Angst Meme

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ANGST MEME



Sometimes we all want to play some angst and see just how far our characters will fall.
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1. just depressed.
Things are tough, you're feeling worn out, or whatever the case, you're depressed. You need help or someone else thinks you do anyway.

2. abandoned.
You were left behind by everyone you hold dear and now you're forced to see how well they've adjusted, how happy they all are while you're screaming inside.

3. sick.
Cold, flu, or something even worse, all you can do is lay back and let someone take care of you.

4. fight.
You've been fighting nonstop with the other person and it just keep escalating.

5. break up.
You're being broken up with and they won't reconsider... Damn.

6. separated.
For some reason, you've been separated from the other person for a long time.

7. kidnapped.
You've been held captive for how long now? Maybe they've been torturing you even, using your blood to write ransom notes, threatening to cut off fingers to send next, etc. Rescue is on the way though, right?

8. beaten up.
Just because someone didn't like you or maybe they wanted something you had, whatever the case is, you're coming home sporting some nasty wounds and bruises.

9. jealousy.
You just have this undeniable jealousy suddenly and you need to let it out.

10. cheated on.
This goes beyond just suspicion and you have full on proof of what your lover has done. How do you handle it?

11. apathetic.
You're not sad, you're not happy, you just... don't feel much anymore. The sparkle of life has gone right out of you and you're just going through the motions now.

12. addicted.
Drugs, alcohol, whatever your drug of choice is, you can't fight the draw and you can't draw yourself out of the hole, but the other person is going to try.

13. bad romance.
You know this isn't good for either of you, but you can't stop now.

14. fear.
Nightmares, the feeling someone is following you, etc. You can't shake the feeling.

15. insanity.
You're seeing things and hearing them, waking up only to realize you've done things you don't remember or you're in a place you weren't before. You're losing it and you don't know what to do.

16. guilt.
It's eating you up inside and you have to tell someone about it now. You want to be punished and you won't take no for an answer.

17. loss
You've lost something dear to you.

18. wild card.
Combine some options or make your own!

Comments

[takingchances]

[Works beautifully for me! Try this on for size and let me know if anything needs tweaked / changed for your liking! c:]

[Eva has never pried into the details of her sister's job given it's nature and all. Who wanted to be pried for the details of a rough job? Now and then tidbits would spill forth over family dinners or the occasional coffee meetup but there's was a sort of silent pact between them both that what was volunteered was what was discussed and they were there to decompress.

So color Eva more than a little surprised when Traci came to her with a request that on the surface was simplistic enough.]

We've got this case going on right now ... it's rough, Eva. Real rough. I can't go into details but we have a client that can't go home quite yet. We're arranging things but until the case is finished here in a few weeks our hands are sort of tied. I think some of her family is making the trip here thought but it would be nice if she could stay with someone with some clinical knowledge.

[Ah. Eva had gotten what Traci meant near instantly. The client needed some peace and quiet to sort through their thoughts and emotions and any foster families they had might be too bustling for that. Putting them up in a hotel or something just seemed cruel too.

So with Eva's ready agreement she soon found herself playing host. She'd switched around the spare bedroom she called her office, culled just a few of the many potted plants that had called it home and gives a sheepish laugh the first time she brings Luisa home with her.]

Don't be afraid to move any of the plants around. I'm rearranging things a little since I've filled the balcony up a little too much.

[She isn't lying about that either. There's an ivy plant clinging around the window in the kitchen of her apartment and a hibiscus plant in full bloom that looks like it was recently transplanted into it's pot.]

[neverbreaks]

((Looks good to me! =3 ))

[ The past few...Luisa doesn't even really know how long it's been anymore, everything has been a bit of blur for her. All she really knows is that it's been too long, and she just really wanted to go home.

And some part of her does feel bad, for being a bit ungrateful to the people who have been helping her so far since this all happened. But they were also the ones telling her that she couldn't go home yet, which was frustrating. There were reasons, they'd said, but it didn't seem like they were quite telling her everything. She didn't really know what was going on, but she missed her family and her home, and she wasn't sure how much longer it would be until she could see them again.

So when she was sent to stay with someone, she was more than a little morose. ]

...Thank you.

[ She still wanted to be polite, but this just...isn't where she wanted to be. ]

[takingchances]

[Poor girl. Eva couldn't even begin to relate to what she had been through, not on a one-on-one level or anything like that. She doesn't have a desire to press her out of that moroseness either because hell, it's well deserved to say the least.]

We'll just be together for a few weeks before your family gets here but just so you know, my door is always open. I'll listen to whatever you want to say but you don't have to say a thing if you don't want to.

