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bakerstreet2016-12-03 04:23 pm
sonofasock) wrote in bakerstreet2016-12-03 04:23 pm
i see trees that are green, red roses too
soulmate meme ;
▸ post your character ◂
▸ you're now in a universe where destined soul mates exist! ◂
▸ rng for the type of au and for the ~situation~ ◂
▸ tag around ♥ ◂
type of au;
1. tats, your character has a tattoo of the first words the love of their life will say to them
2. familiars, your character has an animal tattoo representing their soul mate on them
3. glow, the first time your character sees their soul mate, their chests glow!
4. world in color, life is literally black and white, until you see your soul mate for the first time
5. choose your own, i'm definitely missing a milly because i'm lazy, pick your own
situation;
1. first meeting, you've never met this person before.
2. childhood mates, you've always known this person -- but on one particular birthday, everything changes.
3. together, you've been in a relationship for awhile now! happily wed or not, you decide.
4. not together, you've known you're soul mates for a long time, and yet have avoided a relationship.
5. choose your own, self explanatory c:
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It's quick and easy work to fill his Mr. Coffee with water from the tap, pop a filter into the brew basket, and scoop an unmonitored amount of coffee grinds in. It's a good break for the both of them -- Will peeling off his wet clothes, Rust able to recede back into the dark and unlit parts of his skull to reset his thoughts. From across the small breakfast bar extended from his counter, he can watch Will in his dining area.
What a fucking mess. Not Will, mind you, but his situation. Some fucking luck -- as if Rust trusts and believes in anything as primitive as a concept of 'luck' -- that he gets marked with a serial killer.
But Rust can't help but wonder...how much of it is the universe playing match-maker, and how much of it is purely the power of the mind, and he means the marked Soul Mates as an entire concept -- but in this case, especially Will and Hannibal. Some of the most tenacious minds Rust has ever observed, and Rust also can't shake his old, stubborn suspicious nature about the whole thing. Hell, how do they know Hannibal didn't fucking put a tattoo there himself, and this is just one more piece of his game to ensnare Will like a desperately sought pet?
Who knows... Doesn't change the fact that it's one messed up situation that Will does not deserve to be in, and Rust takes some relief in the fact that Will sees it the same way, too.
"It'll be a few minutes," Rust assures quietly, setting two mismatched mugs on the counter, next to the coffee maker. "I can grab you something dry to wear." Seriously, Will looks so uncomfortable that even Rust is beginning to psychosomatically feel a chill spill over his own skin.
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Having someone to merely exist around after ripping open an old wound this way is...new. It's like what Will had chased in Hannibal, with none of the searching greedy scalpels following afterwards, keen to take even more flesh than what had been offered.
The sound of mugs clanking onto the counter gets Will's attention even more than Rust's low voice. His eyes open and he looks over, tilting to better face Rust over by the coffee maker. It hisses with the start of its water heating, a little green light on the front of it staring at Will.
"Uh." Will is genuinely surprised, but not at all displeased. His face pinches into a self-deprecating smile. "That'd be-- great, actually." There's still tremors through his hands, a phenomenon that Will is suspecting more and more is due at least partially to the cold and not just his nerves. Now that some of the shattered pieces of his composure have been glued hastily back into place, he's realizing just how cold it really was outside, how soaked to the bone he was and how the damp stickiness of rain water still seems to linger on his shoulders.
"I'll...dole out the coffee while you're gone." Because Will wasn't actually raised in a barn, and absolutely has some sense of manners. He's taking slow, careful steps around the edge of the counter, easing his way into the kitchen as if it may bite him.
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The bathroom downstairs doesn't have a shower, leaving Rust to keep his clothes and grooming essentials on the second level out of convenience. He returns to the bedroom where he had been sitting an hour ago, before Will's arrival, crossing paths with books and black-and-white xeroxed copies of case reports and photos of dead girls' faces. He focuses a practiced gaze away from all of it as he moves to the window.
