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"Can You Handle Your Emotions?"

Emotions are... eh. We all have them, whether we want to or not. Some people have control over their emotions, and some people let their emotions control them. Where does your character fall on this spectrum? More importantly, what's their relationship with their emotions like? Do they bury everything deep, deep down inside, or are they the first one to cry over a sappy movie? Do they even know how they feel about what's going on inside? Pretty meta stuff.

No blank top-levels.
Instead, characters are to respond to the proposed question: can you handle your emotions? / are you in touch with your feelings?
Get deep. Look within. Hear, think feel... or don't.

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Mm. What kind of animals does he like? Purchase the closest version in your kingdom.
You can introduce him to Cerberus later.

[she thinks it's better to start with general and local wildlife.]

She was a child who lost most of her family, and her kingdom was in ruins when I rescued her. [she frowns, trying to compare her to an adult is unfair.]
Gehenna is at the limit of Assiah as the top layer of Hell.
And this means it receives all Assiah's pollution. This made life harder for those who lived there.
While I stayed, I cleared the atmosphere, water, and soil, but that contamination returned after I was cursed.

[she lowers her eyelids. and since it's not necessarily running on the same timeflow, it meant the pollution came from the past and future too.]
...
For a long time, she also thought that was the reason why the barriers of her kingdom collapsed and permitted angels to massacre her people, including her parents.
That is in the past now. Kurai has truly matured in kindness and wisdom. And she finally embraced what I taught her.

[she's proud of her, and of setsuna and his, friends to make her realize that they could all live together. she can be temperamental, but that girl has a pure soul and a good heart.]

You mean a plushie, right?

He's stationed on Earth, he doesn't have a live panda.

Devildom has a lot. So many unique monsters. He likes greyscale. Pandas and raccoons. Bears in general. Psychologically, that speaks to someone overwhelmed by the chaos in their life and needing a break from external stimuli. [You can see where that appeals to Lucifer.]

[But the explanation of Kurai....]

[Yeah. Yeah. He feels that in the marrow of all his bones.]

[It explains why she could handle his temper tantrums about humanity so easily.] You'd like him. The General. He's way more like me than you... but he's kind. Even though he can see the youkai, the bad things of humans, he doesn't feel more loyalty to demons like me. He purposely surrounds himself with humans, and tells me their good points... e-even more than Lord Diavolo... [He FEELS traitorous for saying that. Thinking, feeling, knowing it's true, but allowing himself to acknowledge it, as if denying it would make it go away. Politically, he knows he can get away with it, because Mephisto and others would love nothing more than to have Lucifer date someone in the human realm, especially as it strengthens DEVILDOM proper not exclusively Lord Diavolo.]

Why are we always giving heaven a free pass?!

Not you, everyone else, all other timelines. Like they just are natural consequences and are powerless to change it?! Such crap.

[Kicks nothing.]

Plu...shie? [she doesn't immediately recognize the word. ah. "stuffed toy?"] those dolls modeled after animals with synthetic fur?
I mean, in general, which animals does he like?

You could purchase books or videos of the wildlife in the Devildom.

[those human's nature documentaries, do they have those in there? she doesn't know.]

...

[this is the second time morningstar is trying to advertise his partner-to-be. he doesn't need her approval. ]
I don't have to like him.
You're the one who is interested in him.

[her brows crease when he makes his point about giving heaven as a pass. she terrorized heaven enough to become their bogeywoman.]

Good.
[he was on thin ice if he included her.]
I thought your Celestial Realm wasn't as bad.

Yes. Like I said, pandas, bears, probably black and white rabbits. [Chinhand thought.]

I'll look. Maybe a field guide of flowers. [THE GENERAL IS THAT MOE.]

Have to isn't it. You're family. It's only natural I'd want you to get along. Ah. Perhaps it's also... watching after Sheep-Chan I've learned that people need a solid support network, not one-sided. [Shakes a hand through his hair.] Sorry.

Heaven's not that bad, especially compared to all the others I've heard about, but it's -- When Lilith fell, we all just blamed ourselves, Belphie lashed out at humanity, I still don't know how much Adam knew or understood, and I don't get why Father was so angry. What is it about humanity that would have been destroyed that she was risking even if she was just oblivious??? I don't get it.

[Both hands up in exasperation.] And humans. They always act like heaven is absolutely correct, always. At least in ours, in my experience -- and I'm jaded, and it's self-selection bias. I still don't get it.

