the betrayal/redemption meme

[earthking]

BETRAYAL MEME

You have done something unspeakable to the people closest to you. How did this come to be, and how will you make amends?


Instructions

Post with your character with their name, series, and whether you're the betrayer, the betrayed, or simply leave it blank! Then, either make up your own scenario to your liking, or use our prompts (RNG totally optional) and go wild!

(Example: for organization's sake, denote b3+2 where you killed someone and are trying to hide it or r5+3 for a situation where you side-hopped and now want nothing more than to make things right, so that people know at a glance whether you're betraying or being redeemed and what you did.)

betrayal; you've turned your back on everything you once stood for

1) you're innocent. it's not your fault, but they can never know. maybe you're protecting someone. maybe you're being blackmailed. whatever the case, it's your dark secret.
2) you're hiding. you've done something terrible, but no one knows it yet. how far will you go to bury what you've done for good?
3) you're uncertain. everything is in place now, but nothing's been set into motion yet. maybe it's not too late to turn back. or is it?
4) you're slipping. you thought you could change. maybe for a while you even managed to. but now you find yourself falling back to your old ways, and everyone around you is at risk.
5) you're reacting. they betrayed you first. you're not in the wrong. they deserve this. they brought this upon themselves. you're not really betraying anyone if they pushed first.

redemption; you've done something that can never be forgiven

1) you're trapped. they caught you red-handed, or maybe you turned yourself in. now those you betrayed are free to face you one by one and have their revenge.
2) you're false. this whole betrayal thing isn't working out quite the way you'd hoped. maybe if you play your cards just right, you'll be able to get your old life back.
3) you're selfless. whatever forced your hand to begin with doesn't matter anymore. you'll destroy yourself and play the role of a villain to the very end if that is what it takes to make things right.
4) you're lost. what you did was wrong, and you know that now. you can never be sorry enough, and you've lost your way. all you want to do is find home. won't anyone out there show you the way?
5) you're tortured. you have to make amends for what you've done. you have to. the thought consumes you, possesses you. you have to find them, help them. but after what you've done, will they even want to see you again?

what you've done;

1) you sold them out
2) you killed
3) you joined the other side
4) you stole
5) you lied
6) you simply are. you were never 'good' to begin with.

Comments

[liugan]

[ He nearly flinches as the cube suddenly thuds into the ground a few steps away. Loki is confused; wasn't that what Eliot wanted from him all this time? So why was he throwing it away?

Surely he wasn't giving it back to him. He just happened to throw it in his direction.

He stops just for a moment, hesitating in confusion, but before he can take another step Eliot is shouting behind him. It ... wasn't what he wanted? Then why-- and then he is grabbed, turned around, and it's all Loki can do to shut his eyes tight and turn his head away, refusing to look into the eyes of the man who had hurt him so deeply.

He doesn't want to listen to him ... but his words sound so convincing. But were they truths? ]

Eliot ...

No, you-- you went into this to hurt me, you didn't care about me at all. It doesn't matter if you changed your mind now, you still ... you made me feel like nothing more than a casualty in your little treasure hunt.

[ Then he finally does look up, tears steadily falling. ]

How do I know I can trust you now?

[little_miss_snarker]

More like an even greater achievement if anyone but him can understand his wiki logic.

[golden_retriever]

[Eliot was ashamed like he never was before. Because it was true, he had started off with the intention that Loki's feelings would be no more than casualty for the purpose of getting near the god for his job. But then his own feelings got involved and things changed.

If he hadn't been though, if his own emotions hadn't overruled his lack of morality... Eliot's self-loathing rose up to choke him like bile in the back of his throat.]

You... You can't. [He answered truthfully even as he raised his arms up to embrace the man he hurt. He held onto the god for as long as the other would let him, one hand raising to comb through those messy strands and press Loki's head to his shoulder.]

I've done nothing to earn your trust... I know that. [His voice, emotional logged, whispered by Loki's ear.] But I want to. I know I don't deserve it... but I want to prove myself again if you'll let me.

