Angst Meme

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ANGST MEME



Sometimes we all want to play some angst and see just how far our characters will fall.
- Post your characters, name and series in the subject along with any preferences.
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1. just depressed.
Things are tough, you're feeling worn out, or whatever the case, you're depressed. You need help or someone else thinks you do anyway.

2. abandoned.
You were left behind by everyone you hold dear and now you're forced to see how well they've adjusted, how happy they all are while you're screaming inside.

3. sick.
Cold, flu, or something even worse, all you can do is lay back and let someone take care of you.

4. fight.
You've been fighting nonstop with the other person and it just keep escalating.

5. break up.
You're being broken up with and they won't reconsider... Damn.

6. separated.
For some reason, you've been separated from the other person for a long time.

7. kidnapped.
You've been held captive for how long now? Maybe they've been torturing you even, using your blood to write ransom notes, threatening to cut off fingers to send next, etc. Rescue is on the way though, right?

8. beaten up.
Just because someone didn't like you or maybe they wanted something you had, whatever the case is, you're coming home sporting some nasty wounds and bruises.

9. jealousy.
You just have this undeniable jealousy suddenly and you need to let it out.

10. cheated on.
This goes beyond just suspicion and you have full on proof of what your lover has done. How do you handle it?

11. apathetic.
You're not sad, you're not happy, you just... don't feel much anymore. The sparkle of life has gone right out of you and you're just going through the motions now.

12. addicted.
Drugs, alcohol, whatever your drug of choice is, you can't fight the draw and you can't draw yourself out of the hole, but the other person is going to try.

13. bad romance.
You know this isn't good for either of you, but you can't stop now.

14. fear.
Nightmares, the feeling someone is following you, etc. You can't shake the feeling.

15. insanity.
You're seeing things and hearing them, waking up only to realize you've done things you don't remember or you're in a place you weren't before. You're losing it and you don't know what to do.

16. guilt.
It's eating you up inside and you have to tell someone about it now. You want to be punished and you won't take no for an answer.

17. loss
You've lost something dear to you.

18. wild card.
Combine some options or make your own!

Comments

[nonmagical]

[Mirabel had gone off outside - it was a little late in the evening to be doing much of anything outside, but while the family was distracted she had managed to slip away.

She can be found on a little hill, watching the sky. All the while, she was lost in her own thoughts. She hears Luisa before she sees her - jumping just a bit before settling back down.]

O-oh, hey Luisa! I thought you'd be inside...?

[You know, with everyone else.]

[neverbreaks]

[ She gives her sister a look. ]

Like you should be?

[nonmagical]

Aha...

[She can't wiggle her way out with an excuse - not that she can think of a really good one anyway. Her awkward smile falters, and she looks away.]

I just... came out to think, that's all.

[neverbreaks]

[ With a concerned frown, she takes a seat next to Mirabel. ]

Everything okay?

[nonmagical]

[Mirabel pulls at her skirt a little, hand gripping the fabric as she fidgets.]

Everything's... better now, right? Everyone's happier? I could tell at dinner. It was... different this time. And I'm glad for it - I am! I just don't know why...

... I'm not happier.

[neverbreaks]

[ Luisa's frown deepens as she feels, not for the first time, the twist of guilt in her stomach, thinking back over everything that had happened. ]

Lo siento...We really didn't treat you very well, did we?

[nonmagical]

You had your own stuff going on. I didn't realize... how much pressure you all were under, having to use your Gifts.

[She never had one, so there were no expectations for her - only to stay out of the way. It was her who put expectations on herself, to be useful, to be seen, and she got what she wanted, didn't she?]

I'm being selfish. I got everything I could want, I just...

[Don't feel like it's real.]

... still feel like I'm still trying to find my place.

[neverbreaks]

[ Luisa frowns, wrapping an arm around Mirabel's shoulders. ] Just because we had stuff doesn't make what you went through any less difficult. It doesn't make your struggles or feelings mean less...it doesn't make you any less important.

[ Because that had been the issue, hadn't it? No matter how much they loved Mirabel, they had inadvertently made her feel that she wasn't as important as they were...that she somehow had less meaning than they did.

Even if they had never meant to, they still did, and the guilt and shame still sits heavily in her stomach. ]

And it's not selfish. Things are changing, but...we're all still trying to figure out how much.

