Baggage

[repost]

THE sexual baggage MEME The media paints a beautiful picture of sex as the most important, most important thing in life. There could be a glimmer of truth in that; sex can be good, wonderful even. But not everyone is fortunate enough to have the best relationship with physical intimacy. You can relate, can't you? Sex is something you're not always so sure about. It's not because of the person you're with, not really, but the act itself brings up unfortunate baggage. There's parts of your body or old injuries you're not too proud of or don't want to think about. You don't like people touching you. You've always been taught that sex was dirty, unclean. In your past, events or traumas occurred that make you less than thrilled to present any kind of vulnerability. Whatever the case may be, sexual intimacy opens a whole Pandora's Box for you. But you're with someone, someone you may even love, and you want to be with them. You want to try and do this for them and, in the end, for yourself. Of course, it will be easier said than done, and you'll need the full cooperation of that partner. Or maybe you are that partner, trying to understand how to make your lover comfortable. Whatever the case, you may have your work cut out for you - yet if you're truly willing to understand each other, the results can be more than worth it. If they're not? That's all right, too. Everyone has to move at their own pace. HOW TO PLAY Comment with your character and preferences. Mention if your character is the person with the hangups or their hopefully supportive lover. If they're the former, feel free to mention what your character's issues may be. Needless to say, this meme may be triggering. Also include if you'd prefer this attempt to fail, succeed, or either. Reply to others.

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[whisted]

Well. There's the rest of his cheeks gone scarlet, tongue briefly tied in an incredibly delightful way.

"O-- Okay."

His fingers are incredibly careful as they find their way back to Archie's hips. His nose brushes against Archie's more deliberately, lips ghosting in close against the other young man's.

"There's... A lot of it was..."

[jollyboat]

He absolutely can't help the way he shifts just slightly to meet Horatio's lips with his. It helps. It's got him a little (happily) breathless when he speaks again.

"--Yeah--?"

It's part encouragement, part gentle consent.

[whisted]

"--a l-lot of it was-- this."

Kissing is familiar now, in this dark little cell. His hands stay in place as he lingers against a few soft kisses.

His breath is shaky as anything when he pulls back to trail his lips over Archie's cheek and jaw instead. "And... and i-imagining what you.. would taste like. If I could-- kiss e-every inch of you."

[jollyboat]

That earns a pleased little tremble in his breath; his fingers briefly squeezing tighter.

"'ve-- wondered about that, too," he murmurs softly.

[whisted]

"R-Really, Archie?"

This is a good place to start, then. Horatio can't help being careful as he drags his lips across Archie's neck, but it's thrilling to know they've both been imagining it.

[jollyboat]

A contented sigh as he lets his head shift to let Horatio have better access.

"Really, 'ratio," he murmurs, obvious contentment in his voice.

[whisted]

They're still in prison. They're still farther from home than they've ever properly been.

Horatio can't help feeling, all the same, that he'd give anything in the world just to feel Archie's pleased sigh vibrating up against his lips just like this--that he wouldn't stay here the rest of his life for just another second of it.

"And..." Another few kisses will help. Another delicate dip of his lips against Archie's throat will help. "...a-and about... touching you. Touching..."

His fingers twitch but barely manage to move from Archie's hips.

"...t-touching all of you."

[jollyboat]

"Oh."

It's definitely a happy sound, if a somewhat surprised one. That has Archie's fingers drifting to squeeze lightly at Horatio's waist.

"I-- want you to." A careful shift of his head to press a light kiss against Horatio without dislodging him from the comfortable place against his neck, "I've-- wanted you to. 'nd to-- do the same back."

[whisted]

His heart leaps pleasantly to his throat. His lips stutter against Archie's throat, breath drawn in shakily.

Dreaming is one thing; being here is entirely something else.

"A-Archie..."

His fingers shift carefully, ghosting up over Archie's ribs. Moving in the other direction feels as terrifying as it is thrilling.

"You... You do?"

[jollyboat]

"Mmhm."

And there's the softest little laugh and squirming, as Horatio's fingers drift. It's nice, to be able to laugh in this cell. To be able to laugh while drifting towards what they are.

"Maybe not-- doing quite everything, yet." He's not ready for that, and he imagines Horatio isn't, either, "But-- I want you. We can--- There's some things we-- can do."

[whisted]

Tension flickers through his shoulders all at once. His fingers stay delicately in place, but his lips press firm together as he pulls his head back from Archie's neck.

"You're-- sure?"

Could either of them really be? Could Archie truly be?

[jollyboat]

One hand shifts from Horatio's waist to brush lightly, soothingly, at the other man's shoulder.

"I am, 'f-- you are," he says softly, "Just-- we'll go slow, nn?"

[whisted]

"R-Right."

They could move slowly. He could keep talking. They could find their way through the panic sitting in each of their guts to something that might begin to feel right--to feel like theirs.

His fingers tremble as they slide down to Archie's hips again, breath still uncertain. "Slow."

[jollyboat]

"Hey."

His voice is soft as he shifts very carefully to press a light kiss against Horatio's cheek.

"You should be-- sure, too, mm? 's not-- just about me."

[whisted]

That winds him slightly for a moment. His fingers squeeze a little more firmly at Archie's hips as he nods.

"It's-- a bit about you, though."

The thoughts are a little easier when they're whispered out close to Archie's lips. The nerves are a little less when he can practically feel Archie's smile.

"This is-- I want this with-- you."

[jollyboat]

A quiet, pleased nod.

"And I-- want it with you, too." Which is important to affirm, "So as-- long as you're-- sure about what we do, mm? We can-- keep checking in, maybe."

[whisted]

It isn't how this usually goes. It isn't how he's ever fallen into this sort of thing with anyone else in the world.

Of course it's better--safer, happier, more--with Archie.

"Checking in?"

[jollyboat]

"Mmhm."

A brief, affectionate bump of noses.

"Like-- how you've been doing." How they've both been, really, "Th'-- asking. Making sure, y'know?"

[whisted]

"...right."

They can keep doing this. They can keep fumbling exactly like this. If Archie's happy enough, they'll find their way.

"Can... Can I touch...?"

[jollyboat]

He's nodding before he even processes properly. He follows up quickly with actually speaking, like they both need.

"W-Where'd y'like?"

He's already blushing at the thought.

[whisted]

He can't say it out loud. He can barely think it without his cheeks going painfully scarlet in the semi-darkness.

One hand slips cautiously from Archie's hip along the top of his trousers, hesitant and questioning.

[jollyboat]

"O-oh."

It was expected, yes, but that still definitely has his cheeks heating up. Horatio can likely feel it, this close. Archie's fingers start to drift from Horatio's shoulders and waist towards his hips as he nods.

"Y-yes, please."

[whisted]

"O-Okay."

They can do this. They can enjoy this. They can make this their own special thing and knock away some of the ghosts trying to claw their way into this objectively wonderful moment.

His lips fumble gently against Archie's cheek. His fingers begin properly squirming to get into the fabric of the other young man's pants. "If... If you need me t'... stop, Archie..."

[jollyboat]

"I know, 'ratio. I'll tell you."

But right now, despite how much even the beginnings of touch are making him flush, he's leaning into the touch. He's pressing a kiss against Horatio's cheek and squeezing at his hips.

"I trust you."

[whisted]

"O-Oh, Archie..."

Trust is important. Trust is part of what makes this special.

What an odd thing, this being special. What an odd and lovely thing, to be moving his hand almost gently over someone he genuinely wanted to enjoy this experience.