[And with that it seems like Eva is going to set aside any sort of would-be counseling for sort of acting like Luisa has always been around. She can only imagine the teenager's been prodded enough during the course of the investigation so it's probably better to simply give her the option of talking without the pressing need to do so.

Eva rattles around the fridge a moment to draw out a jug of tea as she adds:]

It's usually pretty quiet here to be honest. Unless my nephew is here anyhow. Now he'll do all your talking, his talking and then some.

[neverbreaks]

[ She nods in acknowledgement, though whether she will actually seek her out to talk is another matter entirely. Luisa herself isn't even entirely sure.

She is grateful that the woman isn't trying to pry, though, and it does help her warm up to Eva a little bit. As she talks about her nephew, Luisa can't help a faint smile. ]

...kind of sounds like my cousin.

[ The reminder is both comforting and a bit painful, as she thinks back to the family she's so desperately missing. But the image of her funny, talkative cousin does help a little bit too. ]

[takingchances]

[Eva breathes out a little laugh.]

I guess every family has at least one. They have a favorite topic? Jamie's favorite thing at the moment is weird animals. That kid knows way more facts about the platypus than anyone has any right to.

[The way Eva says it is full of fondness. She's had six years of the kid after all and Traci claimed he was as much Eva's child as he was hers. Eva brings out glasses as she talks and then offers Luisa one just to see if she wants it before she pours her own. It doesn't seem to bother the older woman if the drink isn't accepted.]

[neverbreaks]

[ She shakes her head a little. ] No, nothing in particular, I don't think. Although he...did kind of like to tease my older sister a bit.

[ Just a little, though, in that way that families teased each other. ]

My other cousin really loves animals, though. He can -

[ She pauses, wincing a bit before glancing down at her hands. She'd learned recently - unfortunately - that talking about their gifts could actually lead to trouble sometimes. ]

[takingchances]

[Eva's expression perks up a bit at that.]

Ah the eternal struggle between family. I never made my sister's life very easy either.

[The cut off in her words, the ensuing silence -- yeah. It mulls Eva's expression just a touch, not in a pitying way but it never ceased to astound her how casually and deliberately cruel other people could be. Seeing it over and over again in the memories of patients was one thing but in real life to someone so young?

She takes in a breath momentarily, takes up her glass and gestures so the pair of them can plop down on her overstuffed and thoroughly beaten into comfy submission sofa.]

So you've got one who teases and one who likes animals, hm? Sounds like you've got a big family there.

[neverbreaks]

[ She glances up briefly, and follow Eva to the couch. She sits down gingerly on the end, still a bit uncertain and guarded as she debates on how much she wants to say. She doesn't want to give too much away at the risk of endangering her family, but Eva did seem nice enough.

Then again, she has had to relearn how much trust she can really give to others. ]

...yeah. There, uh...There are twelve of us living together.

[takingchances]

Twelve! Whew, that's a house full.

[Eva laughs a little gently.]

I wanted a big family like that when I was younger.

[She sounds a little wistful there.]

You're the first person I've admitted that to, you know?

[neverbreaks]

[ Luisa laughs faintly. ] Yeah...it's a pretty big house.

[ The admission has her glancing up at Eva again, and she tilts her head curiously. ]

Really?

[takingchances]

Oh yeah! I wasn't about to tell Traci back then and I sure wouldn't now. I can already hear her.

[She does a remarkably good impersonation of her sister by the by.]

"This is why I keep trying to set you up with someone, Eva! Why are you so difficult about this!"

[As Eva winds down on her performance she huffs out a bigger laugh, sinking back into the sofa.]

She means well but the last thing I needed was her hounding me more.

[neverbreaks]

[ Luisa hesitates a moment. It’s really none of her business, but she can’t help the question as it leaves her lips. ]

…You don’t…want to get married?

[ She doesn’t mean anything by it, she’s just genuinely curious. ]

[takingchances]

[Eva has her cup halfway to her mouth at that question. She looks mildly surprised, not expecting that topic in the least.]

Oh. Well... yeah. To the right person anyhow.

[She wasn't one to blush often but yep, there she goes, she can feel it. The mild surprise is quickly replaced with a light grin even as the flush persists.]

Just I'm not sure my sister's idea of "the right person" is my idea, you know?

[It does peak her curiosity though that Luisa tripped right onto marriage. Maybe it was on her mind?]

How about you? You want to get married some day?

[neverbreaks]

Oh. [ She nods, because she can kind of understand that too. She does feel a little bad though, seeing that she embarrassed her host.