As if he can see a whole lot through the rain-streaked window, but he's pretty sure he can see water washing down the street and sidewalks. His phone said the flood warning was in effect until 2am... Jesus, and Will drove though that.
Even in the dim lighting from out in the hallway, Rust can see and maneuver toward dresser near the closet, and to what he wants. Through the ambiguous shadows, he grabs a plain white t-shirt, one of many for going underneath button-up shirts; a worn, heather grey sweatshirt that reads 'Mainland Training Academy' in athletic department design; a pair of jeans, soft with age that have held little use in quite a few months; and a pair of socks.
Hell if Rust knows that any of this in necessary, but he brings the stack of clothes down with him regardless, after an easy couple minutes of absence. He can hear the coffee maker sputtering its last few ounces of hot water into the pot, darkened with the mixture of the ground and roasted beans. At this point, caffeine has no effect on Rust's wakefulness than nicotine has -- which is to say, not a lot -- but the smell is certainly grounding enough on its own.
He sets the dry clothes on the counter as Will fills them their mugs. "Take what you want... And don't feel like you gotta rush outta here; dunno if you've taken a look outside, but it looks like you'd need an ark out there." Translated: not safe for driving in.
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The socks get dropped across his shoes, a vague hope that they'll dry better while stretched across the openings.
The coffee pot is the warmest point in the kitchen, and the only one he's willingly stationed himself temporarily in charge of. Will clings to the semblance of something to do with his hands, bringing the mugs over to wait by the pot. He opens the fridge, brings out a half-empty jug of milk from behind a wilting head of lettuce, and has to catch a jar of mayonnaise when it falls off the inner door's shelf as he goes to close it.
Alright. So maybe this evening plus those two glasses of whiskey haven't been kind on his reflexes.
Rust comes back, so well-timed Will wonders if it's on purpose, and Will just scoots a mug over a little bit more and then backs away, giving him room to grab it whenever he'd like. His own he pours a careless amount of milk into and doesn't bother looking for a spoon to stir it, just immediately sips. It burns a bit, lips and top of his mouth, and he blows on it while he walks over to look at the clothes.
"...That's a lot more thorough than I was expecting." He couldn't possibly sound annoyed at that, and he doesn't, just genuinely surprised. Pleasantly so? "Thanks." Rust isn't someone who smiles often, not even when he seems to be having an alright time, but he also is decidedly not unkind. Will hadn't been sure what to expect, coming over in the dead of night with a chip on his shoulder and a hell of a story to hold him hostage during, but it hadn't included the possibility of a full change of clothes and an...ambiguous offer to stay the night. Or at least until later in the morning.
And yet it doesn't feel imposing. Will has the distinct impression he isn't taxing Rust's patience or resources. The sort of dreadful apologies that seem to haunt Will when he enters other people's houses doesn't press on him quite so hard.
He picks up the entire pile and looks over to where Rust had disappeared earlier. "Is the bathroom up there?"
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But with a single word, Will eases the (fairly minor, lets be honest) pang of alarm that had captured Rust's attention. He doesn't feel a necessary desire to respond, feeling that Will must know by now, for all intents and purposes, that he is welcome.
He blows across the surface of his black coffee before taking a careful sip, eyes blinking down and nearly shutting as the heat floating out of the cup in the form of steam rolls against his face...perhaps the closest he gets to true comfort that isn't a full sense of sleep. The coffee is bitter but doesn't burn heavily like whiskey does, and sometimes it's a much needed sensation when all of your senses grow numb, some from exhaustion, and others from over-stimulation. He tastes it and can smell rain-fresh mud in his nose, just underneath the obvious scent of the coffee.
Which makes his mind not grey, but a stark royal blue and emerald green...
Rust awakens to a question about the bathroom. He turns at the waist to see Will standing simply, holding his clothes. His mug chirps a dull sound as it's returned to the counter. "It would be a cruel design choice not to put one downstairs as well," Rust muses -- believe it or not, it's an attempt at humor, which is probably more visible in his face than in his tone or words. With a rolling blink of his eyes, he looks over to the nearly-shut door a few feet down from the stairs.