[ As much as things have been getting better now, she knows there was still a lot more work that needed to be done. ]

[nonmagical]

[Mirabel leans into her, gratefully accepting the comfort. It was difficult. She tried so hard, and it never felt like it mattered. And it hurt, so incredibly much.]

There's... a lot of work we still have to do, huh? Figuring all this out, I mean.

I hope we can be happier, now.

[neverbreaks]

[ She gently hugs Mirabel closer to her. ]

Yeah…we’ve still got a long way to go, I think. But all we can really do is keep doing our best.

And at least, we’ll be there for each other more…better.

[ That was a mistake she would never make again. ]

[nonmagical]

Yeah... yeah, we will be.

[Mirabel leans into the hug, wrapping an arm around her sister. It's okay. She doesn't have to be in this alone anymore.]

You really know what to say to make someone feel better, sis.

[neverbreaks]

[ Luisa laughs faintly, shaking her head. ] I don't usually, to be honest. I'm still learning too. But I'm trying to be better...and I want you to know that I'm here for you too.

[nonmagical]

Thanks, Luisa. [She leans her head against her.] I'm here for you too, whenever you need it.

[neverbreaks]

[ She smiles. ] I know. Gracias, hermanita.

[ With a sigh, she lets the silence settle over them for a moment. It would definitely take a lot more work...but it'll be easier, as long as they were doing it together.

After another moment of sitting comfortably with her sister, Luisa gently nudges her. ]

Hey...you remember when we were younger and you used to come with me while I was doing chores around town?

[nonmagical]

Uhhh, yeah. I was always trying to get you to ditch your chores and play with me.

[Which Luisa couldn’t because well… family pressure and all.]

I even pretended I couldn’t walk so I could get a piggyback ride.

[neverbreaks]

[ She laughs a little. ] Right. So I'd end up carrying you and whatever else I was transporting at the time.

[ She's quiet a moment again, letting the memories linger for a while. ]

To be honest, those were some of my favorite times. Even though I couldn't drop my chores, you still stuck around with me and we'd just talk while I was working.

I've...kinda missed that.

[nonmagical]

I was very important cargo, thank you very much.

[Sorry not sorry. Okay maybe a little sorry. She smiles a little to herself.]

I missed that too. I liked being able to just talk with you, even if you couldn't drop what you were doing.

[She remembers, they'd talk about just about anything. Even though she couldn't get Luisa to stop and play with her, she enjoyed the moments she had just being with her sister.]

Maybe we could... start doing that again. With less chores this time.

[neverbreaks]

[ She nods. ] Yeah. It definitely made working a lot less lonely.

But yeah…I think it’d be nice to just get to hang out again.

[nonmagical]

Yeah, I think so too... I'd like to just hang out together.

... I'm sorry, that you had to do so much by yourself, Luisa.

[neverbreaks]

[ Luisa shakes her head. ] It's not your fault, Mira. I thought I could handle it all...like I was trying to prove something. I... [ She hesitates a moment. She had talked about this with Mirabel before, when the magic first started fading, but it was still something that she had to accept about herself. ]

I thought...that if I couldn't do everything that everyone asked of me...then it meant I wasn't good enough. That I wasn't worthy of my gift.

[nonmagical]

[They did talk about this, but it still bears repeating:]

You're always gonna be enough, Luisa. I hope you never have to feel that way again.

[neverbreaks]

[ With a small smile, she nods. ] We'll see. It...It'll still take some time, I think.

[ To really believe it. After all, Mirabel wasn't the only one who had things to work through. ]

But I'm glad to have such an awesome younger sister to help remind me when I have trouble remembering.

[nonmagical]

[They all have their personal battles, but...]

I'll remind you every step of the way. Constantly. I'll nag you death until you remember it.

[She gives her sister a nudge.]

I think we're gonna be okay. It's gonna take a lot of work for us, but... I think we'll be okay.

[neverbreaks]

[ She laughs again, jostling her sister a bit before pulling her closer. ]

I know you will. You, and pretty much everyone in the family, I think.

[ Just like she'll constantly remind Mirabel how special and loved she is, or the two of them reminding the rest of their family how amazing they all were too.

There was a lot that their family needed. But that's okay, but they would get through it all with each other. ]

Yeah. I think we will be too.