bakerstreet | Spooning

[ at least there's no real arguing about what they're going to do. zack will go because cloud wants to and because zack likes doing the things cloud chooses. but for now, wrapped up in the darkness of the bedroom and all that soft heat between them, his thoughts are elsewhere. even that quiet sound he makes is nice, pushing his hand up a little higher until he's distracted with giving cloud the kiss he wants.

it's open-mouthed and slow, settling against him as he coaxes cloud to return the contact. the laziness he certainly doesn't mind, especially since cloud had been asleep before he'd raided the bed. when it ends, he nuzzles his cheek and kisses at his jaw, the curve of his neck like he's trying to find a better spot to kiss. ]

Sure. [ a gentle nudge, and now, he's pressing his lips to the soft spot below clou'd chin. ] You should come with me next time if you're free. I missed you today.

[ so zack can definitely get distracted and try goading cloud into some pda instead. ]

[when the kiss ends, cloud finds himself heaving a sigh and licking his lips, eyes closed as zack decides to put his energy to kissing under his chin. it's nice, it's relaxing, and it leaves him feeling good and warm on his cheeks, the usual tingly sensation under his skin whenever they're this close.]

[zack really is like an eager pup.]

[the image makes cloud smile, remembering how his coach had called him once during practice, and it feels right to put a hand on the back of his head and brush back his dark hair, encouraging him to keep on. he keeps his other hand steady at his shoulders, gripping lightly at his shirt.]

I should. It's been a while since I talked with Kunsel.

[—and it's so easy to tell he's in a good mood if he's completely missing the point, on purpose, to tease zack a little.]

[but he has to ask, even as his heart beats harder against his chest, an uncertainty in his voice as he speaks to the ceiling.]

...do you want to do anything right now? More, I mean.

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[ zack laughs. what else is he supposed to do when cloud's teasing him—very obviously teasing him. at least, he hopes he is. but he's too busy kissing all that soft skin to give it more than a passing thought, tilting into the way cloud touches him and very much wanting to chase after that. when he'd climbed into bed with him, he hadn't really been expecting anything. he'd have been just as happy kissing him and then cuddling him to sleep, but that question... his own breath leaves him hurriedly, leaning to look at him.

he's suddenly super conscious of his fingers spread over cloud's torso beneath his shirt. ]

Uh, do you want to? [ no, that's kind of a pointless question since cloud's asking. ] I could always... I want to if you do. Tell me what you want.

[ eager, as always, and zack slowly pulls his hand away, resting his hand at cloud's hip to give it a squeeze as he lightly kisses at his chin. then, he's going for his mouth to kiss him for real, slow and deep and hopefully giving cloud a little more time to find the courage to whisper it to him. ]

[it's giving cloud an unnecessary amount of time to think about something that he already knows the answer to, but he doesn't mind it either way. it's almost funny how zack appears so easily distracted, but one simple command has him zoning in with hyper-focus. the intensity sometimes overwhelms cloud, but he's found it surprising in how easily he can meet those levels of energy, too.]

[but letting him find the courage is welcome enough. after a moment, cloud sits up on his shoulders and levels zack a look. he tilts his head towards the drawer on the table.]

The lube's there, and condoms if you want...

[his eyes are somewhat shifty as he finishes his statement. with a puff of his chest, he sits up properly.]

I miss home. [suddenly, probably.] But I can't do anything about that. When you hold me, I... feel safe, like I belong. Like this is home, too. [how's that for courage? cloud puts a hand to zack's cheek, thumbing over the skin right under his eye.] I want you in me — and I want you to hold me, too.

[ geez. cloud doesn't pull any punches when he really wants it, does he?

any other time, that might have gotten a smile out of zack, but right now, he's a little turned on at the forwardness of it all, leaning into the touch without saying a word. for a few seconds, he just soaks it up, and then, he's turning his head to kiss at cloud's hand, doing his best to reassure him. for zack, missing home had never really registered so much. he'd come there with a goal, had set out to do exactly that and make friends along the way. he'd just been lucky to have met cloud too. and when the kiss breaks, he bumps their foreheads together before trying to reach over him to get at that drawer. ]

This is home. Home from home? [ there's a chuckle. ] On break, we should go back there so you can see everyone and not feel so bad about it. You can show me around. [ like a guide, and he flops back next to cloud once he's got the things he needs. ] It'll be like an adventure.

