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that awkward meme;
Congratulations, your character's shame is now a spectator sport.
RULES:
o1. Post your character ( name | series | any preferences ).
o2. Characters tagging in:
o3. The character setting up the scene can be either the cause, or the
That awkward moment when...
o1. You're trying to slink away with your partner’s valuables after a one night stand only to wake them up in the process.
o2. You send a message with your confession, raaage, embarrassing questions or compromising pictures to the wrong person.
o3. You forgot about a birthday or anniversary and now have to pitch a cheap gift bought in five minutes off the nearest 7/11 as a symbolic expression of your feelings.
o4. You lost your wallet and have to charm a perfect stranger into paying your tab.
o5. You spill your wine on the event special guest half an hour before they're due giving their speech.
o6. You need to get rid of your date/groupie/coworker to assume your superhero identity and go save the day in the nearby building.
o7. You can’t stop hiccuping during someone's heartfelt confession of undying affection.
o8. You kidnapped the wrong person.
o9. You have to get your very drunk friend out of a public place fast, and they're not exactly cooperating.
10. You blame grave illness to cancel on meeting someone, only to run into them an hour later.
11. You slip
12. You get matched on a blind date with someone who dumped you. Twice.
13. You call out the wrong name when things get hot and heavy.
14. You have to prod this person whether they like-like your friend without outright saying it, because said friend is apparently
15. You run into someone after choosing your clothing or doing your make up during a blackout.
16. You have to ask a favour of someone you publicly lambasted twenty minutes ago.
17. You wake up to find someone's been watching you sleep.
18. You answer the door in your lingerie to surprise your special other, only to find it’s not them calling.
19. You try the polite greeting your friends taught you in a different language, only to find out it’s actually a grave insult or a hilarious proposal.
20. You accidentally walk into someone showering, singing aloud, enjoying their personal time or anything else you feel like putting together.
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"Nat," he said, his voice low and urgent. "Look at me, you're going to be all right. You hear me?" The words caught in his throat as he moved with one hand to apply pressure to the wound and tried to support her neck with his other hand.
"Agent down," he called into the comm. "North entrance."
Stevenson kneeled beside him, opened his mouth and Clint grabbed him by the tie and slammed his head down into a railing. Stevenson slumped sideways against it.
He looked back down at Natasha, his face falling with worry. "Nat, stay with me." He held her a little closer, feeling her blood trickle through his fingers. "It's going to be all right."
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Groping weakly at Clint’s arm when he knocked Stevenson out, she shook her head minutely, the movement barely perceptible.
“Don’t... kill him,” she choked out, wheezing. Her entire chest ached, inside and out. “If anyone does... should be... me.” She tried to smile, but another wave of pain washed over her and she grimaced instead, closing her eyes tightly.
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"You got it," he said, his voice gruff. He bent over her as people rushed around them, trying to save themselves from the SHIELD raid that was currently taking place. He pressed his forehead to hers lightly.
"Hey, this ain't got nothin' on Budapest," he whispered. "You remember?"
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“Tell me,” she murmured, but even that seemed too much. Turning her head to the side she coughed again, blood spattering the floor. Of course she remembered, but she wanted him to keep talking so she could focus on his voice until the medics arrived. She couldn’t say much herself but she could still listen and his voice was familiar, a comfort, and the one she always wanted to hear when things went bad.
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His thumb stroked her cheek softly. "And I got hit and pretty much thought I was going to bleed out before anyone got to us and what'd you say?" A smile appeared on his lips. "We had nothing to lose. It was in Russian. We die alone, we fight together."
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She tried to speak, tried to say that that must mean she wasn’t going to die because he was with her, but coughing wracked her body again only this time she couldn’t stop so easily. Clutching at her chest, at any part of Clint that she could grab, she tried to roll to her side, tried to curl up in a ball. All she could taste was blood, all she could see was red, red that was steadily getting darker.
She heard the medics approaching, heard voices talking around her but she couldn’t understand any of them, couldn’t pick out Clint’s voice among them, couldn’t concentrate, couldn’t breathe, couldn’t see anything but red, red getting darker...
...darker...
...darker...
...black.
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She coughed and turned towards him and he held her until fingers were trying to pry him back so that they could get a her. He looked around wildly, not really seeing anything or anyone in the crowd of people around them, until he caught a familiar face. He froze as Phil Coulson smiled back at him. Phil gave him a small nod and somehow Clint knew it was okay to let go. He loosened his grip on Natasha and before he knew what had happened, Hill was pulling him to his feet and the medics were moving Natasha out.
