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the USERNAME meme

Journal names. They're something we all think about, and that we often try to make as fittingly torturous to our characters as possible. Isn't it nice that our characters never have to know they're wandering around with that horrible label attached to them?

...wouldn't it be fun if they did?

RULES

1 Your character is communicating with others through a journal community, just like how we're using them, and they are perfectly aware of that fact. Whether they think that's normal or not is totally up to you.

2 The also know that when they signed on to this community, they were automatically assigned a name that supposedly has something to do with their personality and/or history. They didn't have any say in what that name was going to be, they're just stuck with it.

3 Make a post with your character's reaction to seeing what their own username is. Do they think it fits? Do they hate it with a passion? Are they downright confused?

4 Comment to other people's posts with your character's reactions to everyone else's usernames. If they know the other character, they might have good reason to laugh at them or feel sorry for them. If they don't, this could lead to some pretty interesting first impressions, don't you think?

5 If you want to use a name that's different from your actual journal name, just mark that in your post. No need to create a whole new journal just to make your character's life worse for one meme. ;)

6 PROFIT!

Comments

[forcecalls]

She healed it.

[forcefullyunstable]

What? WHY?!

[there’s the sound of his brain breaking again,]

[forcecalls]

[He does actually derive some minor enjoyment from watching his counterpart's mind metaphorically explode.]

She cares. Not yet, for you. But she will.

[forcefullyunstable]

But YOU said... OH FOR KRIFFS SAKE. She’s not, like, my long lost sister or something is she? I know Dad was never around...

[forcecalls]

[...help.]

No. She's not.

[forcefullyunstable]

[hey, it’s not fair for his to be the only brain that’s breaking.]

Just checking! I heard stories about how Mom and Uncle Luke met, okay?!

Then... why would she... If she doesn’t join us, then I... Is the Supreme Leader right? That I wasn’t worthy of such a test? That I am seduced by the light? But I killed him! I didn’t hesitate! ...much.

[forcecalls]

[Help.]

He's NOT RIGHT!

[Why is this SO HARD?
...he knows why, but.]

It's not about being completely dark or completely light. It's just... not. He's wrong.

[forcefullyunstable]

How can you even say that?! Of course he’s RIGHT! He has to be right!

...if he’s not, then... then Dad... I... he... died for... I...

No. No... you’re lying. You have to be lying! This is a test. He’s testing my devotion, that’s what this is!

[forcecalls]

...

It doesn't stop hurting. It never stops.

Don't make it worse.

[forcefullyunstable]

[but making it worse is our speciality, you know that...]

No. No, no no no... That... that’s...

...is... is what Dad said true? That Snoke only wants me for my power? That he’s using me? That he’ll crush me when he’s finished with me?

[forcecalls]

[It's a very strange feeling, watching this echo of his past break. He doesn't really know whether or not it's a good thing.]

You knew it was true when he said it, didn't you? You just didn't want to believe it.

[forcefullyunstable]

I don’t want to believe it NOW either, I...

I just wanted to be free of the pain. And I’m not... i’m not...

[forcecalls]

No. It didn't work. No matter how far you try to dig into the dark... it never works.

[forcefullyunstable]

But I can’t go back to the light either. Even if I... even if I HADN’T killed him... I have too much darkness in me to ever go back. I was better off dead! Skywalker, the other students... they all knew it! None of them believed me, even ONCE! I was a monster! I AM a monster!

[forcecalls]

They were wrong, too.

[forcefullyunstable]

And the girl, the scavenger... what makes you so sure she’s right?!

[even though she is, and he totally feels it too. But he’s basically having to second guess his entire life. So...]

[forcecalls]

She's still here.

[It's amazing how much is said with those three words.]

I drove her away, for a while, because I was stubborn. Like you are. So sure I couldn't belong anywhere except mired in the dark. But I belong with her. She doesn't try to make me into something I'm not.

[Just something he was too stupid to admit he actually was for a while.]

[forcefullyunstable]

How... how can you be so sure of that? That she won’t change her mind like everybody else and throw me, you, us out like space trash?

[forcecalls]

Because every time I expect her to, she proves me wrong.

[forcefullyunstable]

But... in a good way?

[seriously, is such a thing possible?]

[forcecalls]

Yes.

[forcefullyunstable]

[dare he say it out loud?]

...I want that.

[forcecalls]

[Clearly, they're getting somewhere.]

She'll still be angry, next time you see her. It will take some time. But not as much as you might imagine.

[forcefullyunstable]

But the Supreme Leader will sense these feelings... if I have compassion for the girl, he’ll sense it. He’ll know. He’ll be furious.

And if what Dad said was true...

...

I can’t win.

[forcecalls]

He did sense it, just as he sensed my regret over Dad. There's no avoiding that.

But you can win, assuming I haven't changed things too much by talking to you. I don't think I have, but I won't tell you anything more specific. I don't want him to understand what I mean. You will when you get there.