Squall enjoyed himself made it even better!

The date didn't have to end here, if Squall didn't want it to. When the cheering and clapping eventually died down, Zell turned to Squall to ask him about the other thing he'd planned, but Squall spoke first. The grin that broke out over Zell's expression said that he clearly understood the promise underneath the words. He grabbed Squall again, happiness bubbling over, and gave him a firm and excited kiss.

It only lasted a moment though, before Zell asked what he wanted to before. "Alright! Did you want to head back now, or are you hungry? There's still quite a few restaurants open." It was Deling City, after all. While Zell was definitely looking forward to spending the night in Squall's room, he also wanted to make the most out of their date.

Squall had been so caught up with everything that he had nearly forgotten about dinner. That was a sure sign that he enjoyed himself. He nods at Zell and goes to retrieve his jacket and hat.

"Dinner. Are you in the mood for something fast or sit in at a restaurant? I'm not picky about where we go." He said as he went to put his jacket on.

Squall wasn't a picky eater, he would usually find something on the menu that caught his eye anywhere he went. There were a few things he disliked but for the most part he wasn't picky. He'd let Zell take them wherever he wanted to go. After all it was just as much Zell's night as it was Squall's.

"There's this place I was thinkin' of... it's got outdoor seating if it ain't too cold for you." It was one of the reasons he'd gotten himself a warmer jacket. It would be chilly enough outside so that most people wouldn't choose to sit outside to eat, so they could stay mostly if not completely private for dinner too. Any other restaurant with private booths would be too fancy for their casual attire and theme. And with Squall having Shiva junctioned most of the time when they'd had to junction GFs, maybe Squall wouldn't mind the chill so much?

"That's fine." Squall replied, giving a light shrug. He preferred colder weather. That probably did have to do with the fact that Shiva was junctioned most of the time. Cool weather was much more agreeable for Squall and he found it more comfortable. Summer was such suffering.

"As long as it's quiet, as much as I liked the concert I could use some quiet." The concert had been loud and the crowds had screamed loudly. He was still ever grateful to not be down in the throngs of people but he wasn't accustomed to loud concerts just yet. As an introvert, Squall was ready to wind down.

"It should be!" Zell smiled and grabbed his own jacket, ready to put it on once they made it down the stairs. "If not, we'll just pick up somethin' to eat on the train." But hopefully his guess would be correct and they could relax and eat at the restaurant.

Zell waited until Squall had his jacket and hat situated before opening the door and leaving the concert hall. When he got to the bottom of the stairs, he put on his jacket and stepped out into the night. It wasn't too bad, a little colder than when they'd first arrived, but not bad with the warmer jacket. Once he got to eating he knew he wouldn't really pay attention to it. The crowd leaving the concert was a little more thinned out than when they'd arrived too. Everyone headed in their own direction, at least half were heading in the opposite direction than where they had to go.

Zell glanced at Squall, debating for all of a second before he reached out to hold his hand again. If Squall made any type of questioning response, he could always say it was easier to lead him to their destination this way... even though the crowd wasn't as large as it had been before. He still thought of a relationship as a private thing, but no one knew who they were and probably wouldn't look twice at them anyway, even if they did notice them with all the other people around. But he couldn't help but want to continue to touch Squall in some way.

The walk to the restaurant didn't take long. It was maybe about a mile walk, but Zell was content to just hold Squall's hand and walk there rather than take any tram. They were max level SeeDs who used to walk around a lot as well as keep up with other exercises, so it didn't really bother them. Zell was enjoying his alone time with Squall and most of their short trip was spent in a comfortable silence, keeping up with Squall's wishes for some quiet.

Though it wasn't all that quiet out on the street, people still walking around from this place to that. But they arrived at the restaurant Zell mentioned (a casual sit down restaurant with a variety of different foods) soon enough. The hostess gave Zell an odd look when he asked to be seated outside, but he carefully forced his expression not to smile at her, instead just kept a steady stare and stated that he was sure. There was another moment when Squall couldn't get the quiet he wanted when they were led through the half full restaurant. Everyone's chatter mingled together to make it a little louder than it would have been in normal conversation.

But through the doors near the back, they were met with a pretty nice view nighttime view, and thankfully no other diners. Even the noise from the street and inside the restaurant was a dull hum. Once they were seated and the hostess left, Zell let out his bright grin, glad that it was as he thought and hoped it would be. "So, what do you think?" His tone said just how enthusiastic he still was.

Edited 2016-08-07 01:40 (UTC)

When they had first arrived at the restaurant and the hostess had given Zell such a strange look Squall had glared at her coldly. What business was it of hers to judge them for wanting to eat outside? Or give Zell such an attitude about it? Perhaps Squall was gaining a little bit of an over-protective edge when it came to things around Zell but his cold glare at her had been like daggers. Where as Zell took to his natural damage control and led them through the restaurant, he decided to spare her and keep his mouth shut in favor of keeping the peace. She was lucky Zell was here.

