tfln

[shootstars]

you know.

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cassian andor || rogue one || ota

[rebellionbuilt]

1: By the way, we totally deserve 'we survived' sex.

2: Id like to submit an apology whenever you feel like talking.

3: but there is something about the way you look at me that says "i want to do dirty dirty things with you." I have no choice but to oblige.

4: Never in my life have I been as excited to nap as I am right now.

5: Run that by me again? You're 'so horny that you're legitimately concerned for my safety when you see me tonight'?

6: [bring your own text]

1+5

[flyboytwopointoh]

[ooc: I am having a legitimately hard time choosing. So yeah.]

Look Cassian.

If one of us doesn't grab a ship and get us off this planet and to a deserted area to have loud sex. I might do something drastic.

[rebellionbuilt]

[ooc: Haha, that's valid. I always welcome mix-and-match options!]

Hypothetically speaking, how drastic is drastic?

[flyboytwopointoh]

One more skivving meeting.

[rebellionbuilt]

U-Wing's in dry dock for repairs. Got an alternate suggestion?

[flyboytwopointoh]

I'm tempted to steal the Falcon.

[rebellionbuilt]

Could do that. Are you looking for a little bit of a vacation or just to take the edge off? We could just get into atmo, turn the comms off, and nobody would hear a thing.

[flyboytwopointoh]

Yes.

[rebellionbuilt]

Tell me when.

[flyboytwopointoh]

Now?

[rebellionbuilt]

On my way.

[flyboytwopointoh]

Just come straight to the Falcon.

[rebellionbuilt]

Trust me, nobody's getting in my way.

[flyboytwopointoh]

We really need to get our own ship...

[rebellionbuilt]

That we do. Something all our own.

[flyboytwopointoh]

My chest has been hurting. It's definitely time for a vacation.

[Where he got shot, where he nearly died.]

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[open_rebellion]

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OUCH

[rebellionbuilt]

Okay.

When you're ready, I'll be here.

lmao idk what you did Cassian but damn

[open_rebellion]

[It's not terribly long before she answers, but long enough that he might have started working on something else. Finally Jyn feels like she can answer him without it being just her screaming incoherently at her datapad.]

I'm listening.

idk either but gonna WING IT

[rebellionbuilt]

[It's not terribly long before Jyn answers, but for Cassian, it feels like a lifetime. He is seeing to the tedious chore of paperwork, but it's easy enough to put it on hold in order to speak with Jyn and try to explain why he's done what he's done that's upset her so badly.]

I didn't recommend you for the mission to the Doran System. But I didn't do it because I don't think you're capable. I know better than most just how competent you are.

I did it because I'm selfish. The Hutts are dangerous - I know you know what they do to their captives. I know you know that the majority of them don't come back.

I can't take the risk of sending you there without going along to watch your back. I can't run the risk of losing you like that.

Call me a coward. Be angry with me all you want. I don't regret my decision. But please don't think that I believe that you're somehow less than.

[open_rebellion]

[She knew it had to be something like that -- or what she'd wanted to believe. It's a little harder to remain angry when it's confirmed for her, not impossible. At least it wasn't something she could have controlled, not really, because Cassian is still going to do what he feels like he has to do.]

So you're sorry but not sorry? Hell of an apology.

I know why you did it. I'm trying not to be angry about it but these are not choices you get to make for me. Not as a man, do you understand?

If it was our best shot at getting what we needed, that's how it should have happened. If someone else was a better choice, then fine. But I don't get to stay on base twiddling my thumbs because you want me safe.

[rebellionbuilt]

[Cassian would have been livid if the same thing had happened to him - and he realized that that made him a hypocrite, even though at the time, he had felt that he had done the right thing (for him, not necessarily for Jyn). That didn't mean that he didn't feel guilty, too, that he didn't want to find a way to atone for the sin that he had committed.]

I am sorry.

It was not my place and I should never have intervened. The last thing I want is to take away your agency, and I did just that. I didn't think - I acted. The action I took was wrong.

I can't take it back now, Jyn, and I don't know that I would if I could. That's me being selfish again. But what I can do is make a promise never to stand in your way again from this moment on.

You don't need to forgive me if you can't right now. I understand and accept that. I suppose I just needed you to know why I did what I did, and to know that it won't happen again.

I'll keep my distance until you tell me otherwise.

Goodnight.

[open_rebellion]

Good night.

[She almost wishes that he didn't know what he was doing and that she could have stayed angry a little longer. But it's no use, and she doesn't really want to. Around here, there's no time to stay angry.

It's not even the whole day before she finds him, the afternoon mostly gone. And normally approaching him from behind is a risk, but she takes it anyway, putting her arms around him and murmuring into his back.]

I forgive you.

[rebellionbuilt]

[Cassian wouldn't hold anything against Jyn if she doesn't forgive him quickly. He's committed a terrible sin against her, after all. His guilt sits heavily in the pit of his belly, but he stays true to his word and doesn't seek Jyn out. He throws himself into other work - the tedious job of writing reports and seeking provisions.

When she finds him, he's on his datapad doing just that, his shoulders and back tight with tension. There's a moment that he stiffens as she curls her arms around him, but he soon takes a breath and relaxes. Nobody else would dare approach him in such a way, and he offers no hesitation before instinctively brushing his thumb against her hand.

He doesn't think he deserves the forgiveness, at least not so soon, but - ]

Thank you.

[open_rebellion]

[Deserves? Maybe not. But just not seeing him all day has driven her mad. Maybe no less than a dozen times there were little thoughts that flitted into her mind, but because they weren't speaking, there was no one to tell them to. No one to laugh at her or with her, remind her to be patient (which had never been a virtue of hers).

Missing someone sucks. Missing them when they're right there is pointless.]

You won't do it again.

[Half an explanation, half a question, although she already knows he won't.]