The next twelve hours were hell. Maria ordered him to stay away from the medical bay and even further away from the detention cell that housed Stevenson. He was taken to a conference room for debriefing, Natasha's blood drying on and stiffening his shirt as he explained his foolish mistake and how things had escalated from there. Ordinarily he might have tried some tact, or at least tried not to paint himself in such a bad light, but he couldn't be bothered to now.
An hour in, Steve showed up and didn't leave. Though the super soldier was obviously concerned and asked him to retell the events, Clint knew he was there to make sure the Clint obeyed his orders. Clint spent the next four hours in the room with Steve. Most of it spent pacing and telling Steve about past missions. Past missions when one or both of them had gotten hurt and how they'd taken care of one another.
Six hours in, Clint was exhausted and reaching the end of his rope. He wasn't entirely convinced that Steve would really stop him if he tried to get to Natasha. In fact, he was almost convinced he would help him, but his plans of escape were cut short when Maria entered the room and told him that Natasha was in recovery. They'd lost her once, but she'd come back. Clint didn't wait for permission before he was tearing down the hallway.
It wasn't the first time he'd seen her in a hospital bed and he doubted it would be the last, but it still shook him to his core. Her vibrant red hair stood out against the pillow as he sank into a chair beside her.
He didn't move for another six hours. He slept, he kept watch and he waited.
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When she finally awoke again the first thing she noticed was the constant beeping noise of the heart monitor; secondly was the tube in her nose that was assisting her breathing; and third was the warm pressure in her right hand. She didn’t panic, this had not been the first time after all, but it had certainly been the worst. Her memory was fuzzy yet but she knew where she was, recognized the sounds of the hospital equipment; she could fill in the rest later.
Her eyes felt heavy, the lids weighed down, but she slowly cracked them open and peered out through her lashes. Clint sat in a chair beside her bed, slumped forward with his head resting on the mattress and her hand in his, and he appeared to be asleep. Natasha said nothing and did very little; she just gave his hand a firm squeeze.
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His fingers squeezed hers back this time, firm but gentle as he straightened up, feeling the beginnings of a crick in his neck. Still, in order to rub at it, he'd have to let go of her hand and that wasn't happening.
"About time," he said, his voice rough with sleep. His eyes moved over her face, trying to gauge how much pain she was in. She still looked ghostly pale, but he could tell that there was a little more color there than there had been before.
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“You... look like hell,” she croaked out, her voice a scratchy whisper. Swallowing, she took a deep breath and winced, her eyes going shut again. She’d been through some bad scrapes but this was definitely among the worst ones. “The mission... we salvage... anything?” Their original mission had been blown the second Clint took the wrong mark, but in doing so they had stumbled upon something much bigger. Then, of course, it had all gone to hell but maybe some good had still come out of it.
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"You want some water?" He moved to pour her some. He paused at the mention of the mission. Leave it to Tasha to have one thing on her mind. "We got Stevenson," he said, his tone darkening. 'Not to mention a couple of Interpol's most wanted. Not bad, all things considering.'
He stuck a straw in the cup and moved it close enough so that she could take a sip. "Looks like we're both going to be sitting out on missions for a little while."
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“Good,” she said, taking a sip of the water when he held the straw near her lips. She didn’t try to take it for herself, just let him help her; he was one of the few she would let do so.
She was pleased the entire ordeal hadn’t been for nothing though she knew there would be reprimands waiting. Still, as Clint said, all things considered it hadn’t turned out bad.
“What they give you?” she asked, laying her head back on the pillow after taking a drink. Clearly her reasons for being out of commission for a while were obvious.
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The fact that she isn't seems to put the whole situation in a sharper light. It is what it is. If she's being honest with him, the least he can do is be honest in return.
"Not sure yet," he says, meeting her eyes. "I've already given my debriefing and I think Hill said something about a review for discipline." He gave a small shrug. It wasn't good, but it could've been worse. "Doesn't take a mind reader to know they're not happy."
Now it's her turn. He nods towards her. "How's your pain? You need more meds?"
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“The tag could have been clearer,” she said. She didn’t elaborate; she didn’t need to. It was enough to make it clear that she wouldn’t hang him out to dry, that part of the blame for the botched mission was on her.
“I’m okay,” Natasha replied. She took short breaths as anything too deep hurt, and she was sure there had been more bullets but she couldn’t quite tell without looking. The must have been superficial compared to the one that had caught her lung. “What did the doctors say?”
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"I got it wrong," he says firmly, leveling a serious look at her. "I'll take full responsibility."
He leaned closer to the bed, his hand brushing over her blanketed knee and resting there.
