[ then maybe all Jason is, is unkind. maybe he's a terrible, horrible, piece of shit who dismisses others feelings, laughs at their name, puts them down when they're hurting. that's what he's done, is it? maybe nothing that is kind and caring about Jason's heart is true, if that's all Glaïeul thinks about what he's said.
how unforgiving, for a person who claims to care so deeply for the people they protect. maybe Jason should be so unforgiving too. maybe Glaïeul thinks he already is. does Glaïeul even know what being berated is? clearly not if they think that's what happened with Jason, and how unforgiving they're being to him when he's trying so damn hard.]
I've never really read anything about Robin Hood. Just saw it in the previous Robin's notes. And like, not that I'd wanna change it, but I wouldn't be able to even if I wanted to. It's Batman and Robin, that's how it's always gonna be.
[if the rest of the world asked, then maybe they're all better than Jason is too. why is Glaïeul even talking to him then? why are they acting like everything is ok when they have this deep contempt for Jason. there was no intense anger or fury. is Jason not allowed to get upset when he sees an injustice in front of him? that must be meant for everyone else. Jason has never never thought of Glaïeul as he. has always known they were non-binary and has treated them as such. again, Glaïeul is making things up in their head. blowing things completely out of proportion for no reason. if they thought Jason thought of them as he and would slip back into the same place mentally, my god how wrong they would be. Glaïeul thinks Jason thinks so little of them as a person because he thinks of Glaïeul as he? Except Jason doesn't. not ever. another thing made up in Glaïeul's head. how sad for Jason that this is what's become of this.
Jason made one mistake with their argument, the same as Glaïeul did and now Jason's being condemned. now he's toxic, even though he's been doing everything he can to make it right. it's terrible. it's painful... or it will be when Jason finds out. it'll ache and consume him and then he'll push it deep down where all the rest of the hurt is. Glaïeul is not the first person to treat him like this. to think of him like this.
for now, he's blissfully ignorant of Glaïeul's horrible thoughts about him. all he thinks is that maybe he has a friend. maybe Glaïeul likes him, and thinks he's worth it. at least worth showing their face to, to be able to tell their name to him. Jason is hopeful, even if just a little bit. he'll be heartbroken, but maybe Glaïeul already thinks of Jason as someone with barely any heart.
it's funny, there was a time when Glaïeul didn't mostly think of Jason as this poisonous trash. when they thought it was cute and amusing to rile him up. Jason should have been the one who was wary and careful, tiptoeing around, holding everything in. he had no idea Glaïeul would be this harsh with him.
does Glaïeul even realize what they're taking from Jason right now? pretending to like him and to be kind and nice to him when all they're thinking of are terrible things about him with scattered thoughts of maybe how kind he might be? it's toxic. it's toxic, yes. but in the opposite way Glaïeul is thinking. ]
Heeeey, I didn't say I wasn't smart.
[he laughs, but he gets what Glaïeul means. he's a hell of a lot more practical smart than book smart. he's mostly trying with that too, though. he tries so damn hard with everything.]
What do you think would help you adjust better? ...I can help. I mean, if you want me to.
[but only then, because Jason's so big on consent, too. it seems like Glaïeul knew that at one point, but now their thoughts are slowly declining, getting worse about Jason with every move, and Jason wouldn't even have the first clue of what he's done so badly for that to happen. blissfully ignorant. so blissful as he tilts his head and offers Glaïeul another small smile.]
If you like soft touches, that could help. I uh... I like that too. Don't tell anyone though. Everyone thinks I'm a total badass.
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how unforgiving, for a person who claims to care so deeply for the people they protect. maybe Jason should be so unforgiving too. maybe Glaïeul thinks he already is. does Glaïeul even know what being berated is? clearly not if they think that's what happened with Jason, and how unforgiving they're being to him when he's trying so damn hard.]
I've never really read anything about Robin Hood. Just saw it in the previous Robin's notes. And like, not that I'd wanna change it, but I wouldn't be able to even if I wanted to. It's Batman and Robin, that's how it's always gonna be.
[if the rest of the world asked, then maybe they're all better than Jason is too. why is Glaïeul even talking to him then? why are they acting like everything is ok when they have this deep contempt for Jason. there was no intense anger or fury. is Jason not allowed to get upset when he sees an injustice in front of him? that must be meant for everyone else. Jason has never never thought of Glaïeul as he. has always known they were non-binary and has treated them as such. again, Glaïeul is making things up in their head. blowing things completely out of proportion for no reason. if they thought Jason thought of them as he and would slip back into the same place mentally, my god how wrong they would be. Glaïeul thinks Jason thinks so little of them as a person because he thinks of Glaïeul as he? Except Jason doesn't. not ever. another thing made up in Glaïeul's head. how sad for Jason that this is what's become of this.
Jason made one mistake with their argument, the same as Glaïeul did and now Jason's being condemned. now he's toxic, even though he's been doing everything he can to make it right. it's terrible. it's painful... or it will be when Jason finds out. it'll ache and consume him and then he'll push it deep down where all the rest of the hurt is. Glaïeul is not the first person to treat him like this. to think of him like this.
for now, he's blissfully ignorant of Glaïeul's horrible thoughts about him. all he thinks is that maybe he has a friend. maybe Glaïeul likes him, and thinks he's worth it. at least worth showing their face to, to be able to tell their name to him. Jason is hopeful, even if just a little bit. he'll be heartbroken, but maybe Glaïeul already thinks of Jason as someone with barely any heart.
it's funny, there was a time when Glaïeul didn't mostly think of Jason as this poisonous trash. when they thought it was cute and amusing to rile him up. Jason should have been the one who was wary and careful, tiptoeing around, holding everything in. he had no idea Glaïeul would be this harsh with him.
does Glaïeul even realize what they're taking from Jason right now? pretending to like him and to be kind and nice to him when all they're thinking of are terrible things about him with scattered thoughts of maybe how kind he might be? it's toxic. it's toxic, yes. but in the opposite way Glaïeul is thinking. ]
Heeeey, I didn't say I wasn't smart.
[he laughs, but he gets what Glaïeul means. he's a hell of a lot more practical smart than book smart. he's mostly trying with that too, though. he tries so damn hard with everything.]
What do you think would help you adjust better? ...I can help. I mean, if you want me to.
[but only then, because Jason's so big on consent, too. it seems like Glaïeul knew that at one point, but now their thoughts are slowly declining, getting worse about Jason with every move, and Jason wouldn't even have the first clue of what he's done so badly for that to happen. blissfully ignorant. so blissful as he tilts his head and offers Glaïeul another small smile.]
If you like soft touches, that could help. I uh... I like that too. Don't tell anyone though. Everyone thinks I'm a total badass.