"You can get dressed where ever y' want, not gonna offend me none." Said just before his coffee returns to mouth-level. He figured he should at least clarify where the bathroom is, for when those bodily function finally hit, but in terms of changing clothes...who the fuck cares.
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Which is not meant as an offense about Rust living in a shitty apartment complex. Will couldn't give less of a shit - it's his house, his life, his choices. And sure, it means something, and the living situation itself screams out all sorts of reasonings, but that's exactly it. Rust chose this place for a reason, even if that reason was that he couldn't be bothered to look through Craigslist for more than thirty minutes when trying to move.
Will's eyes track where Rust's indicate - a gesture he might have almost missed on someone else. He realizes belatedly that he's being less careful to edit out Rust's eyes by tilting his glasses just so to miss his gaze.
He blinks at the offer to just get dressed...wherever. Will was already starting over towards that side of the room, but he pauses in the empty threshold between kitchen and carpet, surprised.
But finding it doesn't hit any terrible alarms. As someone who's answered his door in boxers and an undershirt for a colleague, who's accustomed to wandering around his home and yard mostly-nude because he lives in the middle of nowhere, Will just shrugs to himself and then shucks off his undershirt, the still-damp fabric at the shoulders still clinging to his skin and hair for as long as it can.
He tugs on the fresh undershirt, pulls on a sweatshirt that reminds him an awful lot of his ancient Louisiana State University shirt, still stuffed at the bottom of a drawer somewhere. It has him smiling while he considers the jeans and then decides fuck it, his thighs are wet and cold and uncomfortable.
"Moment of truth," he mutters to himself, once he's got his own jeans in a quick pile on the floor behind the counter's living room side. As it turns out, Rust is apparently more his size than Will would have guessed, or more likely: "I think I got lucky. These must be casual day jeans." Because there's no way they're the same waist size.
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He leaves the kitchen, coffee in hand, and returns to the living room; the travel on his body feels sluggish and warm but all too quick, like his muscles and limbs know the trek better than his own brain does right now. He has to nearly stop short of the small coffee table from almost missing it. With a nearly unbalanced step backward, Rust grabs the bottle of Turkey by the neck.
It's replaced on the table with his mug of coffee; Will speaks over the coated metal cap, words pouring out with the whiskey that spills into Rust's coffee. As he replaces the cap, he looks up and over at Will, expression softer by a mere shade or two.
"Not lucky, just correct." Rust dropped some weight in the whirlwind of late nights in the cold files room, skipping meals, and excessive cigarette smoking, that has lasted...years, really. That's not even counting the months and years of narcotics usage undercover. "Didn't think you'd be offended if I handed you the largest pair of pants I own; you don't strike me as that kind of sensitive." 'That kind' being 'vain.'
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Will hadn't really been feeling self-conscious about undressing - he would've crossed over into the bathroom if he felt like he needed a wall between his modesty and Rust - but the way Rust's eyes respectfully never linger makes him oddly relieved that no one else gets to ogle at the Mark staining his right arm.
Or notice the scar from his old shoulder injury, for that matter. Although that makes Will realize that he doesn't think Rust would care enough to comment - or if he did, it would be with the sort of knowing nod that comes from a man used to seeing scars. Will's never been shy about the injury, but he usually feels a bit testy about the way it still restricts his use of that shoulder. Even as a theoretical exercise, it's soothing to think that Rust might just not give a shit, just take it as another fact to know and move on with his life.
Will's just decided he's not going to bother putting his belt on with these jeans when Rust's voice creaks over to him again. Will looks up, a smirk pulling surprised at his mouth. "Well. I wasn't going to be, until you went ahead and brought it up." He says it flatly, with no trace of even false offense, slowly circling back over to the chair he'd knocked over earlier.
He picks the folding chair off the carpet, pulls it back out so it sits up on its own, wincing a little at the reminder of his little tantrum just a few minutes ago.
He's pretty confident he can just sit back down with his coffee and not address it, though, and again: trust that Rust is just taking what happened as another fact of life, and letting them both move on.
