filthydirtysock ([personal profile] filthydirtysock) wrote in [community profile] bakerstreet2015-01-13 02:31 pm

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The HURT ME Meme
For kinks of pain: physical and emotional.

WARNING: Prompts will contain sexual and violent content and triggers. Click with caution!


THE PHYSICAL:
1 - Slapping. Bare-handed: including spanking, face-slapping.
2 - Flogging. With a leather flog, as soft or hard as you want.
3 - Breathplay. Cut off their oxygen.
4 - Beating (soft). Leaving bruises and marks.
5 - Waxplay. Feels like a burn, but isn't.
6 - Biting. Use your teeth.
7 - Gunplay. It might be the hurt, or the threat of it.
8 - Bloodplay (soft). Just a few cuts…
9 - Sexual exhaustion. Forcing them just a little too far, until it hurts more than it feels good.
10 - Suspension. Bind them so they can't (or can only barely) touch the ground, and wait for it to do its trick.
11 - Dubious consent. Don't know if they want it or not.
12 - OTHER.

THE EMOTIONAL:
1 - Loss. You've taken away something they care about deeply, perhaps destroyed it - or killed someone close to them.
2 - Rejection. All they want is you. Best to crush their feelings into the dust.
3 - Humiliation. Take away their pride.
4 - Punishment. They've done wrong. Time to let them know exactly how.
5 - Revenge. They've hurt you personally, and you want to hurt them back.
6 - Deception. Use the truth, or a lie, to make them hurt.
7 - OTHER.

THE HEAVY:
1 - Beating (hard). Draw blood, leave scars.
2 - Whipping. As hard as you want.
3 - Choking. The hard side of breathplay.
4 - Burning/Branding. Leave your marks.
5 - Fisting. The whole hand.
6 - Oversize Penetration. Double, triple, or just larger than they can take.
7 - Mutilation.
8 - Amputation.
9 - Vore.
10 - Guro.
11 - Non-con. They don't want it, but you'll force the issue.
12 - OTHER.
jotunblooded: Loki, smiling happily at someone (A rare real smile)

[personal profile] jotunblooded 2015-03-05 05:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[Loki opens one eye to regard Balthazar almost incredulously, before replying:] It appears not in this confession: there's not one wise man among twenty that will praise himself. [Shakespeare is one element of human culture that he embraced with remarkable swiftness.

Beyond that, Loki lets out an equally contented hum at the feeling of the fingers in his hair, letting both eyes fall closed for a moment longer. He's started keeping his hair short again - one thing Balthazar might have noticed is that how long he lets his hair get is actually a reasonably good indication of how bad Loki's mental state is. But after a moment, moving carefully so as not to shift the angel's hand, he pushes himself up on his elbows just enough to look the other man in the eye.]
Mm. Hit me, cut me, speak to me. [Because Balthazar has proven quite thoroughly how much damage his words can do.] Take me apart [Loki has a very definite idea what he wants the end result to be, but not quite enough self-awareness to have any definite idea of how to get there.

With an apologetic sort of half-smile, he adds:]
I'm afraid I'm not entirely certain what I'd like. I have far less experience in these matters than you seem to. [Not to mention a few hangups about sex in general. It's probably only to be expected, when possessed of Loki's corrosive self-loathing. Balthazar is the exception that's proven the rule, so far.]

I can tell you what I don't want, and you can work from there. [Even now, maybe even especially now, he trusts the angel that much.]
tryingitall: (blue steel bb)

[personal profile] tryingitall 2015-03-05 10:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[He can't help but laugh at the quick response. What's not to like about Shakespeare? Pretty words, terrible puns, and a nice mix of lowbrow comic relief tossed in to season the epic tragedy and high romance. It's very much to the angel's taste, as well.

He sort of regrets the reduction in the length of Loki's hair, but he has noticed the shorter it gets the more content his friend seems to be. So, well enough, and at any rate the outer layer, attractive as it is, is not the main thing that draws him to Loki. What that draw is, is something he's not quite able to put into words, but the past weeks have established it's more than shared suffering and similar brokenness.]


Speak to you, hm? That's probably where I need most to know what you don't want. [He meets the gaze, gently searching.] You know I'm capable of throwing tact to the winds. And you truly won't be able to defend yourself verbally with a gag on.