"They said you were lucky. It... was bad for a while there." For a second, the appearance of having everything together slips and he tightens his hand on her knee. "Don't do that to me again."
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Raising her head from the pillow she weakly lifted her arm and pulled at the neck of the hospital shirt she wore, trying to peer down the front at the bandages beneath. She stopped when she felt Clint squeeze her knee and heard the emotion in his voice. “No promises,” she said, because there never could be in their line of work, but she offered him a small, almost teasing smile to accompany the words. Dropping her shirt she held her hand out to him, beckoning him closer. “They say how long I’ll be stuck in here?”
Lucky. She could feel that that was true and in some ways it was frightening, that she had come so close to death without even realising it, but not for the reasons one would expect. She had been prepared to fight for life at all costs from a young age, but she had also grown to accept death as well, and when Clint had first come after her, when he had been sent to kill her, she almost welcomed the release. Not anymore, though. She wasn’t afraid of death, but she wanted to live, not because of some survival instinct, but because she wanted to live and finally had something worth living for.
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"It might be a while," he said. "Once they get you stable, you're supposed to get some rest." His mouth turned up the tiniest bit. "If that's even possible for you."
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Squeezing his hand in hers, she could see the exhaustion written all over him. It was in his voice, his expression, his very stance. He probably hadn’t left her side since she went unconscious.
“Anything is possible,” she said, one corner of her lips curling up slightly. “Probable, though...”
Maybe now he could rest, not just his body but his mind; now that he saw her awake, heard that she sounded like herself, that she could still berate him or tease him, whatever was required. She wished she could take all of his guilt away but she hoped that this at least would be enough to alleviate it somewhat.
“Well, if I’m going to be here a while why don’t you go get some rest? You really do look like hell.”
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Still he squeezed her hand lightly. "Besides, I plan to. I'm pretty sure I could sleep for a week after this." He paused, letting go of her hand and leaning back into the chair. He crossed his arms. "And I will. Just right here."
He met her eyes. "I'm not going anywhere. Not yet."
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At least Clint didi claim that he planned to sleep and Natasha assumed he was just waiting for her to do so first. Silly assumption. Her brows lowered as he continued, claiming he planned to stay and just sleep in the chair, even crossing his arms in a stubborn manner as if daring her to argue. She searched his eyes and knew that protesting would be a waste of much needed energy. For what felt like a long while she held his gaze but he didn’t budge, and eventually she sighed and closed her eyes.
“Well if you’re going to sleep there you might as well sleep here,” she said, patting the small bit of mattress beside her as she opened her eyes to meet his again. They took care of each other, that’s what they did, and just because she was the injured one didn’t mean he didn’t need a little care as well.
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She gave him that unwavering look, the one that seemed like it should have the ability to turn a man to stone, but he was standing firm on this one. He wasn't leaving her side. Not yet. Maybe not for a while.
His brow furrowed slightly as he looked back at her, studying her face to make sure that was what she really wanted. Natasha was many things, but placating wasn't one of them. After a moment he pushed himself to his feet and moved towards the bed. He was careful not to shift things too much as he eased in beside her, his head pillowed on his arm as he laid on his side.
"This better not be any pity sleep," he said, his voice a little gruffer than normal, though there was the ghost of a smile on his lips.
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He didn’t seem to believe her offer first, seemed to be looking for another motive behind it before he finally gave in, knowing just as well as she had that there was no point in arguing; he wasn’t going to leave her alone and she wasn’t going to leave him to sleep in the chair. Fair is fair.
She didn’t try to move over to give him more room, knowing it would hurt and he would only stop her. Rolling her head to the side so she could look at him she smiled faintly at his words. “More like a mercy sleep,” she said. “I know how you get when you’re overtired so I thought I’d do a public service and save everyone else from having to put up with that.”
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The tightness had been all that had been holding him together as he'd answered questions and waited for news. They'd been through this before. It wasn't the first time or the last that one of them would be wounded on the job, but he'd been directly responsible this time. It was something he wasn't going to be letting himself off the hook for any time soon.
"That code box better be worth it," Clint murmured, sighing softly. "That's all I've got to say."
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“Even if it’s not, what other option did we have? We couldn’t have just let it got,” she said evenly. Clasping his hand she threaded her fingers through his. “We did what we could on short notice and with minimal planning.”
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The thing about Natasha was that she didn't hold any punches. If she thought he was to blame for this, she would say so, even if she tried to let him down easy while she did it.
But there's no trace of that as she looks back at him. He squeezes her fingers lightly.
"Yeah, I guess we did."
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