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He watches Will like a sleepy cat knows there's a human moving around in the same room as it. "I just didn't feel like having to go back upstairs, to be honest."
Rust can barely be bothered to reach for one of the books in a stack on the floor a couple feet away: from the local library, anything and everything he could find about pagan religions and deities with antlers.
He feels an itch to start reading them, but the knowledge of having company keeps him tethered to his coffee mug instead. It makes him glance sideways to the blinded window, only having to hear the rain to know it's still going on outside. Glance back to Will, taking a mental note that he could end up being here the whole night.
Which is fine, really.
Rust checks the cigarette in the ashtray -- no longer lit, but there's a solid inch left on it, and worth smoking. He sets the mug down to free both of his hands for the endeavor. "D' you, uh...wanna...talk about Lecter s' more?"
He pauses to take a few puffs off his renewed cigarette, coaxing the fire to hold on to the exposed and sightly ashen tobacco. "Or, you wanna talk about something else?" It's an add on, but not an afterthought: rather, a cleverly laid alternative, and really, Rust's true intention.
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Will looks over, watches Rust start his deposited cigarette back up again. The smoke curls into the room, a scent Will had never really cared for but apparently got adjusted to while he was busy dripping all over the man's carpet. The renewal of the scent is the only thing that reaches him, stuffy and hot and aching in his own chest.
The procrastinator's suicide. To be fair, Will thinks that phrase fits a lot of behaviors a lot of people have, to be fair. "Actually, yeah." Will sips his coffee, the only prop his habits are offering him while he sits in Rust's lawn chair in Rust's living room. "Did you want to explain why you've got a whole carton of those in your cabinet? I was looking for a spoon and found your end-of-days stash."
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He doesn't mean to fall asleep. Will so rarely wants to fall asleep, even when he's tucked himself into bed at home, dogs on the floor by the fireplace.
Mud squelches under his feet, nearly sucking him in and catching his ankles. Will keeps walking, slow and steady, ignoring everything except what's ahead. The lake gathers around his feet and then under. Walking soft across the lake's surface, feet causing ripples and no more, Will comes to the center of the water and looks down.
His own corpse stares back at him, green and pale and eyeless.
Will jerks awake, eyes opening to a flurry of motion right in front of them. He realizes, after listening to them bounce off the arm of the chair, that his glasses just fell off.
He heaves a sigh, rubbing at his eyes with one hand, leaning the other elbow into his thighs while he rocks forward. He's pretty sure he wasn't talking in his sleep, and he didn't yell when he woke up, just-- startled breathing.
It's almost pitch-black, but Will thinks he saw what woke him. "Rust?" There's only slats of light coming in from street lamps outside. Even the distant kitchen light is off. In a room that's only newly familiar, Will takes a moment to orient himself. He clearly fell asleep in the lawn chair. Rust's bed is in this room. So, logically, Rust was turning off the lights and heading back over to...
Will's words come on the tail end of a heavy, grounding sigh. It's far from the worst nightmare he's ever had, and they've all been less gripping after the encephalitis was treated. He's already shaking it off. "Sorry, I didn't mean to pass out on you in your bedroom."
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The world works in waves, patterns. Heartbeats, the pattern of wave crashes, the rise and fall of the sun... It's natural. Exhaustion finally grasps Will and pulls him under the surface of sleep...
And Rust doesn't mind.
The guy needs it; he has been shy about sharing details about his mental health, but apparently sleepwalking hasn't stopped with the encephalitis and brainwashing. Something about turning over to setting his empty coffee mug on the table and seeing Will slumped and still in the chair comes to Rust in the form of mild relief.
Rust thinks he's going to spend the next couple of hours trapped within wakefulness -- he grabs books, his notepad, case notes, and sprawls across the floor just at the foot of his bed, intending to work.
It's maybe an hour later that he catches himself drifting. Sleep, real sleep beckons; it confounds the detective, almost draws ire from him as he forces his eyes open to re-read the same sentence in a well-worn paperback book another three times.