[ he kisses him then, setting the lube and the condom on a nearby pillow so he can stroke his hands over cloud's sides. undressing under the blankets isn't exactly easy but it's a learned skill, trying to work cloud free of his pants and underwear as he touches him. the rest will come slower, but until they're both naked, zack doesn't really care so much about pace. ]

Yeah, I don't know. It's stupid...

[he knows he shouldn't feel so down in the dumps about it, but with a limited number of things going on in his life, it's hard for him to not think back about his mother's cooking and his solitude going through his small town, or the boost of something good when interacting with tifa, and knowing she's got his back.]

There's not much to miss. [shaking his head, he appreciates how zack doesn't belittle how he feels about it nonetheless.] But I do want my mom and Tifa to meet you.

[offering a smile to zack at the idea of an adventure, cloud does feel lighter about things; his chest not so constricted. talking about it... helps. and to share the enthusiasm about it with someone else, it does help, too. he goes back to lying on his side in bed, as zack tries his best to undress him. it's easier with him, but cloud's dealing with belts and jeans on zack. kicking his pants and underwear off his feet, he inhales deeply when he gets a chance amidst their kiss.]

[sheepishly:] I probably shouldn't talk about them now, huh...

[ zack laughs, trying his best to help cloud undress him and nearly smacking himself in the face with his belt. not smooth at all. ]

Might not be a good idea with the things you want me to do to you.

[ he says it with a grin, ducking down to kiss him again once he's naked and pressed up against cloud's equally naked body. this feels good, a bit sentimental remembering their first time together and how perfect it had been despite some of the hiccups that had come with it. nothing could have changed his mind then that they weren't destined to be together, and the kiss he presses to his shoulder demonstrate just that, gently biting into his skin.

on his knees, zack strokes cloud's sides, his thighs. he touches him everywhere, licking down his throat to taste the skin along his collarbone. ]

You missed me too, right? I think you did. [ just as cheeky, his hand slips between cloud's legs to grip his cock and slowly work him hard. ]

[there's no way i didn't, is what cloud wants to say, but in lieu of not sounding needy—he doesn't. in the end, it's easier for him to nod and bite down on the inside of his cheeks with some sense of anticipation as zack touches him and starts to stroke him at a certain pace.]

[he keeps a hand on zack's shoulder, a grip on him, as he puts his feet flat on the mattress and adjusts how he's lying on the bed.]

I thought — I wouldn't see you until the morning.

[usually they go to campus together, meet for lunch, that kind of thing. they didn't get to meet for lunch though, so that bummed cloud a bit, although he figured zack had been busy with football practice.]

[he grabs for the tube of lube on the pillow, uncapping it with one hand and offering it to zack.]

I'm glad I was wrong.

[ cloud's cute, and zack is too excited to do much else except focus all his attention on him. it's in the way he kisses him, touches him—almost like an apology that they hadn't gotten to see each other all day. and honestly, he can be pretty bad about remembering to text too, running through classes and then spending hours and hours at practice or preparing for games or being away for games.

he settles back to take the lube, warming some of it over his fingers. ]

Glad you were wrong too. I didn't wanna sleep in the library. [ he grins at him, leaning over to steal a kiss. ] But it might have been fun to wake you up like this if I had...

[ clearly he's teasing, tilting his head to watch between them as he begins to work cloud open. it's a faster process than usual, though he takes his time to make sure cloud's comfortable and he's enjoying it as much as he can. it's why zack kisses him again, following his jaw to his ear to nuzzle into him. whenever they do this, he's always glad their neighbors aren't so close. or maybe they don't care. either way, he hopes cloud doesn't try to stay quiet this time. ]

[he knows zack is teasing, but considering the position they're currently in, it's difficult to not feel vulnerable about what intentions really are or how open he should be about his feelings otherwise. cloud has half a mind of pinching zack's cheek, but is ultimately stopped from doing so when zack kisses him again—fingers deep inside as they try to get him open and ready.]

Mm.

[perhaps zack's hopes of cloud not staying quiet might be too generous (dream big though, right?), but there's no scarcity of inflections and hums coming from the blond. he's breathing harder, wiggling his hips but trying to remain relaxed, ultimately, trying to make the best of the however long opening him takes.]

Zack...

