[ He gave him an out because yes, he does care about him. But of course Rei didn't take it and had to make things difficult and... and now what? Miyuki tries not to sound like how he looks, ]
i wouldn't think too hard about it.
[ C'mon... he's no good for him, Miyuki knows that. Rei should know that, too. The other boy should just go find himself someone nice, someone considerate who'll do things like think about him when framing up a dick pic just right. ]
didn't know it was in your nature to waste time on impossible things.
[ That guy may have broken his heart, but Miyuki's pretty sure he can do a lot worse to it. Or at least, he can only see pain for Rei if he's really set on this. ]
[ Miyuki almost shoots back something particularly harsh before the second text stops him. It's true; it's not like he can control it. Similar to how Miyuki can't help how frustrated he feels for Rei's stubbornness, despite him knowing exactly how Miyuki is.
Or the frustration for having no idea he felt like this. ]
i'm not a challenge, Ryuugazaki.
and i'm sure your emotions will get over this sooner or later.
Of course; I was not planning to propose to you, or anything. I am just curious, I suppose. If it bothers you that much we can erase this conversation from our memories and move on.
You are a master of denial, surely if you wanted to pretend this never happened, you would already be on a different subject of conversation.
Why wouldn't I be curious? Aside from my curious nature, and aside from my aforementioned interest in meeting challenges, it's no secret that I have a vested interest in beauty. And you are absolutely vain enough not to need me to tell you that you're attractive. We also have similar analytical thought processes, though your moral character and mine could not be more different.
Yes, because usually you avoid things that are important to clear up. This situation is clear enough to both of us!
I have seen enough romantic comedies to know I'm not the first person to think I might "change" someone. But I'm not sure I necessarily want to change you. Rather, I wonder how we might both change after entering that sort of relationship with each other.
Wait a minute. Are you suggested that I was doing the wrong thing by trying to get my mind off of you by dating other boys who were genuinely interested in me and with whom I was also happy? Even though you are rejecting me outright, right now?
[ How can he say that? Even while he was sending those pictures, Miyuki was reveling in the thought of how it might shake up Rei's sensibilities, how flustered he probably got from just the sight of them. But that was before he knew this new information. Thinking back on it now makes him feel... well, it doesn't make him feel good.
Which just proves Rei right: that he isn't completely terrible.
There is no reply for a long moment, before eventually: ]
[Miyuki vanished for a while, and Rei tried to convince himself he was called on by a teammate, or a coach, or really anyone who could have taken his attention away from his phone; he was a popular guy, after all.
But when a reply does come, he releases the breath he hadn't realized he was holding.]
So then we can agree to pretend this information never came out?
[ He wants to say again that that's not how it works. That he can't just magically forget about this, and knowing it now changes things in a way he can't control. He'd like to believe Rei's right that it's better to just pretend this never happened but really, he doesn't. ]
yeah. alright.
[ He only agrees because that seems to be what Rei wants, and it's not like he's got any better ideas. Baseball, this is not. ]
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hard to take in, i know.
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but if i ever get sufficiently wooed i'll let you know.
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still trying to psychoanalyze me?
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i wouldn't think too hard about it.
[ C'mon... he's no good for him, Miyuki knows that. Rei should know that, too. The other boy should just go find himself someone nice, someone considerate who'll do things like think about him when framing up a dick pic just right. ]
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You realize that would be in complete defiance of my nature.
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[ That guy may have broken his heart, but Miyuki's pretty sure he can do a lot worse to it. Or at least, he can only see pain for Rei if he's really set on this. ]
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Or, that people are rarely in control of their emotions or desires.
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Or the frustration for having no idea he felt like this. ]
i'm not a challenge, Ryuugazaki.
and i'm sure your emotions will get over this sooner or later.
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why are you curious?
can you answer that?
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Why wouldn't I be curious? Aside from my curious nature, and aside from my aforementioned interest in meeting challenges, it's no secret that I have a vested interest in beauty. And you are absolutely vain enough not to need me to tell you that you're attractive. We also have similar analytical thought processes, though your moral character and mine could not be more different.
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i didn't think a pretty face would be enough to get you over that last part, honestly.
[ That's what he's having trouble understanding. He knows he's an asshole as much as he knows he's pretty, so then why... ? ]
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I have seen enough romantic comedies to know I'm not the first person to think I might "change" someone. But I'm not sure I necessarily want to change you. Rather, I wonder how we might both change after entering that sort of relationship with each other.
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i probably wouldn't be screwing around with guys and telling you about it, for starters.
seriously, do you know how messed up that was?
[ Not that he knew Rei's feelings while he was doing it, but that might even be worse. ]
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in fact, keep doing that.
i'm saying i don't get why you just let me wave shit like that in your face if you felt like this.
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You really aren't as unpleasant as you believe you are.
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Which just proves Rei right: that he isn't completely terrible.
There is no reply for a long moment, before eventually: ]
i don't want to lose yours either.
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But when a reply does come, he releases the breath he hadn't realized he was holding.]
So then we can agree to pretend this information never came out?
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yeah. alright.
[ He only agrees because that seems to be what Rei wants, and it's not like he's got any better ideas. Baseball, this is not. ]
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