[He bowed his head and touched its side lightly against Loki's. His whole body was tensed as if waiting for another much deserved blow.] I'm sorry.

you're too nice to me. D:

[botmaster]

[He can see his AR's chat log blinking in the corner of his glasses, but he doesn't care. He doesn't want to hear what sort of back-handed shit a separate version of himself wants to spew out at him over what he's seeing, what they're both seeing, because that would mean this was real.

Which of course it is, but he doesn't need the reassurance.

So instead he's dropping to his knees next to Jake's body, staring for a moment in silence before leaning down and checking his pulse. He knows where Roxy is, can sense her off to the side like he trained himself to do, and he keeps that in mind as he presses his fingers into the side of Jake's neck, looking for something, anything, and finding a great big wad of nothing.

He takes another moment before leaning back, not even bothering to turn and look at her, his voice much calmer than before but laced with something else. Something unlike him.]

What did you do.

oh please. i'll play this as long as you'll have me!!

[fuckincakewake]

[ What did she do?? That should be pretty fucking obvious, right? I mean, he's kneeling at the body, he's checking him and for half of second Roxy almost hopes there will be good news. you shot him. In the chest Multiple times. You don't have to be a budding rocket scientist to know what that would do to a person, even if he wasn't a person then. He had been that thing.

Unfortunately, there's no way to explain this with the complete lack of energy Roxy's feeling, the way Dirk's voice- that tone- rips through her. The way Jake had looked so fucking confused when he died. It was like betraying somebody twice over, dealing with all this now.

When she speaks up at last, her voice is a lot quieter than usual, much less sure of herself. Maybe it sounds like a lie, or an excuse. ]

i was tryign to make him stop
i fucked it up

you're never getting rid of me, then. C:<

[botmaster]

[The sound of her voice makes it worse. It really...does. Maybe it's because it's so quiet, so...terrified. She's terrified. But she had ever right to be. Dirk felt a wave of emotion he hadn't felt in a very long time, and while he was doing his best to control it...rage could only be held back for so long. But also, maybe it's because he knows she had a perfectly good reason. Maybe it's because he knows, deep down, that something was wrong, something was going to get fucked up. But why did it have to be him? It wasn't fair. It wasn't. He didn't even get to meet him...

And there it goes again, that moment of anger, of rage, and he turns sharply. He's still kneeling, but it would only take less than half a second for him to be up and lethal and...oh god. He needs to stop because he's actually thinking about killing her when he knows that is the worst fucking idea he's had in his entire life (and he's had some bad ones). But he's not there not, not completely. He voice is a little clipped, now. A little more frantic.]

Make him stop?
Roxy, why the Jesus fuck did you kill him?
Why is he dead?

kyaaa im holding you to that

[fuckincakewake]

[ Shrinks back when Dirk turns to her. Yeah, she's scared, but she's still pretty pissed too. Sorry Strider, you didn't get to meet your boyfriend. Sorry she's ruined what could've been a perfect confession with her almost getting murdered by a fucking MONSTER. Sorry you're gay little fantasy life was disrupted by me killing one of our friends, I know that must be sooo inconvenient for you.

This is the least logical way to react to a terrible, tragic situation. But even if this session finds the kids a little older than our last, they're still kids. And that's still a dead body in the space between them. ]

because it wasnt him genius
i mean its him NOW btu
we dont haev time for this

[ Emotional breakdowns later, logic now. They need to find Jane. She'd be the next susceptible one, right? Her connection to the Batterbitch makes it plausible for.. something, what had he been saying? It was hard to listen properly when you were getting the life squeezed out of you.

Lost in this thought, Roxy- still drenched in Jake's blood- actually starts to leave. ]

[clickandshoot]

Cross my heart and hope to die. [She actually crosses her heart with her fingers as she says this! Elena doesn't take promises lightly, especially the ones of the pinky promise variety.]

Now... [She grins, ever-so-slightly attempting to lead him towards the bedroom.] I know you're super jet-lagged, but maybe we could squeeze something in before naptime?

[pratful]

[ a moment of silence

and then a sigh ]

Fine. What is it that you want? An extra advance on your salary? More chores?

What?