Which means we'll need signals, as well. I have ideas there.
jotunblooded: Loki, trying not to break down in tears (I am cursed)

[personal profile] jotunblooded 2015-03-05 11:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[Loki replies in a drawl.] I'm aware. [Or at least, god, he hopes he's aware. He hopes some of their more biting exchanges in the past are at least close to the extent of Balthazar's abilities to verbally eviscerate him.

More gently, but just as seriously, he adds:]
That's the point. [Loki is good at verbally defending himself. Maybe too good. He's started to wonder, especially after their last session, if he's even capable of not.

He's started to wonder if that's necessarily a good thing. It's unpleasant, hearing some of the things Balthazar can say to him. But sometimes it's unpleasant in the sense that bleeding out poison is unpleasant.]
But if you have ideas, by all means share them. I'm listening.

[After a beat, he adds, in something of a rush:] Something else I forgot, by the way. No blindfolding. [Loki has definite hangups about the dark.]
tryingitall: (blue)

[personal profile] tryingitall 2015-03-06 12:05 am (UTC)(link)
[That remains to be seen. Balthazar likes to think of himself as a teller of difficult truths, but he's also aware he's kind of a dick. And yet, with only a couple incidents excepted, he's tried to be on good behavior with Loki.

But you really can't take someone apart while being on best behavior.]


I can get a cricket-clicker on a band. You can press it for 'red'. I'll have your hands in front of you anyway, so I can see if you drop it or can't reach it to make it sound. But with you gagged, it all feels a bit riskier to me. I'll touch your hands periodically, I think, and ask you to squeeze back if you're all right, or try to push me away if you're not.

And pushing away will mean I'll ease off, but not stop altogether. Does that sound reasonable?

[Since the last time they tried this, things got very intense, quite abruptly. Some minor adjustments in their approach can't hurt.

His fingertips curl against the shorter locks at the back of Loki's neck.]
I don't like the idea of a blindfold with a gag, anyway. I need your expressions for feedback when you're not talking. But I do understand. No blindfold. No darkness.

[He gives him what's meant to be a reassuring caress, changing the subject for comfort's sake.] On that note, do you have a preference for gag type? Some of them just look silly to me. I was thinking a panel or a simple bit.
jotunblooded: Loki, leaning back and considering the problem in front of him. (Contemplating the situation)

[personal profile] jotunblooded 2015-03-06 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
Yes, that sounds reasonable. [Very reasonable, in fact. Loki had been prepared to take risks, to leave some things to chance if need be. He usually is. But it's...good, in a way that's still a bit unfamiliar, to know that they might not necessarily need to. He relaxes just a bit, but it was a bit that he hadn't known until then that he needed.

With the discussion apparently going well, Loki rests his head against Balthazar's chest once more, with a soft exhale of relief.]
No blindfolds. No darkness. ["Thank you." He does understand.]

And you're right. Some of them look desperately ridiculous, in fact. Panel will be fine.

[After a cautious pause during which Loki thinks on what he's about to say next very carefully, he ventures:] You're free to ease off as well, of course. On your own initiative. If there comes a point where you honestly think you need to. [It's a slight step, acknowledging that Balthazar does have limits, does have points that he might be unable to cross without actively harming himself. But it's progress, perhaps.]
tryingitall: (thinking)

[personal profile] tryingitall 2015-03-06 03:07 am (UTC)(link)
[Not that things might not still go out of control, even with the additional precautions. Loki's previous observation was correct. What they plan for and what actually happens are two different things. At least this way, though, Balthazar can feel like he made an attempt not to run amok.

He gives a lazy little stretch as Loki settles back against his chest, feeling rewarded.]
Good. Panel it is.

[It's an item he doesn't possess, but the same shop where he purchased the whip last time ought to have something he can use. After breakfast, then.]

I'll...try to remember that. [He's not sure what his own limits will be, in point of fact. Loki is infinitely more important to him than anyone he's ever done this type of thing with before, and that means he'll be afraid of going too far and losing him.] As far as what to say to you...is there anything off limits?
jotunblooded: Loki, barely holding himself together under his grief and sadness (Did she suffer?)

