Angst Meme

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ANGST MEME



Sometimes we all want to play some angst and see just how far our characters will fall.
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1. just depressed.
Things are tough, you're feeling worn out, or whatever the case, you're depressed. You need help or someone else thinks you do anyway.

2. abandoned.
You were left behind by everyone you hold dear and now you're forced to see how well they've adjusted, how happy they all are while you're screaming inside.

3. sick.
Cold, flu, or something even worse, all you can do is lay back and let someone take care of you.

4. fight.
You've been fighting nonstop with the other person and it just keep escalating.

5. break up.
You're being broken up with and they won't reconsider... Damn.

6. separated.
For some reason, you've been separated from the other person for a long time.

7. kidnapped.
You've been held captive for how long now? Maybe they've been torturing you even, using your blood to write ransom notes, threatening to cut off fingers to send next, etc. Rescue is on the way though, right?

8. beaten up.
Just because someone didn't like you or maybe they wanted something you had, whatever the case is, you're coming home sporting some nasty wounds and bruises.

9. jealousy.
You just have this undeniable jealousy suddenly and you need to let it out.

10. cheated on.
This goes beyond just suspicion and you have full on proof of what your lover has done. How do you handle it?

11. apathetic.
You're not sad, you're not happy, you just... don't feel much anymore. The sparkle of life has gone right out of you and you're just going through the motions now.

12. addicted.
Drugs, alcohol, whatever your drug of choice is, you can't fight the draw and you can't draw yourself out of the hole, but the other person is going to try.

13. bad romance.
You know this isn't good for either of you, but you can't stop now.

14. fear.
Nightmares, the feeling someone is following you, etc. You can't shake the feeling.

15. insanity.
You're seeing things and hearing them, waking up only to realize you've done things you don't remember or you're in a place you weren't before. You're losing it and you don't know what to do.

16. guilt.
It's eating you up inside and you have to tell someone about it now. You want to be punished and you won't take no for an answer.

17. loss
You've lost something dear to you.

18. wild card.
Combine some options or make your own!

Comments

[takingchances]

[Eva's expression perks up a bit at that.]

Ah the eternal struggle between family. I never made my sister's life very easy either.

[The cut off in her words, the ensuing silence -- yeah. It mulls Eva's expression just a touch, not in a pitying way but it never ceased to astound her how casually and deliberately cruel other people could be. Seeing it over and over again in the memories of patients was one thing but in real life to someone so young?

She takes in a breath momentarily, takes up her glass and gestures so the pair of them can plop down on her overstuffed and thoroughly beaten into comfy submission sofa.]

So you've got one who teases and one who likes animals, hm? Sounds like you've got a big family there.

[neverbreaks]

[ She glances up briefly, and follow Eva to the couch. She sits down gingerly on the end, still a bit uncertain and guarded as she debates on how much she wants to say. She doesn't want to give too much away at the risk of endangering her family, but Eva did seem nice enough.

Then again, she has had to relearn how much trust she can really give to others. ]

...yeah. There, uh...There are twelve of us living together.

[takingchances]

Twelve! Whew, that's a house full.

[Eva laughs a little gently.]

I wanted a big family like that when I was younger.

[She sounds a little wistful there.]

You're the first person I've admitted that to, you know?

[neverbreaks]

[ Luisa laughs faintly. ] Yeah...it's a pretty big house.

[ The admission has her glancing up at Eva again, and she tilts her head curiously. ]

Really?

[takingchances]

Oh yeah! I wasn't about to tell Traci back then and I sure wouldn't now. I can already hear her.

[She does a remarkably good impersonation of her sister by the by.]

"This is why I keep trying to set you up with someone, Eva! Why are you so difficult about this!"

[As Eva winds down on her performance she huffs out a bigger laugh, sinking back into the sofa.]

She means well but the last thing I needed was her hounding me more.

[neverbreaks]

[ Luisa hesitates a moment. It’s really none of her business, but she can’t help the question as it leaves her lips. ]

…You don’t…want to get married?

[ She doesn’t mean anything by it, she’s just genuinely curious. ]

[takingchances]

[Eva has her cup halfway to her mouth at that question. She looks mildly surprised, not expecting that topic in the least.]

Oh. Well... yeah. To the right person anyhow.

[She wasn't one to blush often but yep, there she goes, she can feel it. The mild surprise is quickly replaced with a light grin even as the flush persists.]

Just I'm not sure my sister's idea of "the right person" is my idea, you know?

[It does peak her curiosity though that Luisa tripped right onto marriage. Maybe it was on her mind?]

How about you? You want to get married some day?

[neverbreaks]

Oh. [ She nods, because she can kind of understand that too. She does feel a little bad though, seeing that she embarrassed her host.

So when Eva asks her that, she sort of expects it, but she still hesitates for a moment before shrugging. ]

I mean, I’d like to get married someday. I think it’d be nice, but… [ She looks down at her hands, fingers curled in the fabric of her skirt. ] I’m not really…expecting it to happen.

[takingchances]

[Oh? Eva's brows perk a little. She knew Luisa was more young adult than teenager so feeling out your interests was perfectly natural but the way she put it...

Eva looked away for a moment, mulling over her words. Then she nodded gently.]

I get it. I think that way now too.

