bakerstreet | The slowest burn is the most painful

[ she’s raving about his hair and he is internally raving over her hands. Like excuse you he’d like your hands to stay in his hair forever???

He finishes wiping her off and— oh. She’s naked. He’s cool with this development. So cool that he’s just going to drop the towel and just hook his hands under her thighs so he can lift her up and she can keep her hands locked firmly in his hair as he walks them over to the bed ]

It’s better than weeping, isn’t it?

[ he’s an emotional boy who has a lot of repressed emotions to express okay rey???? ]

Different.

[ Rey says this with her arms firmly around his shoulders, and therefore her breasts pushed up into his chin inasmuch as her inconsequential bust can squish at all. Her fingers continue playing in his hair, elbows bent behind his neck, her chin on top of the crown of his head. ]

Neither good nor bad. [ Balance? There's a joke here. Her lips quirk. ]

[ Her inconsequential breasts are making this sad boy very happy do not hate okay? Clearly more important than seeing clearly as he takes her further in the room. Honestly the only reason he isn’t paying them extra attention right now is because he is walking so

Give him a minute.

He’ll hum softly in response to her statement of balance of his crying and being an asshole dom. Considering her words before. Hey. There’s the bed. You’re being placed upon it Rey. He thought about dropping her but her hands are still in his hair and he’s not willing to risk her taking his hair out with a fall.

Oh hey remember how he wasn’t paying them any attention before?? Well now that they are on a bed, warm butterfly kisses are pressed to her sternum, he peeks through the dark curtain of his hair. His expression is somewhere between cloying and accusing. ]

So you enjoy my tears?

[ this is not the time to have this discussion kylo.

Especially considering the fucker IS STILL FULLY DRESSED ]

[ That's fine, Rey has brainpower when he's kissing her breasts and distracting her with the fluttering sensation of skin on skin, but she'd be totally Done if his shirt came off so. This is for the best. Kylo knows how to make sure a conversation still happens.

She lays back, welcoming his presence over her, and traces her fingertips down his spine and across his shoulder blades. Hm. He's warm and present and solid. Real. ]

I appreciate them. It's not the same.

[ They represent his vulnerability and being a soft boi, which are things she loves about him. She doesn't enjoy his suffering though. ]

[ the eight pack is solidly packed away for the moment. This is honest exploration— no rush to the finish line. The wet solid drag of his tongue will start to work across her breast and along her nipple however. Tiny they may be but he appreciates your titties tons Rey. Hope you’re starting to realize that ]

You want me to cry now?

[ muffled by said work he is putting into tiny titties. It’s a bit ridiculous but he’s honestly enjoying just. Talking to her about something that isn’t politics, major trauma, or his many failings as a person.

In the mean time he’s pulling both of his legs up on the bed so he’s kneeling above her and his hands curve under her legs and bring them up around his waist to rest. No movement towards fucking her, it’s reflecting his unending desire to be close to her. ]

No.

[ She laughs, but it's slightly breathy because, well, she appreciates the effort of his exploration. He should feel proud. The contact alternates between featherlight teasing and something more probing and deliberate. Regardless, the attention pebbles both her nipples, more noticeable against the small total surface area of her chest. Her breasts tighten against her ribcage with the arch of her spine as his tongue finds her nipple.

It's reverent and exploratory and familiar. In much the same way that they have recognized that the galaxy is theirs and they can extend their reach and take liberties with it, he now takes liberties with her body.

Rey's legs twine around him, not to create friction, but to encircle him and hold his warmth and feel safe clinging to something that won't leave her. It's a dizzy contentment, this moment, and she lets her head roll back and her eyes drift shut. A nice, relaxing end to a hell of a day. ]

I never want you to have reason to cry again. But if you do, I hope you don't hide it from me.

[ he’ll trail his kisses up now. Along her collar and to her neck. Following her pulse up to her jaw. Glad she’s understanding his intent right now for what it is. Maybe in another life they would have ever been normal enough to do this sort of thing hidden away in corners and from parents and teachers. And like. Not with the weight of the galaxy on their shoulders but just the ridiculousness of being young and dumb.

For now making out a few nights before their wedding would have to do. ]

I haven’t before.