[personal profile] jotunblooded 2015-03-06 03:31 am (UTC)(link)
[Loki first answers without thinking.] No. [Because, for a moment, he genuinely can't think what could be off-limits, with what he's already invited.

And then...he does. He thinks of a few things that really could break him irreparably even to hear, whether or not they were true, and the thought makes him tighten his fingers in Balthazar's shirt in a gesture that's almost needy. Turning his face a little against the angel's chest, Loki amends:]
...yes.

Don't... [He takes a breath, and it catches painfully in his throat for a moment.] Don't say you hate me, or you're leaving, or...that you regret any of this. Not even to get a rise. Don't even lie about it.

...and lie to me anyway, if it is. Please. [Ordinarily, he might be able to disregard and dissociate that far, but if the goal is to make him vulnerable...Loki isn't at all sure, but that's one risk he finds that he's not quite willing to take.]
tryingitall: (srsly)

[personal profile] tryingitall 2015-03-06 03:56 am (UTC)(link)
[Of all the things he could have put off limits, Balthazar wasn't expecting that. He's not looking at his face, but Loki might hear the little catch in the angel's breath, feel the flutter in his chest.

It's not that he doesn't know Loki genuinely cares for him, values his company, even loves him--they've said as much, after all. But somehow every time he comes out with something like this it shocks Balthazar, just a bit, but in the most pleasant of ways. He murmurs one of the Enochian endearments they've gotten so much mileage out of in the last few weeks, and gives him a little squeeze.]


I'm not going to lie to you about anything. I think...it's important that you know I'm speaking the truth when we do this, or at least the truth as I see it. So I won't be saying anything like that. No regrets, love always, and you're probably stuck with me until the stars themselves go cold, so no worries there.

I'm going to bring up things that will hurt. And I may very well give orders that damage your pride. But nothing like that. I promise.
jotunblooded: Loki, appearing as the Jotun he really is (Using Magic)

[personal profile] jotunblooded 2015-03-06 04:12 am (UTC)(link)
...good.

[It's a promise he believes, that Loki can't help but believe. No one's heart beats like this when they're lying. Not even his.

It's still a strange feeling, that a promise of the truth could actually mean he's spared something he fears. But Loki nods his understanding and acceptance, settling a little against Balthazar once more.]
Good.

[The rest, he can accept. Work with. Deserve. Honestly, there's still more than a bit that Balthazar doesn't know about him or how he got to this point, mostly because it's a very long story. That might change very soon, of course, but for now...]

That's fine, otherwise. Or...fine for this, I suppose. And if not... [He shrugs, trying for casual, composed.] "Red". [Hopefully, it's as simple as that, for both of them.]
tryingitall: (wingies)

[personal profile] tryingitall 2015-03-06 04:56 am (UTC)(link)
[Something Loki fears. Balthazar can't imagine anyone so fiercely defensive and independent fearing abandonment, rejection, the way he himself does. And yet, judging from what just passed between them, Loki must. He's not sure whether that's heartbreaking or blessed reassurance, but hearing it only secures his own devotion. Until the stars go cold.]

We'll work it out as we go. [He sighs softly, promising.] But it might be wise to get some rest first. Do you expect to sleep tonight?

[That's a suggestion disguised as a question. Balthazar thinks he'll make the attempt himself, but he's more concerned about Loki, as whatever they end up doing will be harder on him physically.]
jotunblooded: Loki, grinning in an attempt to provoke (Bwahahaha)

[personal profile] jotunblooded 2015-03-06 02:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[Abandonment, rejection, being forgotten or left behind. There are few things that Loki fears more. It's to the point that it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy, in a way. He prepares for the inevitable loss at the start, because if never being cared for means never being left behind...it's a worthwhile sacrifice. If he's fiercely defensive and independent enough, maybe he can bury that fear too deep down inside to matter.

Or it had worked, for a while. But this is...just that bit too nice to easily go back.]


Oh, I never expect to sleep. [He smiles, faintly playful, even though he doesn't lift his head or open his eyes again.] That way I can be pleasantly surprised when it does happen. [He knows that he should sleep, but it's something that it's always Loki's first instinct to avoid whenever possible.]
tryingitall: (chuckle)

[personal profile] tryingitall 2015-03-07 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
[Balthazar's answering laugh rumbles in his chest, and he threads his fingers through Loki's hair, stroking in a way calculated to relax him further.] I suppose I could say I expect you to try, but I'm not actually in charge yet. So I'll save that for tomorrow.