[But Eva was creeping into her thirties now. Not that marriage didn't happen after that age but it was a little more difficult in some ways. Luisa though... her tone lightens some.]

Someone just right for you and me both could be right around the corner. That probably sounds overly optimistic but you never know.

[She snorts just a little.]

The most loving couple I know are a pair of my coworkers -- Dr. Taima McMillan and her husband Dr. Willis McMillan. They're pushing seventy or so now and they're practically attached at the hip.

[neverbreaks]

[ Another faint smile flits across her face. ] That’s like my parents, or my Tía and Tío. They’re so in love, you’d think they just got married yesterday.

[ The smile fades again though as she shakes her head. ] But there aren’t many guys who’d be interested in…a girl like me.

[takingchances]

[It's probably thanks to Taima and Willis that Eva can readily imagine that sort of relationship. If her family is that close, all in one house and with loving relatives it's little wonder she wants to get back soon. It makes Eva's heart hurt all over again in a way.

Luisa's reply surprises her though. Two for two today, Neil would be envious!]

What, really? You sure the guys around you have good taste?

[It's a healthy portion of incredulous that colors Eva's tone.]

[neverbreaks]

[ A bit self-consciously, Luisa grips her one arm with the other hand. ] I’m too…tall. And… [ She runs a hand over the muscles of her arm. ] too big. Especially compared to all the other women in my family. Or even just the rest of the town.

And guys don’t really want a girl who’s…stronger than they are.

[ Despite the people in town appreciating her gift, not many men would want to live with that all the time. ]

[takingchances]

[Huh. Eva looks like she's considering all the facts laid out -- too tall, too big, too strong. She knows what she wants to say here but it's pretty cheesy. It's how she feels though so as long as she doesn't pry she cant probably get away with it... maybe.]

I think in the end the guy you really want will accept all those things about you that even you have a hard time accepting. That's just what real love is in the end, acceptance.

[Eva winces just a little, maybe in just a hint of embarrassment.]

That's sounds pretty cheesy though, I know.

[neverbreaks]

[ Luisa feels her ears and cheeks flush a bit. It wasn’t that she didn’t accept these things about her, exactly. But she is more aware of her appearance since it makes her stand out from everyone else in town.

But the other woman’s words still brought a small smile to her face. ]

…like a fairy tale.

[ It is a nice thought. To find someone who could love and accept her, no matter what. It’s hard to believe that it could really happen most of the time…but there maybe there is still a part of her that never really grows out of stories like that. ]

[takingchances]

[She's sorry if the boisterous laugh she gives surprises Luisa or anything but that's such a Neil thing to say but said like 500% nicer than Neil would say it that Eva can't help herself.]

I guess you see what I'm still single now, hm?

[neverbreaks]

[ She is a bit startled by the laugh, and she flushes a little, worried she might have said something wrong. ]

N-No, it's...I mean, it's nice. I don't...think there's anything wrong with waiting for the right person.

[takingchances]

[Eva looks amused more than anything else but seeing Luisa's fluster her smile mulls into something a little more affectionate.]

Yeah, I understand. Sorry, I could just hear one of my coworkers in my head. You put it a lot nicer than he would, hahaha.

[She takes a bit of a chance, reaching over to gently pat the other woman's shoulder.]

There's absolutely nothing wrong with it. You've got to decide for yourself what it is you want like that in a lot of things. Don't be too shocked if what you want changes over time though.

[neverbreaks]

[ She relaxes a bit, relieved that she hadn't said anything to offend her. ]

Yeah, I guess that's true. I think it's...tough sometimes, though. Trying to figure out what you want or need. Sometimes you don't always really know.

[takingchances]

A lot of the time you don't know. And sometimes you think you want one thing, then find you want another ... and then maybe you go back to the first thing again.

[Eva's expression mulls into something extremely wistful.]

I don't think you ever find complete fulfillment in your life though. What you wanted, what you ended up with -- you always sort of end up yearning for whatever you didn't have in the end. So when you look back on it all, maybe the best you can hope for is to be content with the journey you had.

[... Okay, gosh, this poor woman. Eva blinks a time or two, realizes she sort of started philosophizing here.]

[neverbreaks]

[ Luisa doesn't seem to mind, and actually takes the time to consider Eva's words. Then after a moment she nods. ]

...Yeah. I think I can understand that.

[ It actually does make a lot of sense to her, given everything. Even if she couldn't say she'd been completely happy back home, she could at least say she was content.

Content enough to at least want to go back home. ]

[takingchances]

[Eva's smile brightens again.]

Good. Sorry, I don't mean to philosophize so much. I guess that's what happens when you talk to your plants too often, haha.

[She's just making a light joke here.]

[neverbreaks]

[ Luisa makes a soft sound that isn't quite a laugh, but leans a bit that way. ]

That's okay. Back home, when I was...when I'm doing chores in town, I talk to the donkeys sometimes.

[takingchances]

[The donkeys. Eva looks intrigued now.]

Oh yeah? They pretty friendly? I'll be honest, I've been around horses but not donkeys.

[neverbreaks]

Yeah, mostly. They can be a bit stubborn sometimes, but I spend a lot of time with them, so they're pretty comfortable around me.

[takingchances]

That's a pretty nice gift to have. Animals being comfortable around you, I mean.