[ he cries so easily and openly like??? It’s kind of ???? Insane??? At least she doesn’t know snoke was just rubbing tears from his cheeks. Actually maybe she should so she can get some anti bacterial wipes and just. Make sure those cheeks are extra clean.

Actually. Technically he had been hiding it before. ]

I destroyed it. [ stop being distracted by kissing her kylo. Finish your sentences ] My mask.

[ he’d vaguely brought it up earlier. ]

[ Ben Solo dreaming of dodging teachers and parents is forgetting the BIG OL' AGE GAP between him and his Resistance child bride. It's fine. Everything's fine here, how are you?

But she is more than happy to indulge in this bit of normalcy, something that feels like it's not hyperaccelerated for the sake of the galaxy or the fate of millions of lives or whatever else. If everything wasn't so life or death, if their lives weren't cranked up to thirteen all the time, maybe this is how it would have been for them.

She opens her eyes slowly when he mentions the mask, but doesn't yet tip her head to look at him. She feels more alert, however, across their bond. ]

Why?

[ SHHHHHS HHHHhSHHHHHH. He's gotta at least be thinking about like Dodging Luke as Ben Solo should be also teaching students her age and YET IS MAKING OUT WIHT ONE. This is not even mentioning the fact of "Hey maybe if Luke Skywalker hadn't fucked up those 7 years ago he probably would have found Rey wandering around sooner and would have had to fight her dumb ass to get her to be a student and then Ben could have problematic thoughts about her as she went through puberty"

Y I K E S

Dear Anakin these fuckers are so problematic, my May December romance kink is showing (Is this may december? feels more May September). Honestly just following in the footsteps of dear old grandpa Space Hitler.

His mouth twitches slightly and he'll smooth leather gloves across her sides and rib cage. A soothing gesture for her-- or maybe himself. Either way, now they are on some crazed tipping point of frenzied passion he feels more ready to talk a little about.... Problematic things. (Not accidental grooming of a prepubescent Rey problematic at least???) ]

Snoke admonished me. [ 'Admonished' sounds so... quaint compared to the memory. It's not as if he tries to keep his time with Snoke from her-- but it's hard to speak completely openly about it.

Through the bond she'll experience a glimpse of it. A dark surge of the Force, tears mocked, a ghostly touch, electricity crackling across skin. Anger, despair, sorrow and grief.

His father.

It's all compacted, an area of himself he doesn't often touch, too raw to be ready to heal.

He slows his affectionate assault, aware he may scare her or overwhelm her even with the brief peek into what his life had been. For the moment he presses a soft kiss to her freckled shoulder. At the very least trying to assure her that he is okay in this moment. There's no tears here. Not now. ~~Probably soon with this fucker who knows. Tears or screaming and breaking shit with his hot topic exclusive lightsaber~~ ] I was tired of living up to the expectations of the past.

[ And he killed the fuck outta that past in an elevator, okay? ]

[ Rey looks down to study his face, taking this in. Remarkably there is no fear there. Alarm, yes. Distress, but mostly the kind that is born of compassion. Not her own distress, but that which she feels on his behalf. Rather, on the behalf of the person he was then, in that moment.

In some ways, she is conflicted. That the mask is gone has been to his great benefit — it was a tool to protect himself from the world, a figment of the Dark. He seems freer without it. Softer. But also … it had taken pain to get him there. She kisses the top of his head. ]

We're making something new, something of our own, now.

[ Her compassion soothes him more than anything else. To know she sees those fragmented pieces of himself and it doesn't frighten her. Make her turn away or want to run. This wouldn't be the last time she'd run into something unpleasant... and it would be a lie to say he hadn't been worried about it.

He'll choose this moment to crawl above her. Naked and beautiful below him and kiss her gently. A gesture of understanding and appreciation. ]

I love you. [ She knows that now, but it bears repeating. ]

I love you too. [ Saying it feels like playing catch-up. Like there is not enough time in the world to make up for all the years she went without being able to say it and now that she understands it she has no concept of moderation. She reaches up to tug at his tunic then and says, ] But you're wearing far too many clothes to be in bed. I can abide eating, but clothing is another story.

[ "SON. WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU PICK UP. IS THAT A SWAMP RAT???" "SHES MINE" "WHAT???" "THE FORCE BROUGHT HER TO ME" "???? ? ?? ????" "insert chewbacca screaming and strapping her in as they have to blast off to escape people han has ripped off" "I'm just gonna take y'all to luke so you can figure this shit out yourselves. I'm too old for this shit."