Still, if you're comfortable where you are, don't feel in any rush to move on my account. [Whatever their fears--and however surprisingly mutual they seem to be--no one's going anywhere tonight. The angel feels warm and content and very not-alone. At that rate, it's easy to enjoy the moment and forget any apprehension he might have in the light of their proposed activities for the next day.]
jotunblooded: Loki, caught in a moment of brotherly affection (Feeling fond)

[personal profile] jotunblooded 2015-03-07 04:03 am (UTC)(link)
[No one's going anywhere tonight. This is warm and relaxed and safe, and Loki is finally starting to creep up on the idea that he might deserve it.

Whatever tomorrow might do to that state of mind remains to be seen. Maybe he'll be built back up even stronger than before, maybe it will just be a victory for him to be built back up at all.]
Mm. Well, if you're offering.

[Either way, here and now, he can trust that they'll figure it out. So Loki lets his eyes close, lets himself focus on the gentle rise and fall of the angel's chest and go almost boneless at the fingers through his hair.

He doesn't even properly realize it when he goes from pleasantly drifting to deep asleep. Either way, morning will probably dawn quiet and thoughtful, before the experiment begins.]
tryingitall: (aside)

[personal profile] tryingitall 2015-03-07 04:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[Whether they deserve warm and safe or not, they want it and they have it, so they may as well enjoy it.]

Offering, and requesting. You're comfortable. [And that's all he says for the rest of the night, still except for breathing, and stroking until Loki seems like he's well and truly out.

It's probably a good thing. They'll have this to fall back on if something goes wrong in the morning, which makes Balthazar feel a bit safer, too.

He's awake first, but sees no reason to stir until Loki does, at which point he kisses the top of his head and extracts himself gently to start the tea. Breakfast is deceptively casual, with the angel chatting absently as per his usual, and making every effort to stick Loki with the dishes.

When it's done, he slips into the living room to clear furniture. Between angelic strength and telekinesis, it doesn't take long to make a space on the rug as large as the circle they used before.]


We're fortunate, I think, that we can clear our schedules to make a day of this kind of thing. I'm sure people who work for a living can't do that.

[He stares at the space for a moment, as if lost in thought, then takes a breath.] Right. I'm out for about an hour. Clear your head, and I'll clear mine. And we'll do this.
jotunblooded: Loki, leaning back and considering the problem in front of him. (Contemplating the situation)

[personal profile] jotunblooded 2015-03-07 11:07 pm (UTC)(link)
[Loki will eventually permit himself to get stuck with the dishes, though not without a huff and some bad grace. It works out the best for both of them, however, because it means he can stay out of the way and have something to do with his hands while Balthazar clears a space in the living room. Ordinarily, he might watch, but...right now, Loki has the sense that doing so would only ratchet his nerves up one level too high. Instead, he tries not to stress himself out for at least a little while longer. But finally, the sound of furniture sliding and shifting ceases, letting him know that the angel is done. Pausing only to dry his hands, Loki goes out to join him.]

Oh, I don't know. I'm sure we could find the time. Just a matter of getting creative.

[Loki stares at the space, too, though he's watching Balthazar out of the corner of his eye. When the angel moves at last, Loki actually starts slightly in surprise, before he takes a steadying breath as well.]

And then we will.

See you in an hour.

[Fortunately, when given time and space, Loki is actually very good at clearing his head. It helps that he's had literal centuries of practice at a variety of different techniques for meditation. He settles himself down in the center of that space, legs crossed in front of him, hands resting on his knees, and just...breaths, taking care to imagine exhaling all his worries and doubts on every exhale. Frigga would have been pleased.