[but having the other so close to him, to feel zack's weight, his muscles, smell the sweat building over his skin—cloud doesn't mind the teasing or the moments of discomfort that come with this. he puts a hand flat to the other's cheek, getting his attention, and kisses him slowly.]

—can we do it from behind? [there is clear conflict in his eyes as he struggles with the rising embarrassment] I mean, so it's like when you came in. [more struggling—] On our sides.

[he means to say like they're spooning, but technicality fails him. sweep him off his feet as per usual, mister fair.]

[ it's not unusual to get a little bit out of cloud whenever they're intimate, but zack like the affirmation, feeling his body relax and accept more of his fingers the longer he works at it. his breathing's a good indication – he's gotten really good at reading it anyway – and he hums at the way cloud says his name, turning into the kiss until he realizes he's trying to ask something. a blink, and he slides his fingers out, hoping they're not too slick as he gently kneads cloud's thigh in encouragement.

the request isn't anything to be embarrassed about. he does chuckle though, soft and low. ]

Yeah, that sounds fun. [ sex is always fun. what's he talking about? ] Here– [ he leans to grab the condom and then moves. ] Roll over and get comfortable. I'll do the rest.

[ maybe that's what he likes about this too, opening and rolling the condom onto himself as he keeps his own breathing steady. cloud doesn't even have to do anything, and it turns him on. a nice problem to have when they're alone but even worse when they're out somewhere and cloud smiles at him. zack thinks about this as he cuddles up to cloud from behind, squeezing his hip and pressing closer to situate them both. when he finds a decent angle, he reaches between them to help steady them both before slowly trying to push into him. breath hot against the back of cloud's neck, zack's surprisingly quiet about it for now, wanting to listen to his boyfriend just in case. ]

[and that's what cloud appreciates about zack; that he knows how to read and interpret his words and actions, giving cloud the room to feel understood. the worst part about sex is the getting ready for it, but it's definitely worth it. before he rolls over, cloud sits up and gives zack a kiss before getting comfortable on his side. he holds onto a pillow, his other hand cupping his own cock as he feels zack settle behind him.]

[he keeps a leg bent at an angle, feeling reassurance from zack's hand against his hip, his hot breath on his neck, and his chest against his back.]

Ah...

[it's an intrusion, as always, but the more zack pushes in, the more he can adjust to the sensation. cloud squeezes his eyes shut, short pants as he feels zack's hip against his ass, fully in. he knows that zack is patient; that zack is willing to give him the room to feel comfortable. and perhaps it's that which encourages cloud to push forward, shallowly, and then back against him.]

Slowly is alright. [he mumbles, stroking himself and squeezing his cockhead] Are you — feeling good?

[ he wants to see him, but imagining what he can't see and listening to him is the next best thing. plus, he has to be careful that he doesn't slide right in as fast as possible. because cloud feels unbelievably good, and the question has him laughing against the back of his neck, mouth smearing over cloud's shoulder until cloud moves and – oh.

the sound zack makes would have been embarrassing if he'd felt embarrassed about it. ]

You always feel good, Cloud... [ a breath, and he tries to find a rhythm, rocking forward into him even as his arm slides around cloud's front. ] I love the way you feel.

[ he loves a lot of things, actually, but zack's attention span isn't all that great with cloud pressing back against him. it's intimate and hot, and without the leverage of position, it's almost unbearably slow. another gentle roll of his hips, and zack shifts to get his arm around him at a better angle, sliding his hand down to circle around cloud's cock to give it a stroke. then another, kissing at his ear as they move. ]

Do you wanna come like this? [ because he might get impatient if cloud doesn't guide him a little. ]

[it always feels better when they start finding their rhythm amidst the initial slow. to have zack touch him like this feels good, and he lets go of himself to place his hand atop zack's forearm. he gasps—moans with every thrust—at the sensation, allowing himself to enjoy the feeling of being stretched and touched, of being connected to this man who loves him despite what he himself would consider are odds.]

[at the question, he becomes immensely aware of the flush on his cheeks and how his cock twitches in anticipation in zack's hold. he presses his face against the pillow, biting down a pleasured groan.]

[as much as the position brings comfort and pleasure to him— he does know zack can be rather impatient.]

Got any ideas? [huffing, he bends his leg and puts foot down on the mattress, allowing himself to be more open for zack to angle in deeper.] Go at the pace you need, Za— [his voice cracks just a bit] Zack.