Rey has just earned (1) one amused huff from Kylo as... he now has to arrange himself to kneel above her, hands helping her to work at his tunic and-- He only now realizes his belt is still outside. Inwardly sighing. Hoping he doesn't forget that tomorrow. ]

Has that been on your mind for that long?

[ Ben Solo do not be that jerk. Seriously.

But i mean. It's obvious through the bond, through the heaping pile of adoration he's feeling now that he is quite flattered that she has been eager for his mouth. ]

[ Another laugh. They're getting easier around him; less curbed, less awkward, less stilted and surprising. She opens his tunic and sits up a little to push it off his shoulders. He's beautiful, underneath that. Pale skin marred by scars and moles and shiny with dried sweat. She lets her hands trail down the plane of his chest, appreciating that view. Her fingertips stop to admire the scars she has left him with, and they stir a surprising possessive satisfaction in her chest: Mine. ]

Wasn't that your intention? [ Rey's onto him. She knows that he was deliberately trying to make her squirm. That it had been so lasting may not have occurred to him, but it doesn't mitigate his purpose. ] You left quite the impression.

[ a grin hooks crooked in his expression. And honestly adding to that amusement is that she went for his tunic first. Good to know she wants his galaxywide chest more than getting his gloves off. And he is not aware that arm guards and gloves is a fetish look at this point but we will let him live in ignorance for a bit longer as he starts to pull at his gloves. ]

I didn’t think it would be so effective that you’d want to tug me off in front of General Hux and the entire committee.

[ Kylo Ren used seduce. Somehow it was super effective. ]

[ the arm guards are 100% a fetish look and she licks her lips to consider it before it's gone. And then the gloves are coming off and she takes them from him to discard off the bed. It's like a strip show for her right now. She's living the dream. Her hands settled on his hips to declare herself a voyeur instead of participant. ]

Well, you did say it in front of our planner. I took that to mean you wanted to get away with it. And there was no hope of getting you under the table yourself, so I had to settle.

( I wrote you a thing I hope you enjoy it. it is long. Also there are pretentious visuals. Excuse me as I make my new Kylo RP page even more pretentious )

[ Huh, gotta say he kinda is super digging her watching him right now. Like he's not gonna try to turn this sexy because that would just be a Mess, but she takes his gloves and rests her hands on his hips and he's just. Cool with this.

Next he works on the fastening of his arm guards and works those off slowly. Less because he's trying to entice her and more because they are super fitted and he's fucking ridiculous. ]

We'll have other opportunities.

[ He honestly hadn't meant it to be like "hey lets get busy in front of everyone." but you know. Now he knows she's into that so he can like. Pencil that in with things he now is Okay with happening. ]

Though, I doubt you could stay quiet for long.

[ A dare in his eyes as he leans over her more to slide his boots off of his feet and on the floor. ... Really not as graceful as that since he has to work to unbuckle and unzip and unfasten and

WHY DO YOU WEAR SO MANY CLOTHES. ELSA GET IN HERE AND HELP FIX THIS PROBLEM. ]

[ Oh my god but he's practically peeling them off his arms and she is weak. There is absolutely no disguising the hunger in her eyes watching him do this. He is a cool drink of water and she grew up in the Jakku desert. She tries to pull herself out of it and focus on what he's saying but just. Wow. His body. ]

That's why I reached for you and not the other way around. But you weren't so subtle out on the balcony you know.

[ Okay touching him now. Her hands glide over his exposed shoulders, appreciative and slow and not looking to instigate just now. ]

[ Honestly Kylo Ren is probably the definition of a character who is unintentionally sexy. Like the more he doesn't understand that certain attributes of his are sexy, the better it is for his sexiness because otherwise he'd just Over Think it.

Honestly, he's grateful for her touch as he finally gets his boots off with a heavy thud to the ground. It's a nice distraction from the task and... well she's studying him. Learning him. She can see the marks she and Finn and Chewie left with all the others. He's never given the scars much thought, the were earned and he's never viewed his body as a temple. But the way she looks at them, it feels as if they have more purpose. Reveal things to her that he can't say otherwise. ]

There weren't people sitting right next to me. [ A retort and he leans in to kiss her briefly before his hands get to work on his Ridiculous pants. ] Just you.