So when Eva asks her that, she sort of expects it, but she still hesitates for a moment before shrugging. ]

I mean, I’d like to get married someday. I think it’d be nice, but… [ She looks down at her hands, fingers curled in the fabric of her skirt. ] I’m not really…expecting it to happen.

[takingchances]

[Oh? Eva's brows perk a little. She knew Luisa was more young adult than teenager so feeling out your interests was perfectly natural but the way she put it...

Eva looked away for a moment, mulling over her words. Then she nodded gently.]

I get it. I think that way now too.

[But Eva was creeping into her thirties now. Not that marriage didn't happen after that age but it was a little more difficult in some ways. Luisa though... her tone lightens some.]

Someone just right for you and me both could be right around the corner. That probably sounds overly optimistic but you never know.

[She snorts just a little.]

The most loving couple I know are a pair of my coworkers -- Dr. Taima McMillan and her husband Dr. Willis McMillan. They're pushing seventy or so now and they're practically attached at the hip.

[neverbreaks]

[ Another faint smile flits across her face. ] That’s like my parents, or my Tía and Tío. They’re so in love, you’d think they just got married yesterday.

[ The smile fades again though as she shakes her head. ] But there aren’t many guys who’d be interested in…a girl like me.

[takingchances]

[It's probably thanks to Taima and Willis that Eva can readily imagine that sort of relationship. If her family is that close, all in one house and with loving relatives it's little wonder she wants to get back soon. It makes Eva's heart hurt all over again in a way.

Luisa's reply surprises her though. Two for two today, Neil would be envious!]

What, really? You sure the guys around you have good taste?

[It's a healthy portion of incredulous that colors Eva's tone.]

[neverbreaks]

[ A bit self-consciously, Luisa grips her one arm with the other hand. ] I’m too…tall. And… [ She runs a hand over the muscles of her arm. ] too big. Especially compared to all the other women in my family. Or even just the rest of the town.

And guys don’t really want a girl who’s…stronger than they are.

[ Despite the people in town appreciating her gift, not many men would want to live with that all the time. ]

[takingchances]

[Huh. Eva looks like she's considering all the facts laid out -- too tall, too big, too strong. She knows what she wants to say here but it's pretty cheesy. It's how she feels though so as long as she doesn't pry she cant probably get away with it... maybe.]

I think in the end the guy you really want will accept all those things about you that even you have a hard time accepting. That's just what real love is in the end, acceptance.

[Eva winces just a little, maybe in just a hint of embarrassment.]

That's sounds pretty cheesy though, I know.

[neverbreaks]

[ Luisa feels her ears and cheeks flush a bit. It wasn’t that she didn’t accept these things about her, exactly. But she is more aware of her appearance since it makes her stand out from everyone else in town.

But the other woman’s words still brought a small smile to her face. ]

…like a fairy tale.

[ It is a nice thought. To find someone who could love and accept her, no matter what. It’s hard to believe that it could really happen most of the time…but there maybe there is still a part of her that never really grows out of stories like that. ]

[takingchances]

[She's sorry if the boisterous laugh she gives surprises Luisa or anything but that's such a Neil thing to say but said like 500% nicer than Neil would say it that Eva can't help herself.]

I guess you see what I'm still single now, hm?

[neverbreaks]

[ She is a bit startled by the laugh, and she flushes a little, worried she might have said something wrong. ]

N-No, it's...I mean, it's nice. I don't...think there's anything wrong with waiting for the right person.

[takingchances]

[Eva looks amused more than anything else but seeing Luisa's fluster her smile mulls into something a little more affectionate.]

Yeah, I understand. Sorry, I could just hear one of my coworkers in my head. You put it a lot nicer than he would, hahaha.

[She takes a bit of a chance, reaching over to gently pat the other woman's shoulder.]

There's absolutely nothing wrong with it. You've got to decide for yourself what it is you want like that in a lot of things. Don't be too shocked if what you want changes over time though.

[neverbreaks]

[ She relaxes a bit, relieved that she hadn't said anything to offend her. ]

Yeah, I guess that's true. I think it's...tough sometimes, though. Trying to figure out what you want or need. Sometimes you don't always really know.

[takingchances]

A lot of the time you don't know. And sometimes you think you want one thing, then find you want another ... and then maybe you go back to the first thing again.

[Eva's expression mulls into something extremely wistful.]

I don't think you ever find complete fulfillment in your life though. What you wanted, what you ended up with -- you always sort of end up yearning for whatever you didn't have in the end. So when you look back on it all, maybe the best you can hope for is to be content with the journey you had.

[... Okay, gosh, this poor woman. Eva blinks a time or two, realizes she sort of started philosophizing here.]