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[ as impatient as he is, he doesn't mind the slowness of their time together. there's something nice about it, lazy and sweet, and zack occupies himself with the curve of cloud's shoulder, sucking a soft mark into the spot just below his neck as he slides deeper into him. he pushes up onto his elbow, trying to watch whatever he can of cloud's face as he jerks him off.

there are just so many things to try doing that he doesn't know what he wants to really focus on first. ]

Do that again.

[ a low murmur, and almost reluctantly, he drops his hand from cloud's cock in favor of sliding his arm beneath his leg. zack shifts, using the leverage of the position now to fuck into him a little harder. it doesn't matter to him if cloud's quiet the whole time, but he can't get enough of the way he says his name when they're tangled up together. every small thing about cloud gets him worked up, and he leans closer, pressing him further into the mattress as they move. asking for a kiss might be too much, and yet, he nudges at the side of cloud's face, kissing his jaw in encouragement. ]

[and for all of zack's efforts, cloud closes his eyes and allows himself to really sound out the pleasure he feels. the deeper his cock, the more sounds escape him, quiet at first before he starts to moan against the pillow. it's the slight shift in position, when zack puts his weight on him, that cloud groans in contentment, enough to speak the way zack expects him to.]

Fuck, Zack...

[he reaches behind towards the other, digging nails into his hip to urge him to keep going.]

[without zack's hand at his cock, cloud can only push towards getting friction from the mattress in hopes of matching something close to satisfying. it's not enough obviously, and so he huffs mildly. he tips his shoulder back at the kisses to his jaw, getting the hint, and meets his boyfriend's lips momentarily.]

Dork.

[he exhales with a breathy snort, trying to keep himself steady on the mattress, because of course zack wants to kiss him and of course zack wants all these sappy things (that he himself does like, shh) while having sex. shall they thread their fingers together, too?]

—if you don't touch my dick I'm going to die.

[he could do it, himself, but he wants zack to do it. that's the difference. he hadn't thought out the positioning too well at the start, but cloud only ever thinks so far ahead.]

[ it's really something when he starts laughing in the middle of it, chuckling against cloud's mouth to swallow the affectionate name-calling until he needs to breathe. sometimes, he forgets that cloud can be a little mouthy, that he's a brat when it comes down to it, but maybe that's why they're so good together. people mistake those things as someone who's sour and doesn't want attention when cloud, in fact, soaks it up like a sponge. it's why he keeps the pace of his thrusts slow and steady, gaining momentum but not nearly as fast as cloud wants. ]

Promise you're not gonna die. [ he's still laughing, though it fades into a deeper groan. his fingers flex against cloud's thigh. ] Hold on. I'm going to —

[ talking is a little difficult when he's trying to maneuver them, easing out of cloud and rolling him onto his back so he can settle between his thighs. this is a better position for both of them to get what they want—no holding hands required. zack urges cloud to bend a knee, lifting his hips to slide back into him as though he'd never left, and he fucks him a bit deeper into the mattress, his hand going right to his boyfriend's cock to give it a squeeze. ]

How's this? You doing okay?

[ not that he's going to stop. he just wants to hear cloud more. maybe so much that their neighbors actually complain about it later tomorrow. ]

You don't know that.

[he quips back, actually liking the fact that he gets zack to laugh regardless of the actual severity of cloud's current crisis. it's not enough to make a follow up to though, as zack does what he can to get cloud onto his back, efficiently maneuvered to get fucked properly in whatever pace zack wishes to set.]

[huffing again, if only to try and control the heat that spreads over his cheek and shoulders, cloud resigns himself to having to look up at his boyfriend's face—all flushed and brimming with a handsome smile amidst the concentration the centers between his brows.]

It's good.

[cheekily, like his toes aren't curling from just how much deeper zack can reach, to the bundle of nerves within, which has him hiccuping enthused ahs and curses, bracing himself on zack's arm with a hand.]

—there.

[it's soft though, even though he gets pushed further up the mattress, just a smidge, with every thrust. his hand on zack's arm inches up his elbow, to his shoulders, and curves around his boyfriend's neck, everything building to a crest, just so—]

Kiss me.

[because that's what zack wants too, right? cloud chokes a bit, trying to bite down a moan.]

Spooning

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so sorry for the slow!!

no worries!

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still me, i just switched journals! ♥

! new journal who this

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