It must be Will's breathing: that deep, slow rhythm of lung expansion and contraction. It's the only sound in the room once the rain finally relents and lightens up to a gentle, crystalline tapping outside. Rust's eyes close heavily, lids dropped like two solid anchors into an ocean.
All right. Rust will reap the side-effects of Will's presence, asleep in his chair beside his bed. He can practically hear Marty's voice in his head, nagging at him like always, telling him how he needs to 'take better care of himself,' and yet, Rust feels much less reluctant to oblige than usual.
The lights in the apartment are out, save for the bedside lamp, when Rust drops down quietly onto his mattress. He lets his body relax, feeling aches and tension in his back that had been easier to ignore while he upright and much more awake. He lets his body take half a minute to sink into the bed, let the bobbing-rhythm of water-like waves rock his mind to and fro. Shit, he might actually get some real sleep tonight.
The stretch of silence, all in sound and air and gravity, is like a bubble so gently rupturing. For an unnaturally extended moment, nothing but the hum of space and waves dulls out every sound, until the clattering of equally tired raindrops slowly punctures the barrier of nothingness. Eyes heavily lidded and eerily still, Rust finally reaches up with incredible precision, fingers silently wrapping around the rotating swatch for the lamp. With a grinding snap, the light goes out.
The suddenness of a sound has Rust launching back into awareness -- he doesn't know if he's sitting up yet or not, only that he can simply feel his mind is spinning as it tumbles out of sleep. He has no idea how long his eyes were shut, but it seems like it was only a few seconds, given that his skin hasn't even had time to fully warm the surface of the bed where he's been laying.
Will's voice speaks his name, and Rust's hand clamors back for the light switch. "What-- what, what is it," he groans low and tiredly, rolled onto an elbow and looking around the room. Will sounded startled, did he hear a noise outside--?
The response he gets is an apology, for falling asleep. Rust sits on his elbow and stares at Will with glazy eyes, looking as though he's trying to fight being annoyed, and is only half-successful. "It's...fine. That's what bedrooms're for." Insert humorous counter-argument that this is actually the living room, yeah yeah, Rust knows.
A deep breath hisses into Rust's lungs as he leans back, free hand scrubbing at his eyes. "If I was really an asshole, I'd 've made you drive home... You're prob'ly safer sleeping here for a few hours 'fore you get back on the road."
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"Ugh-- jesus, that's bright." Will's squinting over the arm of the lawn chair, looking for his glasses. He fumbles them up and tries to hook them into a familiar pocket of his jacket and misses, which is how he remembers he's wearing Rust's sweatshirt.
"--As long as you're aware of what you're agreeing to, inviting me to sleep here." He stares down at the absent pocket, glasses in hand, and ends up just hooking one of its arms over the neckline of the sweatshirt, since it's the kind without a front kangaroo pocket, presumably because Rust isn't a college-bound girl.
But Rust is in bed, and the lights were all off, which means Rust just...went to sleep, some time after Will accidentally passed out on him. Rust, who has heard about the encephalitis and the hallucinations before, who must have heard about the sleepwalking since everyone at work still gossips about it, since there was actually a complaint filed several months back by a neighbor who was startled by Will standing in her driveway at 3am.
The room was deeply quiet, before. It's deeply quiet in between the spots where they talk, now. It's warm and now it's bright, but for the brief moment while Will woke up and was trying to shake the cobwebs of his dream, it felt like a barren cave. There's a certain comfort in that sensation of shared solitude.
He doesn't think he'd mind going back to sleep, is the thing. But that decision keeps catching on a snag from what Rust said. "I wouldn't think you were an asshole if you wanted me to clear out for the night, just for the record."
It's possible that talking about it more will just make it harder to handle. That a spotlight will bleach away any sense of normalcy in the fact that they were about to wordlessly share a sleeping space. But Will can't help but scratch at the itch of uncertainty under his skin, make sure Rust isn't going to change his mind about him if an unexpected incident wakes them both up a lot more unpleasantly later.