bakerstreet | Sexting

I... wouldn't call this the ideal platform for it, no... Just FYI.

[ Foggy's still a little quiet on his end. ]

Well... Why don't you start by explaining your end, then?

[ He swallows and takes a couple breaths. He's really going to talk about this huh? ]

This is going to sound pretty pathetic and a little cheesy, pretty sure.

[ His breath shakes with soft laughter. ]

I uh... I guess you could say I've had feelings for you for years now. I just didn't understand them. I had never had a best friend before. I thought that whatever I was feeling was a part of that. Of course there were moments I questioned the idea but we were so good the way that we were and the timing wasn't always optimal. One or both of us would be seeing someone right when I started to understand it. And I had trouble even considering that I might not be as... straight as I thought I was.

With time it just became this routine.

[ Honestly, Foggy wasn't sure how to take Matt's admission. After all, he'd counted him as a friend, and secretly, even a protector, as odd as it was for him to reconcile. Knowing that Matt was out there, somewhere, keeping their neighborhood safe was enough for him to look to him for a source of strength and inspiration.

Yeah, it was weird for him to get over.

Still, a brief silence followed Matt's confession. Leave it to the Catholic to be good at that shit. ]

Look, Matt, if you're telling me your Bisexual or pansexual, or whatever, you know I don't care, right? I just... I want you to be you. I want you to be happy and safe. That's all I've ever wanted for you. Yeah, sure, maybe it's because I feel.. I dunno, responsible for you or whatever?

Spoilers: Yeah, part of me is still trying to deal with you being the Daredevil.

[ He sighs. ]

I have seen you over the years date so many women. So, so many incredibly attractive women. I thought it was witchcraft or something for a while. Some crazy witchcraft of genetics or something that you managed to get the hottest girls and look as good as you do... But.. thinking back, it's hard to tell which party I was jealous of.

[ He nods his head even without Foggy there to see and murmurs in reply to his mention of Daredevil, "I know."

He has to take a deep breath to handle the mix of emotions that hit him when Foggy admits his jealousy. ]

Foggy, there was always a reason I didn't get along with most of the people you dated. I think we both chalked it up to being protective of a friend but I've been jealous too.

You make me happy, Foggy. And yes, you even make me feel safe. More than anyone else. I'm just- I'm not very good at this.

[ He huffs a bitter laugh at himself. ]

You're joking, right?

[ There's a small laugh from Foggy's end of the line. ]

You've gotta be the most charming, charismatic asshole I know. Yeah, I'm including Hogarth in that. I mean, come on, man. You can't tell me you've ever gone to a bar and not felt someone looking at you.

[ From Foggy's end, there's a little grumbling as he tries to piece some words and thoughts together. ]

I just.. I wanna be clear. Are you trying to tell me you've got feelings for me, Matt?

[ Matt laughs with him, thankful for the chance to break some of the heavy tension packed into this phone call. ]

I'm not- I'm not joking!

[ He insists between laughs. ]

Yes I've been jealous over you. Yes, I've felt people look at me before. It's... It's not the flirting I struggle with, it's... Being completely open and relaxed.

[ He's not sure if that makes any sense but at least he said that much. ]

Yes, Foggy. I'm saying I'm in- I'm saying I have feelings for you.

[ Foggy supposes that there's few people Matt's been able to be completely honest and open with, especially concerning his night life... still, there's some awkwardness about it. ]

Well..

All right then.

[ There's a heavy sigh on Foggy's end. It feels like he's gotten over a particularly large hurdle. ]

Look, I'm gonna be honest... I never... I've never thought of you like that. Never really occurred to me. Always kinda thought I was just jealous that you were so handsome and super ripped, you know? And being an actual good person was nice too... I wanted to be you, Matt.

[ A pause. ]

But now... I'm not sure if I wanna be you or just... Be near you. You have such a good aura or something about you that just infects other people and makes them wanna be as good as you.

And yeah, you're totally hot but, like... Come on, man. Consider the women you've dated and, I know it's been a while, but consider me, too. I need to hit the gym. I'm soft, doughy, I can't take a punch.

You sure you'd ever wanna be with a guy like me?

[ Maybe he'll clarify what he mean by completely open, that it's more than telling someone his secret identity. Not until a later time though.

It feels like Foggy's words jerk him suddenly in three different directions. His mouth opens and closes more than once before it's his turn to talk. ]

Yes!

Foggy what- Foggy you're amazing. Anyone would be lucky to be with you!

[ Maybe it's his own self-confidence, or maybe he's just having a hard time believing Matt, but it's hard for Foggy to take what Matt has to say to heart, even if it is nice to hear. ]

Well, yeah, but at the same time, I mean, come on, man. I'm not usually anyone's first pick at the dance.

[ Another beat. ]

You ever been with another guy, anyway? I thought that was like, a huge deal in Catholicism.

[ Matt frowns, surprised by exactly how much Foggy's disbelief hurts, a literal ache in his chest like ice forming just under his skin. ]

I don't- I don't think that God hates gays. ...No I've never been with another guy. I wasn't sure I wanted to until you.

[ He has asked questions anonymously on a message board and done some research on these things if that counts for anything...? He gets the distinct impression his coming out story is not going to be the type of inspirational material people will want to read. ]

You really don't think someone like me would be interested in you? Fog, you talk about me being impressive but you're the one that leaves me in awe all the time.

[ There's a moment of silence from Foggy's end. Again. He's having trouble trying to sort and file all of this new information that Matt's giving him. More importantly, he's trying to figure out what to do with the flattery Matt is piling into his arms. He's grateful that Matt can't see him, or the shade of red he's turning. ]

Come on, man. You don't have to say stuff like that if you're trying to make me feel better..

I'm not-

[ Is there a way to say this that Foggy would believe? Would he believe it back before he knew everything? he can't help wondering. Words, words. It's hard to think of any when it feels like he's starting to choke on frustration and other emotions. ]

I'm not saying any of this out of pity, Foggy. It's the truth.

I thought telling you would be better than keeping another secret.

[ That and he might have been internally screaming every time Marci's name was spoken recently. He's trying to do better. He's trying to tackle this before it backfires. This was not one of the ways he imagined it would go. ]

[ Honestly, he's not sure what to think. Sure, Matt's words were nice, and the definitely fed his ego, but despite his confidence in his abilities, his looks were always something of a sore spot... though with Matt mostly blind, he knew it had little to do with pity.

But tell that to his ego. ]

You do keep a lot of secrets. But you did send me nice photos. Wish I could reciprocate.

Still, what do you wanna do about this?

[ Matt completely fails to hide the sigh of relief that follows Foggy's words. His tone still has a nervous questioning hint to it but his voice is a little lighter now that he's smiling. ]

I'm glad you liked them. That's um... That's a great reciprocation on its own.

If you're interested maybe we could try to figure this out together. On a date.

[ God, he hasn't felt this on edge asking someone out since he was in his teens. ]

Sexting

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damn are threads allowed to be this serious on the sexting meme?

I mean, there's no rule against it??

we do what we want

fuck da rules!!!!

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ohay it's a super late tag.

never too late. these special avocados do not turn brown

blessed avocados

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