[destinedtobeunpopular]

I want you to tell me what's wrong. How many times have I told you that you can talk to me?

[You're not fooling him, alright.]

[liugan]

[ It's true. He can't trust Eliot. He did, he trusted him with everything, despite everyone he'd ever trusted an inch turning on him just the same way Eliot had. It was a foolish mistake he was never going to make again, though it was one he never should have made to begin with.

If he can't trust Eliot, why is he still here? Why doesn't he just leave, forget about him and move on to greater goals?

Loki stands frozen still, as Eliot's arms move around him. He does allow his head to be guided to the other's shoulder, because even though he knows he has no reason to be here anymore, he cannot deny that he longs for Eliot's touch again. The fabric of the wolf's shirt sleeve dampens with the god's tears, as he takes his time in considering everything.

Is Eliot truly sorry? Should he allow him this chance?

...

It's with great reluctance that Loki lifts his head, finally. He says nothing yet, silent as he reaches to gently pry Eliot's hands from him, and then pushing away at his chest so that he may step back. ]

I need time.

[ His voice is quiet, still shaken with soft sobs. ]

Give me time to think. When I make my decision ... if I choose to give you another chance, then I will find you. Do not search for me.

[golden_retriever]

[With similar reluctance, Eliot let the god pull away from his arms. He understood the need though and while he would rather be given an answer now, he knew this wasn't about him.

Slowly, he took a step back as if this was the first step to giving the god his space.]

Alright. [Although he wouldn't know where to look for the god anyway. In their relationship, it had always been the god finding him, never the other way round.]

I guess this is good bye. [Although the gaze he looked at Loki with added the words he didn't dare to voice: For now.]

[caliberill]

--Please don't die. [Even if it's something smile and childish almost, Nate's face flashes a sense of dread at the idea if the promise isn't kept. A nod and he follows after her, taking a step forward. A brow quirks.]

Oh? What were you thinking about, Ms. Fisher? [Teasing, you know he is!]

[pratful]

[ he shifts, looking a the ceiling, then the window, then that little speck of dirt on Merlin's cheek... ]

Do I have to? It's really not that important.

[destinedtobeunpopular]

If it's bothering you, it is important.

[pratful]

[ twitch ] Well, it's... not really anything. Just... [ yep, back to not looking at you ] Well, it's just that breakfast tasted a little off. You should have a word with the cook and let her know to pay more attention to the sausage next time.

[ sorry cook mistress! It was delicious. Really. ]

[destinedtobeunpopular]

...

[Usually he's the one who gets the crap first when he food is bad, though. And that not looking at him thing...]

Have you always been a lousy liar?

[tooclose]

Ahahaha... Well, you certainly seem to be able to, wouldn't you say~?

[little_miss_snarker]

I make really good guesses, I never said I could make sense of the wiki logic. I thought that was your job?

[tooclose]

Well, I do my best, of course... But... I suppose I make my fair share of mistakes and errors.

[little_miss_snarker]

'....no comment. Because I already no something is up so what's the point in commenting?'

So the great and powerful esper is only human, too? Should I call the evening news?

[And they get to her house so she's pulling out her keys to get the door open.]

[tooclose]

Would the evening news be interested? I don't know. After all, like so many others, they might be more interested in yourself, don't you think?

[little_miss_snarker]

'Here we go again.'

Yes, it's a great feat managing to keep Suzumiya from blowing up the world--and that's not even counting the side you guys are more involved in.

[She opens the door. Instantly, Shamisen is rubbing against her legs, purring for attention. Kyonko sighs and picks him up, skritching behind his ears affectionately despite the slightly annoyed look on her face while he purrs loudly.]

There's leftovers from last night in the fridge if you're hungry. I need to get this fuzzball fed or my brother will think I'm starving him.

[tooclose]

Oh? Which side do you mean, precisely?

[She starts rooting through the refrigerator.]

Mm... It looks good! Did you make it, by any chance?

[little_miss_snarker]

[She sets about getting the catfood and feeding Shamisen.]

The side that has more to do with the world literally blowing up, instead of metaphorically.

And, yeah, I did. Mom and Dad had late nights at their jobs again.