He still misses her so much it hurts, sometimes. But either way, that's where Balthazar will find him on returning. Loki only opens his eyes when the sound of fluttering wings dies away, tilting his head to regard the angel. He asks almost mildly:]
Clothes on or off?
tryingitall: (commanding)

[personal profile] tryingitall 2015-03-08 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
[Balthazar leaves the place and flies, as fast and as far as he can in fifteen or twenty minutes, working off the edge of nervous excitement. It makes for a few circuits up and down the East Coast, but eventually he lights in Chicago and does the last bit of shopping required. It's the same novelty store where he bought the whip, and the cashier recognizes him. She doesn't say anything untoward, just smiles as she hands him the bag. You can't work at a sex shop and not be at least a bit discreet. Still, Balthazar thinks he may want to stop elsewhere if they need something else later.

He pauses to window shop at a candy store, studying the display of twists of strawberry licorice, dark chocolate, rainbow rock candy. As an afterthought he breezes in and buys hard candy with honey in the center, apropos of nothing in particular, eats one, and then returns, landing in the living room and setting the candy box on the shelf.]


Hello to you too. [He smiles gently, and sets the larger bag on the coffee table.] Off, without question. Take your time, I have things to set out.

[And with that, he begins removing and unwrapping the contents of the bag: hempen rope in black and scarlet, a faux-brass clicker on an elastic cord, a small knife that appears to be for the purpose of cutting rope or tape rather than slicing flesh, and a row of paraffin candles in white, black, pale green, and deep blue.

The last item to be removed is the gag, and he tears the package open to inspect it thoroughly for rough edges and other potential hazards. It's black, with small decorative buckles on the left side, and by far the most expensive item he's brought.]


I want to try this on you before I tie you, since I'm not particularly enchanted with the idea of suffocating you, and the bands will need adjustment. Sit on the edge of the chair for the moment. [It's a casual order; he's not precisely in character yet, testing the waters in preparation for easing into the scene.]
jotunblooded: Loki, attention focused on the task at hand (Default)

[personal profile] jotunblooded 2015-03-08 01:52 am (UTC)(link)
[Loki rises to undress, at that. He'd suspected that it would probably be necessary, of course. But, it was only polite to wait and ask.

He does take his time, but mostly for the sake of watching from the corner of his eye as Balthazar unpacks, mentally noting everything that gets set out. Most of it's expected, only what they agreed on before. Good. The candy box is not expected, but Loki thinks he recognizes it for what it is, and so only smiles in faint amusement.

Once he's finished stripping down, Loki folds up his clothes to set them on the shelf beside the candy box for safekeeping. Then he finds his attention definitely grabbed by the sight of the gag. Just on sight, he can tell it's the most expensive new toy of the bunch. That thought is...strangely flattering, all things considered.]


An outcome I would prefer to avoid as well. Your consideration is appreciated. [So Loki sits, waiting obediently for the gag to be tested. It's a halfhearted order, but he has no doubt that things are only going to get more intense from here. Testing the waters is...probably safest, after last time.]
tryingitall: (blue)

[personal profile] tryingitall 2015-03-08 02:23 am (UTC)(link)
[Balthazar flashes a grin at him.] You're welcome. Hands in your lap; I'll handle this part.

[He holds the item up so Loki can get a good look at first the outside, then the inside. The edges are all finished, and the quality most certainly does show; Balthazar was going for broke on the aesthetics. Inside, the lining is smooth, and there is a small ball.] They don't appear to make them without the rubber balls on the inside, but I chose the smallest.

You might want something to bite down on, anyway, at some point. [His voice drops lower as he makes that comment, a deliberately darker tone.] At any rate, rest assured I chose the best I could find.

[He leans in and kisses his forehead.] Now. This is just to adjust the straps, then I'll take it back off and we can take stock before we truly begin.

[Cradling Loki's chin gently in one hand, he faces the interior of the gag toward him.] Open, and bite down gently on the rubber.
jotunblooded: Loki, head in his hands in a moment of irritation (Facepalm)

[personal profile] jotunblooded 2015-03-08 02:36 am (UTC)(link)
[Loki examines the gag with his head slightly tilted. He does visibly roll his eyes in disdain at humans and their overcomplicated aesthetics at the sight of the ball. Honestly, what happened to just using a length of cloth and tying it off?

And then something in Balthazar's tone makes Loki sit up a little straighter, a little shiver that's neither pleasant nor entirely unpleasant racing down his spine. Somehow, the chaste kiss to his forehead is enough of a contrast to make that darkness seem all the sharper.