Once they were seated away from the noise of the restaurant Squall let out a small sigh. The fresh cool air was nice on his skin and he reached a hand up to scratch at his hair under the hat a bit awkwardly.

"I'll be honest, I'm excited to get back to Garden soon." He said, voice small. It had been such a busy day for them and he was getting a bit exhausted and his energy was draining. Squall liked to decompress at the end of the day and his energy was about spent. He didn't know how Zell was able to keep up so well.

Just then, his stomach let out a small audible rumble in protest. "But dinner first. This place is nice." He said, coloring a bit.

Since Zell was already smiling, he couldn't grin at Squall's words about wanting to get back to Garden, but his eyes shined with a similar excitement. Not because he was losing energy as quickly as Squall was, but because he knew he'd be spending the night in Squall's room again. Zell would always be excited when they spent the night together. Since his expression couldn't really reply to Squall's words, he moved his foot to touch Squall's under the table, acknowledging his words.

Before he could say anything in reply to them also, Squall's stomach made a small noise. He wouldn't laugh! But he did look away for a second while he controlled it. When he looked back, Squall had a cute little blush to his cheeks and Zell's smile became a little more loving.

He really liked all these expression he got to see on Squall. "Yeah, it is. Nice and quiet too, just like you wanted!" He replied, before speaking a little more quietly. "I'm excited to get back to Garden too. In your room, right?" His foot moved slightly against the bottom of Squall's leg, unable to really touch him over the table.

It was a good thing that Zell contained his laugh because Squall would have snapped at him coldly for it, had he. But Squall did notice the restraint and and looked slightly more on the embarrassed side than angry.

His gazed wandered from the menu's main entrees back up to Zell and he watched him for a moment through his dark brown bangs. Feeling Zell's foot slide against his leg under the table did send a little jolt of excitement through him ever so slightly. Yes that would be an excellent way to de-stress after a long day...

"Yes, my room. As soon as we get back." He said with a slight huff. He looked down at the menu and scanned the pasta, with a smile on his lips. He didn't return the footsie because it made him feel a little childishly embarrassed but he wouldn't be angry if Zell kept doing it.

Zell was more amused at the timing than the fact that it actually happened, but he did hold it back because he knew it would probably be taken badly.

But that moment had passed. Now Zell kept staring at the expressions Squall made; that look partially hidden by his bangs, then the smile after his reply. 'As soon as we get back' repeated itself in Zell's head. While it would be kind of late by the time they got back to Garden, Zell liked to think that the statement was made out of eagerness rather than consideration for the time.

"Yeah, soon as we get back." Zell repeated out loud, agreeing with Squall's statement. A few thoughts filtered through his mind over what they could do when they got back, accompanied by images seconds after. Squall hadn't said anything about Zell touching him how he could under the table and so he'd kept the motions with his foot, moving it almost idly as he got lost in the ideas his mind procured.

But it completely distracted Zell from looking over his own menu and he was startled out of the fantasies when he'd heard a voice. Blushing a little once he noticed it was their waiter coming to see if they were ready to have their order taken, he hastily looked down at the menu. Squall could go first, if he was ready.

When they got back to Garden it would be late, but vacated for the most part. Curfew would be in effect for students and the training facilities would be shut down for the night. At most some late night instructors might be wandering around. The idea that as soon as they got back to Garden he could get rid of his hat and jacket and be able to walk with Zell naturally was a welcomed thought.

As Zell repeated him he felt excitement flip in his belly again. And as Zell continued his touch under the table Squall nearly returned the affection with his own foot sliding against Zell's ankle-- until the waiter came near.

She made a flirty comment, are you two lovebirds ready to order? And Squall stopped his foot. His faced warmed but he gave her an icy glare.

"The gnocchi with meat sauce." He said with a hint of annoyance and don't say another comment like that again in his tone.

Getting caught flirting ...was the worst.

Another thrill went through Zell when he felt Squall return the affection, he had always enjoyed it when Squall touched him. But they were interrupted and all motions stopped as well. Zell could swear their waiter could hear his heart beating. He didn't hear the actual words she said, too caught up in his fantasies, but he heard the tone in Squall's voice and blushed a little deeper. Surely she must know.

"The, ah... w-whatever the special is." Without looking up he slid the menu closer to their waiter and hunched over a little more, trying to hide his blush from her. She must suspect every thought he had. The menu was taken and she may have left in a hurry but Zell didn't look up until a moment after, looking to make sure she was gone.

He gave a sigh and relaxed his posture a little bit. Even after all that, Zell still wanted to continue to touch Squall... but he was convinced she saw everything, suspected every thought! He fidgeted in his seat a little, took a drink of his water, and glanced back at the door that led to the restaurant.

... Okay, so maybe she didn't see much. It was dark out and their angle with the door and the outdoor lights put a lot of shadows under the table. Maybe... maybe she had only seen the look he was giving Squall. That was still quite a lot, though, he knew he couldn't help his open expressions from saying what he was thinking.

It must have been uncomfortable for Squall. He quickly looked back to him. "Sorry... ah, that was my fault."

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