He enjoys flowers, too? [why not give him a potted plant? a plastic one if the genuine article can't grow outside that realm.]

Hah. I wouldn't say we must get along just because we're family. [she murmurs, thinking about her father. her family has always been god, rosiel and the adam kadmon, and they have all hurt each other. mostly unwillingly, except for him.]

That little lamb is sharp and clever to teach you that lesson.

[she adds warmly, voice full of approval.]

Mm.
You don't have to agree with every decision, Morningstar.
But you have spread your arms in cooperation with both realms. Mistakes and flaws are different from corruption.

Yes. We have so many in Devildom. 500 types of Hellroses alone. In the earliest days before demon lands absorbed everything that was what was really left of the faerie lands. But it actually got a lot more incredible with the demons spread. Better adapting and morphing to harsh environments, rather than needing so much pampering. Well I guess that's why the hell roses. They bloom more the more they're cut.

Not must, just that I want you to.

Hah, you like her before meeting her. Your Lilith bias is showing. [But that's fine, he's glad.]

I can accept mistakes. I can't accept that heaven is supposed to be an embodiment of the absolute good if it ignores innocents suffering it could save just doesn't "for free will." Whose will is it? [His?? But why?]

[Ugh.] Ugh. Don't mind me. This gives me migraines every time. So I guess the answer is I'm suffering of my own stupid choices, and real question is who the hell is it helping?

What else do they do? [his favorites apples are poisonous, she has to ask the difference between those and the ones humans grow.] Are they safe for you to give him some to plant in his home?
Not must, just that I want you to.

Human bias. [ she corrects with a shrug.] I never met the pair in the shadow replica of God's garden. They had already passed when I visited Assiah.

[she does agree with him. that contradiction is difficult to handle. wordlessly, she reaches to touch his arm; a mere brush to offer silent comfort as he struggles to reconcile that. then, she retracts her hand to speak.]

The citizens of Devilmdom seem happy, from what I've observed in my brief visit.
Sometimes, being a 'home' is good enough. There's no need for a greater purpose.

Hell no.

Every single flower variant in all of Hell runs a risk of doing something freaky and disturbing. And that's not even counting the effects it has on humans which we're only BARELY beginning to understand. Uncontrollable laughter for 500 years, way too many weird aphrodisiac drug plants, all sorts of weird poisons. I can't even just tell what will be dangerous until we try, because he's not human, he's something else entirely.

[A small tight smile.] Thank you, Alexiel. [It helps. A lot.]

Mm. But consider all those hypothetical catastrophes and the environmental hazards drawbacks can be balanced by the impact of that romantic gesture.

[she's mostly jesting. what a pity.]

[ads;lasjkdalkjds:ASLKJd]

[He loves this, but that's HIS JOKES TO MAKE GOSH!]

Oi oi...

[PFFFFT. He can't help laughing.] I told him I would take him to see them, but not to go alone. Or with my brothers.

Hah.
Is that a subtle request to keep an eye on them again while you entertain your guest?

[Blushes.]

[Nods.]

It wasn't. But now that you mention it, I'd appreciate it. Though if they were really as docile as you say, maybe it's unnecessary?

Oh? Would you like to gamble your evening?

[he can test waters and find out.]

Nope! Thank you very much cousin! I'm in your debt!

[...............] Why the fuck did I sound like Mammon there?

Mm.
Natural behavior toward an elder.

You are not! Stop that!

Too late- [she laughs and reaches out to ruffle his hair. she has to tiptoe because why he's so tall.] Little Cousin.

No! I will bite your hand. You can claim to be the oldest of yours, but I'm still the oldest here.

Hah. Why are you always itching to sink your teeth into something?

[It's a good question. Good enough he pauses. Because WHY IS THAT THOUGH?]

I don't know. I've wound up as a vampire twice, werewolf twice, even as a bat I want to. Maybe it's some sort of affection aggression? Even as a unicorn I wanted to bite everyone and everything. And kick. And stomp on feet. [MORE as a unicorn. To assert DOMINANCE. Also kick everyone's face. INTERESTINGLY; not so as a bunny butler. WHY IS THAT THOUGH?!!?!? ... attention? PREY ANIMAL FEAR?! Does the literal ACT of putting bunny ears and a tail on him turn him more docile?! What the fuck is wrong with him? Or maybe it's attention? No but then why in the unicorn hoodie? FUCK.]