He meets Balthazar's gaze, one eyebrow raised, looking as though he's almost contemplating biting down too hard and seeing what happens. But when the gag is moved into place, Loki does as he's bidden, taking the rubber between his teeth and waiting while the straps are adjusted.]
tryingitall: (smug)

[personal profile] tryingitall 2015-03-08 03:16 am (UTC)(link)
[Well, Balthazar could have saved his money and just bought a length of fabric...but that wouldn't have been as elegant.

He raises both eyebrows at the look Loki gives him, a half-skeptical, half-challenging glance. Remember, you asked for this. But he says nothing aloud, clicking the straps closed at the nape of his neck and the back of his head, then tugging and fiddling with the adjustments. The end result is snug, enough pressure that no shake of his head will move the gag from its position flush against his skin.

The angel crouches, frowning a moment to make sure he can breathe through his nose, then backs off to get the overall picture--and beams.]
Oh...yes, that's very pretty on you, indeed. Good.

[Pleased, he traces the straps against Loki's cheek for a moment, teasing, then summarily undoes the fastenings at the back.] Felt all right?
jotunblooded: Loki, intently staring down an enemy (More dangerous than he looks)

[personal profile] jotunblooded 2015-03-08 05:29 am (UTC)(link)
[He did ask for this, and he still plans to go along with it. But that doesn't mean Loki isn't going to push and challenge just a bit, even if only to test Balthazar and where the limits are.

Loki is perhaps the textbook example of a smart-assed masochist, so the gag is probably for the best. Balthazar doesn't need the sort of goading he could provide.

Still, Loki will allow the gag to be fastened and tested, and can't help the way his heart skips a beat at the soft "click" of the clasps. He realizes that the rubber ball helps truly silence him, keeps him from making any sound rather than just muffling.

Insidious, that.

He turns his head this way and that, tilts up and down, testing how it feels around his face. In the end, it's snug enough to be noticeable, but loose enough to let him get a little air in around the edges. He can breathe, but he can't speak.

When Balthazar first undoes the gag, Loki immediately goes to test his jaw - opening and closing his mouth, massaging his fingers over the bone. No real ache yet.

Good, and so he nods his agreement.]
Well enough.
tryingitall: (smug dick)

[personal profile] tryingitall 2015-03-08 11:27 am (UTC)(link)
[Really, no one needs the sort of goading Loki can provide. As far as the angel can tell, it's one of his greatest talents. The more he thinks about it, the better he likes the idea of the gag, for that very reason. Balthazar does have a temper and he's capable of losing it, for one thing.

For another, despite his outward confidence, he has a few fears and misgivings and the wrong word could shake him out of this altogether. After what their last attempt did for him, he'd feel bad if he failed Loki.

So the stakes do feel high, and he watches his lover test and feel out the sensations intently.]
Good.

Very good. Let's begin.

[He turns away, and there's an audible rustle of his wings shifting as their posture changes. He's folding them tightly, lifting them high in much the way he would if he were addressing an angel he had command of. It seems to pull his vessel's spine a little straighter, making a subtle change in body language, and yet he's still easy and languid as he chooses a length of cord and unloops the end.] The ropes come first. The goal is not to cut off your circulation, so if anything goes numb, you are to let me know with the word 'red'. Once the gag is on, you'll have to use the clicker instead.

However, I don't expect that to happen because I have a fair bit of experience in this. [He smiles, then, and there's no loss of warmth in it. Instead, there's a sly superiority. He's powerful, and he's smug, and while Loki no doubt realizes by now that's a part of his everyday personality, it appears to be a much larger part of his persona for this experiment.]

On the floor, now. Kneel, spine straight, shoulders back, and hands at your sides. [It's almost a test, to see how much resistance he's going to have to fight through. He can certainly put Loki on the floor if he has to, and has no objection to trying, but if they can begin with some conservation of energy, so much the better.]
jotunblooded: Loki, attention focused on the task at hand (Default)

[personal profile] jotunblooded 2015-03-09 05:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[It's almost immediately apparent that their respective approaches to taking command and control couldn't be more different. Loki gives command like he's trying to earn obedience by sheer force of will, because he otherwise doesn't believe he deserves it. Balthazar gives commands like he has no doubt that he'll be obeyed to start with. There's also clearly an almost military air to him, in this moment, something practiced and poised as opposed to Loki, who tends to move like a hungry snake when he gets in that place.

