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bakerstreet2018-02-28 07:41 pm
buckingham) wrote in bakerstreet2018-02-28 07:41 pm
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Never love a wild thing.
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| When you think about it, things like “humanity” and “personhood” are really just points of view. So what if your body or your abilities don't exactly match up to the Homo Sapiens norm? That doesn't defy your sentiency nor your agency. Does your body, similar or not so similar to humans, negate your thoughts? Your will? Your feelings? ...your feelings for someone else? Ah, that might be the catch. The person is a friend, a teammate, or even someone admired from far away. You're conflicted over them. You may even love them. The problem is, of course, not that they don't see you in that way in return. Well, part of it might be, but the biggest part as they don't even see you as human enough to consider in a romantic way. They could be friendly, kind, indifferent, or, worst of all, treat you like a pet. Perhaps they know about you having a different form, if you do have one, perhaps not. The pain comes from the fact that you don't even register. What will you do? Pretend you feel nothing at all? Try to get them to notice you? Stop being foolish? Just because you're not human doesn't mean you don't have a heart to break. Choose carefully.
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Shoshosu Shosu| Final Fantasy 14 Adventurer| OTA
Prompto Argentum | Final Fantasy XV | OTA
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[No problem! Sounds like fun!]
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[Hello I am a complete failure. I'm happy to write a starter up I just wanted to check if you still wanted to do this? I know it's been a while]
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[excellent <3 I'm not too up on all the ff universes shamefully, are you cool with sticking with vaguely canon merging sort of setting like they're different countries/worlds (a little kingdom hearts) and these two just happened to have met somewhere in the middle? Assumed cr to begin work with you so we can get to the good angsty stuff? XD]
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[Friendly but aloof works for me just fine, the fun part is getting closer XD Let me know if you need anything changed]
Prompto was the type of person to keep himself busy, he was always conveniently handy whenever somebody needed him, most people assumed he was just helpful and happened to be around a lot, very few people realised he made himself deliberately available. He liked feeling needed, feeling wanted, and he'd much rather feel useful to somebody than sit at home alone, staring at the same four walls of his empty apartment.
It did mean that he was often pretty tired by the end of the day, so when friends dragged him to the local bar in the evening he was too desperate for approval to say no, but his cheer and enthusiasm was more than a little forced. For once he was actually okay when attention fell away from him and he had a moment to catch a breather - until he spotted Kuja sat nearby. There was something about Kuja that drew Prompto, so much that remained hidden that he was so interested to find out, and if he was being entirely honest, there was something pretty attractive about him as well.
The smile he gave the other man was tired when he slid into the seat next to him with a gentle "Hey," but it was no less full of sunshine for its weariness.
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Kuja was at a booth by himself, long legs taking up most of the space under the table as he worked on his phone, face blank with focus. He could have gone someplace more suitable for working, but Kuja was as susceptible to boredom with the same walls, so he liked to change locales from time to time. A bar meant a cozy level of ambiance and the potential to break off to chat with pleasant company, such as the young man who greeted him with a bright smile.
Prompto didn't seem like anything special at first, but as they had made an acquaintance Kuja found himself entertaining Prompto more and more often. The two frequented the same neighborhood, and Kuja knew just how to feed Prompto's obvious need for attention without making it seem like he was doing a favor. Honestly, part of Kuja's interest was pure ego, liking to see the impact his attention could make on the young man, how Prompto flowered under his regard, but... There was that disposition. So persistently optimistic and cheerful that Kuja couldn't help but smile under that radiance. That reminded him of a certain other blonde, but Prompto managed to amuse Kuja rather than irritate him.
So with a button press Kuja put away his phone, turning toward Prompto. "Fancy seeing you! How is the day treating you, Prompto?"
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"Not bad," Prompto shrugged off the query with casual ease, used to keeping other people the focus of the conversation - he worried that if he talked about himself beyond the superficial people would lose interest. That, or learn things he didn't want them to know. Better to keep his attention on whoever he was speaking to.
"Hope I'm not interrupting anything," he nodded towards the phone, while he was glad to spend time with Kuja he didn't want to be a nuisance.
orz sorry it was one thing after another this month
"Oh not at all, just balancing the books after my daytrading."
Even with forged papers, Kuja preferred to keep a low profile within Lucis. A sudden ascendency or string of good luck might bring undue attention too quickly, so he needed to establish himself as a resident for a year or two first. Creating a paper trail was all well and good but Kuja also needed to be known within the community, another reason he liked to socialize with locals like Prompto. Who wasn't the most subtle deflector Kuja dealt with, but that suited him. Kuja did like to talk, after all.
"But my business can wait on my pleasure. Can I get you a drink?"
No worries!
"If you're sure.." his tone was a little reluctant, wanting to make sure Kuja wasn't just being polite, but he was also obviously struggling to hide how pleased he was.
"Oh, no, let me buy you a drink, I'm the one interrupting after all," however much he was reassured it wasn't the case, Prompto couldn't help feeling a little like he was intruding on most things.
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Kuja was always polite, but he enjoyed seeing Prompto brighten up as he realized he was wanted. So easily Kuja could insist, seeing how long they could bat etiquette between them like a shuttlecock. Another time, perhaps.
"Well, why not? I have something worth celebrating: I got accepted into university!"
That was true, but Kuja used it like a lie, a handy excuse for Prompto to buy him a drink other than Prompto's accommodating nature.
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"That's great!" Prompto beamed cheerfully, pleased for his friend "one celebratory drink coming up then!"
He was quick to establish what Kuja wanted and run to the bar, returning shortly with drinks in hand. He took a seat opposite the other man and held up his own drink in a toast.
"Here's to university admissions people realising what everybody else already knows; that you're way smarter than everyone else and definitely should be allowed into any university you want."
orz this hasn't been my month
Because of his size, Kuja didn't intoxicate easily, so he usually chose drinks based on taste rather than strength. Since he didn't want to burden Prompto with a top shelf choice, he accepted a sour cocktail to raise and clink against Prompto's drink.
"Here's to the candied tongue that would sugar o'er the devil himself." he paraphrased. Kuja preened under the praise, but more for its sincerity than the content. How little Prompto could guess the depths of that toast.
"Soon I'll have to divide my time between work and study like so many others, but in truth, I relish the challenge."
it's okay hon I know the feel
Blushing faintly, Prompto scoffed, taking a sip of his own drink after the toast and shrugging.
"Hey, I just speak the truth," he said, tone a little teasing. He nodded sympathetically at the comment about balancing work and school, he know how difficult that could be - he'd struggled with something similar between work, high school and training when he was younger, but he had faith in his friend.
"You'll smash it, I know you will."
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"One pleasing to hear, then. You have a talent for positivity, my friend."
Motivated not by mere sycophant ambitions, but just to make others feel good. A desire to be needed? A discomfort with negativity? Could be those, and others. Prompto seemed like an open book but everyone had secrets, if only from themselves.
"What about you? What have you been up to lately?"
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