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[nomadicflame]

If I could have a headache, you would have given me one ten times over.

Torpor would be preferable to this.

[surgicalcynicism]

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[nomadicflame]

Just tell me one thing.

Did any of it matter?

[surgicalcynicism]

Any of what?

[nomadicflame]

The game. I know you remember.

[surgicalcynicism]

I remember borderland. And I remember you

Was it a dream?

[nomadicflame]

If it was, it was one we dreamed together.

I was there with you. I held you. It felt real.

[surgicalcynicism]

It felt like borderland

Last time I went, I die. I'm not dead now

Did you read my mind or invade my dreams?

[nomadicflame]

I did neither.

I was there with you. I do not know how.

[surgicalcynicism]

That is unsettling

That it happened for no predictable reason

I know. I remember you there

[nomadicflame]

Now you know why I was upset with you.

[surgicalcynicism]

I didn't bring you to borderland

[nomadicflame]

You used me. And left me.

[surgicalcynicism]

Is that what you remember happening

[nomadicflame]

Clearly.

You told me that you play or you die. And you left me like I was nothing.

Was any of it real, Chishiya? Did I mean anything to you, even for a moment?

[surgicalcynicism]

Where?

Here or in borderland?

[nomadicflame]

Anywhere.

What am I to you?

[surgicalcynicism]

There's a difference

Mind-blower

[nomadicflame]

Why is there a difference?

You will only love me when a game demands it?

[surgicalcynicism]

In borderland you win or you die. And there is nothing I wouldn't have done there, to get back home. In borderland, there is no choice. Not for anyone

Is that what this is. You love me?

[nomadicflame]

I have inconvenient feelings for you.

I do not know if it is love.

But it makes my life difficult.

And after... Being with you... It is even more difficult.

[surgicalcynicism]

And yet you demand love from me

Words are cheap. I trust actions, you should try it

[nomadicflame]

Your action was to leave me.

That is all I know right now.

How am I supposed to feel?

[surgicalcynicism]

If that is the action you remember, then that's what happened

I don't know

[nomadicflame]

I remember more. How you touched me before that. The way you looked at me, the way you kissed me.

But I do not know if you meant any of it or if you were only trying to survive.