It would be fascinating if it wasn't so distracting. As it is, the sight of even that subtle shift reaches into something deep at the back of Loki's mind and flips a switch. It's a part of him that was molded and made use of by others in the past, but something that has always, on some level, been there.

So there's already a note of almost-hunger underpinning his interest, as he watches Balthazar pace. Still, he frowns somewhat skeptically at the command.]
Hands by my sides? [That seems a somewhat awkward position to be bound in, not to mention easier to get loose from.

But he does move to obey, to take up the position anyway, because not obeying at that point is borderline unthinkable.]
tryingitall: (Angelsplaining)

[personal profile] tryingitall 2015-03-09 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[He thinks he catches a flicker of something in Loki's eyes, under the skeptical frown. Enough to tell him he's not setting off on the wrong track, at least. He can adjust his approach as needed, as they move ahead, but he's begun with definite, if malleable, plans in mind. Break down, build up, comfort.]

Correct. [His smile widens, briefly. He's not going to explain himself, at least not yet; that's not what this interaction is about. Leaving that uncharacteristically terse reply as it is, he slides the rope through his hands.

It's not a very large cord, actually. About the diameter of an index finger, although partly the dark color may make it look narrower than it is. It's long, though, and he seems to be measuring it out as he smooths and tugs at it, eventually settling on a midpoint.

He moves closer to Loki, crouching in front of him, and hooks the curve over the back of his neck, as if the rope were simply a long scarf.]
This will take a few minutes. Stay as still as you can, it will be good practice for later.

[His fingers move quickly, confidently, as he twists the rope into a stable knot halfway between Loki's throat and his sternum. From there, either end gets led across his shoulders, and the angel circles around, making a twist at his upper back.

From there, his actions get harder to follow, as he circles, wraps, knots, twists, and pulls the cord snug against his skin. It's tight enough that Loki will feel the pressure, and there's a significant chance of rope burns if he strains or struggles, but Balthazar wasn't lying about having done this before.

By the time he's come to the end of the black rope, several multi-stranded bands criss-cross Loki's torso, leaving large triangular spaces open on his chest and stomach and back, but effectively pressing his arms to his sides, all the way down to his hips.

Balthazar inches back to look him over, frowning thoughtfully.]
I need space, you see. You wouldn't feel a thing if I just dropped wax on the ropes, obviously, and I don't want your bound hands in the way, either.

[Rising, he fetches a second cord, this one a bright red.] I think I'll put you on your back to start with. I want to watch your expression. But let me make certain you're secure first.
jotunblooded: Loki, grinning in an attempt to provoke (Bwahahaha)

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[Loki frowns, almost petulantly, because that is not a sufficient answer and the angel knows it. Yet he doesn't press the issue or try to dig any further, not least because in this new, entirely unfamiliar territory, a simple "correct" takes on entirely new levels of reassurance. He hasn't messed up. It's okay. Start from there.

He watches Balthazar almost owlishly as his lover kneels down before him, his gaze darting only briefly from the rope to the other man's face and back again. But he bows his head just a bit to let the rope be hooked over the back of his neck, and his eyes fall half-closed in an almost meditative expression while the rope is tied. He gives up trying to follow the patterns very quickly. There's almost certainly no point. He's dimly aware of the pressure increasing, but really only tries to move when his hears Balthazar step back.

That's...pretty secure. He could of course break out if he really made the effort, but...Loki doesn't particularly want to make the effort. Not really. Having his hands bound at his side is particularly odd.

It takes him a second to realize that the other man is explaining, and then a second more for Loki to even remember what he'd asked. But of course, then he understands. Even through the ropes, being bound like this really is an extra layer of vulnerability. A man with his hands bound in front of him can still defend himself, in some small way. The fact that he probably won't need to is not important. The point has been made.

Fascinating.]


This isn't secure? [His tone is arch, but it's almost like his heart isn't in it. Loki is finding it increasingly difficult even to put up the pretense of mouthing off. He doesn't need to. This is...comfortable.]

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