they live inside us

[thememening]

FIGHTING YOUR INNER DEMONS

Everybody has them. Some are louder than others. Some are stronger. Some are overwhelming, and sooner or later you just give up fighting. But there are other people around you who want to help you - maybe they're suffering too, either because of your inner monster or their own. Or maybe they're one of the lucky ones with demons that don't howl so much.

You can help each other. It's better than the alternative.

• Leave top levels with your character name and info.
  
• Specify what you're running from, or if you're running at all, or if you just want to help.
  
• Details may be useful, but are certainly not necessary.
  
• Tag around for great drama and profit.

Warning: responses to this meme could potentially contain triggering material.

Comments

[scales_and_silence]

"True. I'm sure the secret is confidence- which... not really something I've ever excelled at," he says, adjusting his glasses in a way that makes picturing a younger, lankier Alex in SCA garb a hell of a lot easier.

"My sisters got the confidence genes. I- ah. Well, I'm lucky I got through my first thesis defense without throwing up. Or without anyone falling asleep- I did have one committee member take a phone call, though. Not the most shining moment of my academic career," he admits, and for the sake of the eyes on them adjusts his posture so he's leaning a little closer, with enough perfectly natural awkwardness to sell the idea of a first date. Because he can still feel Doc's eyes on him.

"I should probably give your friend a chance to threaten me formally, shouldn't I?" he asks. "He seems like he might be the type to appreciate that sort of gesture."

[motherfudging]

"I just imagined everyone was puppies. I tried the pretending they're in their underwear trick but honestly, more nervous?" Bantering is part of the cover story. Also fun. And it keeps him from turning to follow Alex's attention. Always easy to look at Doc.

He still has trouble believing Doc has any interest in the proceedings at their table. Even if he has noticed Alex is armed, well, half the town is, and... Okay, no one would trust Jeremy not to be having lunch with a revenant. That might be it. He'll just have to drop that the guy's not from around here, thereby precluding most if not all supernatural natures. "I mean, if you go up to the bar for your next drink he might be kind of growly at you? It's not personal or anything." Just all intimidating and manly. There's that dumb smile again.

[scales_and_silence]

It actually takes that return appearance of the dumb smile for Alex to make the connection. Oh. Oh.

"Well, it definitely won't be the most unpleasant interrogation I've endured," he admits with a half-approving nod towards Jeremy's taste. "I'll go get us a couple more drinks and hopefully not come back with any new holes in me."

He doesn't rush to stand up, and he leaves the tweed jacket where most of his knives are hidden slung over the chair as he ambles up to the bar, pretending not to look at Doc, Wynonna, who may me at least half a sheet to the wind by now, but dammit if she's being left out of whatever this is about to be.

Alex is maybe a little too calm when Doc first leans in, though he makes up for that when Wynonna swoops in for- uh. Badder cop? Drunken hype-man cop? Something Alex says seems to confuse her and prompt Doc cutting her off. The exchange lasts a little longer than it takes to get their drinks, and the ice is a touch melted in Jeremy's by the time he gets back to the table.

"Well," he says, putting his drink down. "I did have to explain what a herpetologist was before anyone made any assumptions about- you know-" he knows very well what laypeople hear in the name of his field of study.

"I'm also going to be fed to my own alligators if I break your heart. That was sweet of them, in a very my-family way of showing affection. And I made enough X-Men references to convince them we had more than the science in common."

sorry for late, am super busy

[motherfudging]

Don't encourage Jeremy's taste. It's terrible. He does have the sense not to stare, instead taking the simple precaution of pulling out his phone, turning down the brightness, and switching to camera. Doc wouldn't spot the maneuver, and Wynonna might, but not in her current state. He gets a pretty good view of the interaction, admittedly shrunk down and a little out of focus in the dim bar light. Not... too bad.

He's about to ask what herpetology could possibly mean besides what it does (because Jeremy), but the threat seems more noteworthy. "I, uh, do you have personal alli--nevermind. I mean, they like threatening people, but... huh." Apparently the hope he hadn't given up that he could get away with playing unsuccessful first date about this is going to be frustrated if they're talking alligators. "Doc probably hasn't heard of the X-men before now, but still, good move."

it's cool, I'm always good for backtags

[scales_and_silence]

"I've been picking up my cousin's pull list for months now. I can speak Marvel pretty fluently as a result," Alex admits "it actually took me a second not to go into the secondary, post Rogers super-soldier experiments when I made that reference earlier," he adds a little sheepishly. Sure, everyone knows Steve Rogers- but once you get in to USAgent and Isiah Bradley, you're in Deep Nerd Country.

He'd been reading the books with Sarah, helping her when her still-recovering brain would start "making the letters dance," as she'd put it. They'd never held his attention as well as a science textbook before, but it was helping his cousin, so he was happy to do it, be it reading, or just listening to her process the plotlines.

"But I think they're pretty sure I'm not a demon. If you need to out me as a 'secret monster hunter' if they're suspicious, I'm alright with that much getting around. Just don't mention the family." He grins when he adds, "I'll trust you to imagine a suitably badass backstory for me. Less Batman, more Indiana Jones. Without the colonialism or baseless hatred of snakes, obviously."

He has media he geeks out about too. In private. Shelby did get him the hat, though.