I only mean that you don't appear capable of keeping quiet, either.

[ Rey says this as he pulls out of the kiss to start working open his pants, a wolfish grin curling her lips. Truth be told, she likes every noise he makes, every breath, every filthy word that he summons up for her. She wouldn't trade them.

But she also likes to tease him, especially now that she is watching him remove his pants, and — Oh, how lucky she feels. ]

[ Rey that sounds like a challenge. Do not Challenge this boy he will-- ]

I can be quiet.

[ It's too fucking late. You have challenged him this is gonna end poorly. GG. I quit as a mun. Fuck you both. ]

Give me sufficient reason and I won't make a sound.

[ He's calling out Rey Hard here. I mean, it's all underlined by the fact that he's shimmying his pants down and stepping back off the bed to fully divest himself of clothing. This is the most dangerous position to be in. Naked Kylo Ren. Daring you to challenge him. This is the life you have chosen Rey. ]

[ Instinctively, she licks her lips as she looks him over. She can think of any number of sneaky ways to make it hard for him to control himself, and suddenly, every single one of them feels rather appealing.

She thinks of the flushed, breathless expression he wore the night before, when she'd been able to look him in the eye, and she … wants more of that. His little pleased whines cut off by the effort to keep his cool while talking to whoever else. Her lips around his cock, sucking him deep into her throat. ]

I'll bear that in mind.

[ Okay wow. He's groaning because he's literally over you. Fully naked and you are thinking of That-- He was trying not to rush into getting hard here, Rey. ]

You're bearing a lot of things in mind.

[ And he's giving her a look that suggests he is on the verge of pinning her down and continuing his assault from earlier when--

Lol guess what bitch.

His datapad goes off. Someone is callin' for the Supreme leader.

Get to it first, Rey, or he's just gonna immediately hang that bitch up. ]

[ A flash of annoyance cuts through the bond between them, and Rey presses her eyes shut to rein it in. Duties. The world, flooding back to punish them for their singular bliss. She opens her eyes bakc up, looks to him apologetically, then reaches out to grab his datapad from nearby and open the comm channel. ]

Hello?

[ She answers for him, then lifts her head to look at him again.

Actually.

There's no reason they can't get the best of both worlds here. She reaches up to touch his shoulder, urging him with a nudge to roll over onto his back. She cages his hips between her thighs. ]

[ Kylo is like. Looking Super Insulted you answered that shit. How dare you. Y'all were having nice sexy time and--

Then her hand connects with his shoulder and he realizes

He's trapped. Shit.

Well at least it's not Leia on the phone, that would be a boner killer.

'Ah yes-- our Jedi Master,' Again, Hux with the uncanny ability to make normal words sound like curses. 'I was looking for Ren, actually.' ]

I'm here.

[ He's lying flat on his back and he knows he's not Fully here now however.

'Good--' He pauses as if he's thinking of asking Rey to leave the room, but thinks better of it, 'I'm here with some of the First Order leadership and we wanted to discuss some of the logistics of how our budgets would change after this week--'

Oh good.

Budgets. Things he had to listen to, but he literally had at least ten other people to coordinate for. This is the perfect conversation for Rey to suck him off. ]

Almost home free. One train ride to freedom.

SO CLOSE

One more breakfast. I’m gonna gear up for some starters tonight. ＼＼\٩(๑`^´๑)۶//／／

registers a request for ben solo reintegrating into the resistance in one of our 500 redemption aus

I got an idea for drugged out porg au. Which started as rey rescue au. But is now druggy bj porg au

excellent i'm looking forward to more porg voyeurs

Is Rey looking forward to it?

probably not

/ House season finale of "YOU CANT ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU WANT" STARTS PLAYING

points to that messy fuckin au. I want that.

THE AU I JUST OUTLINED ON A WHIM IN MY TAG?

yes ?? ?

Wow Look I had to make sure okay. Because Ben and Han finding Rey on Jakku is a secret AU of mine

well now it's an au that you're sharing with me when you get to starters

Getting coffee with my dad and then it is happening. Ben and Han and Chewie coming to pick up trash

Living the dream

i brought you some words. many of them. the best words.

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