I think I also don't want to string you up like I do to Mammon and Levi. [Yeah! That!!! It must be, right? Because he SERIOUSLY wanted to string everyone up, but couldn't so the biting was just the next best thing. And since he doesn't want to bite Mammon and Levi, but DOES want to string them up...]

I will tweak my system.

Although.... I kind of want to tie up the General.

[LUCIFER SNAP OUT OF IT!]

[Nope he's gone in a fantasy.]

[....] What was I saying?

Can I re-read a psych textbook and get back to you on that?

[Literally writes a note on his hand: no biting. Look up psych]

[ she hasn't expected this sudden self-analysis. she has expected a remnant of gluttony from his yuonger brother to give him those urges, but-

her expression sharpens.]

No restraints. [good he doesn't have that itch with her. he has a boyfriend and brothers to work his bondage fetish. think of the paperwork she'll burn with his house. after he finishes, she moves her hand from trying to pat his head to cover his mouth.]

Listen to this, I will say once. [no interruptions. teeth safely tucked inside.] I don't care if you bite me or not, but if you taste either my flesh or blood, it could be dangerous for you.

[that's why she's threatened to knock his teeth in the past. she doesn't care about the pain.]

Do you know what the forbidden fruit is made of?

[she pulls her hand away.]

Wouldn't dream of it with you. [Genuinely 100%, he never ever wanted to. She wants her wings spread and to go flying. He might be too terrified of it still, but would never want her to hold back on his account.]

[Maybe why he wants to tie up his brothers and the General. They keep getting into too much trouble for him to fight to protect them from. On the other hand, Alexiel both 1) can get out of the restraints, and 2) can handle more trouble than Lucifer. So the urge is never there.]

The golden apple of immortality? Yes. Aside from the Greek reference of Hesperides, and the Wukong reference of golden peaches, and the MEs-tree in Sumerian [....... Why the fuck is he bothering with this with Alexiel? Sorry, he doesn't know either. He's in that ADHD over-explain NERVOUS ENERGY mode] -- it's a tool father has to allow someone to reach other dimensions and powers than otherwise. To bypass their restrictions. But obviously, if you can't handle it, you might as well explode. A whole nuclear fusion combustion thing but on your DNA.

[...... SIGH.]

[STEELING HIMSELF.]

[Okay. Let's go.] I assume you're going to say it's you? [RUBS HIS EYEBROW. Whry. What is WRONG with Father in her timeline? Everything. Maybe not everything-everything but definitely everything.] Or I guess your twin because -- [Decay? Or something.]

Mm. [ alexiel observes he's tensed, as if he's bracing himself. she crouches down on the cold, hard ground, patting the spot beside her. he can still choose to stand, but she thinks it's better to explain this when they are relaxed.

he can rest his head on her too if he feels weariness.]

Sit with me. [ she coaxes him with a gesture. ] What I will tell you, must remain between us.

[she doesn't say he's wrong, nor confirms he's right. the truth is a little of both.]

I will tell you how things were made. You will understand then, why feasting from me is both a blessing and a curse.

[.......there's a certain indifference in her voice as she says that, as if she doesn't find it weird. no, some are lured to the irresistible scent she usually suppresses. what her brother purposely uses, knowing how addictive it can be, how nobody could truly deny or escape once tasted. fruits are flesh, and flesh are fruits. it's all linked together. ]

In the beginning, there was God, our Father. Alone before all things. And then he made something.
Not something-Everything.
And everything was a being that embodied all this: An angel that was the blueprint of all things to come, all that will be.

[her eyes look up, to the ceiling if there'sa roof, or the sky if there's none.]

Their name was the Adam Kadmon.

[Sits.]

[Offers her his gloved hand. He might need it. Who knows.]

[Slowly he nods.]

[Right, keeping in line with the MEs-fruits of Sumerian, blueprints of greater things and truths, and the Kabbalah.]

[Truth in everything, nothing has 100% of it, only by comparing and getting rid of the refuse. Which wasn't so much refuse in Alexiel's case as just... Lucifer doesn't want that world. Alexiel kind of doesn't, and she only exists in it that they know of so far.]

I follow. [Oh wait, maybe that's not enough. Plus, to save time and energy for them both--]

He was a primordial blueprint in the Kabbalah - certain Jewish teachings, which works with you being primordial Lilith. Correct?

listen to your heart 😌

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cw: cannibalism, body horror onwards may be mentioned lol typical angel sanctuary things

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cw: idfk speculative scifi/fantasy/theology insanity

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This looks like a wrap??