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he just READS the phrase 'nickel-plated' and gets hives
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operapaintingandmurder
2017-01-11 01:14 am (UTC)(link)
A lack of imagination and ability to think for oneself is the cause of a lot of life's problems. A lack of honesty being encouraged between partners surely is related to marital issues across the globe, as well. And the pressure to choose at all. Not everyone performs well under pressure.
[The next reply gives Hannibal pause. Enough that he wonders if there was an implication he missed in his own texts. He's still marveling too much at the topic, and too aware of how precarious it is, to want to push it far, but he can't help but try to clarify.]
'A relationship'? I thought you were saying you aren't interested in romantic relationships? Intensity and depth are measurements that don't need to be restrained by friendly/romantic/sexual demarcations. WE have a relationship that is non-sexual and non-romantic. Isn't that what a relationship with 'somebody else like you' would be like? Or do you mean you might be romantically interested in others as well?
[It feels nitpicky, even to himself, but it gets Hannibal wondering about the implications behind the word 'relationship', in any and all of his languages. Is him talking about romance making Neph think he wants to have sex with someone, even though he never said that? ...Does he? Does it even matter, if a very deep relationship and friendship is occasionally annotated with sexual contact?
Hannibal thinks he might be happy with or without it. Does that mean his partner will decide whether or not it includes sex? Will Hannibal have more of an opinion himself once the possibility is assured and not just theoretical - once he's actually in a romantic relationship, assuming it ever happens?
There's so much to unpack, here, things Hannibal has never bothered examining. This feels like unthreading something complex and large - carefully pulling back the sewing someone else has done, and realizing your own pattern might be completely different, that it was only ever one person's possible pattern you'd been looking at this whole time.]
I wouldn't have minded never finding anyone at all. A wider net was never my intention, but it appears to be the case.
[Hannibal can't help but pull faces when he's told he can't do things, no matter how reasonable those 'no's are. It's a long-ingrained habit.]
I'll have to speak with him about it. [ding ding ding, gendered pronoun alert] At some point. Far in the future.
Neph? Thank you for speaking with me about this.
[The next reply gives Hannibal pause. Enough that he wonders if there was an implication he missed in his own texts. He's still marveling too much at the topic, and too aware of how precarious it is, to want to push it far, but he can't help but try to clarify.]
'A relationship'? I thought you were saying you aren't interested in romantic relationships? Intensity and depth are measurements that don't need to be restrained by friendly/romantic/sexual demarcations. WE have a relationship that is non-sexual and non-romantic. Isn't that what a relationship with 'somebody else like you' would be like? Or do you mean you might be romantically interested in others as well?
[It feels nitpicky, even to himself, but it gets Hannibal wondering about the implications behind the word 'relationship', in any and all of his languages. Is him talking about romance making Neph think he wants to have sex with someone, even though he never said that? ...Does he? Does it even matter, if a very deep relationship and friendship is occasionally annotated with sexual contact?
Hannibal thinks he might be happy with or without it. Does that mean his partner will decide whether or not it includes sex? Will Hannibal have more of an opinion himself once the possibility is assured and not just theoretical - once he's actually in a romantic relationship, assuming it ever happens?
There's so much to unpack, here, things Hannibal has never bothered examining. This feels like unthreading something complex and large - carefully pulling back the sewing someone else has done, and realizing your own pattern might be completely different, that it was only ever one person's possible pattern you'd been looking at this whole time.]
I wouldn't have minded never finding anyone at all. A wider net was never my intention, but it appears to be the case.
[Hannibal can't help but pull faces when he's told he can't do things, no matter how reasonable those 'no's are. It's a long-ingrained habit.]
I'll have to speak with him about it. [ding ding ding, gendered pronoun alert] At some point. Far in the future.
Neph? Thank you for speaking with me about this.
no
it's that you lied
[ he's going to be petty about it ]
it's that you lied
[ he's going to be petty about it ]
So what are you going to do about it? Make me beg fogiveness?
god he probably has a full body allergic reaction to Claire's...
nepharious
2017-01-11 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
are you saying I can avoid the topic like i avoid all my other problems because THAT SOUNDS AMAZING. [and also: accurate! So far peacing out of those conversations has been wildly effective!
Neph gnaws at her lip, head tilting against the window. This is where it gets hard to put the right words down, an easily disturbed breadcrumb trail to the point she's trying to make.]
i don't know. i don't know what 'romance' looks like when it's not connected to the stuff i don't want. i've only ever seen it when somebody's trying to sleep with somebody else. if you take sex out of the picture what's the difference between romance and just being really good friends? no idea.
[Aside from the fact that her feelings for Hannibal are very Not, that is. Will got closest when he called them sibling-ish, although that also doesn't feel quite right.
'Married as fuck' is...the most accurate phrase she's been able to apply.]
I don't know if that's true. the doctor didn't have anybody and i always felt like he wouldve been happier if he werent alone. so i'm happy you're thinking about finding somebody.
[She's surprised to find that that's true, as she types it. If she frames this to herself as avoiding Lecter's empty house, it's suddenly MUCH easier to accept.
THERE. THERE IT IS. IS THIS AS MUCH OF A VICTORY AS IT FEELS LIKE BECAUSE HONESTLY IT'S BEEN AN UPHILL BATTLE JUST SITTING ON THIS SHIT FOR SO LONG.]
you do that! one of these Saturdays maybe, although i have very reasonable wingman rates
[She gives that a solid twenty seconds to settle, imagines his face, and only then addresses the last text:]
youre very welcome. i'm glad you told me. i'm glad you wanted to tell me.
Neph gnaws at her lip, head tilting against the window. This is where it gets hard to put the right words down, an easily disturbed breadcrumb trail to the point she's trying to make.]
i don't know. i don't know what 'romance' looks like when it's not connected to the stuff i don't want. i've only ever seen it when somebody's trying to sleep with somebody else. if you take sex out of the picture what's the difference between romance and just being really good friends? no idea.
[Aside from the fact that her feelings for Hannibal are very Not, that is. Will got closest when he called them sibling-ish, although that also doesn't feel quite right.
'Married as fuck' is...the most accurate phrase she's been able to apply.]
I don't know if that's true. the doctor didn't have anybody and i always felt like he wouldve been happier if he werent alone. so i'm happy you're thinking about finding somebody.
[She's surprised to find that that's true, as she types it. If she frames this to herself as avoiding Lecter's empty house, it's suddenly MUCH easier to accept.
THERE. THERE IT IS. IS THIS AS MUCH OF A VICTORY AS IT FEELS LIKE BECAUSE HONESTLY IT'S BEEN AN UPHILL BATTLE JUST SITTING ON THIS SHIT FOR SO LONG.]
you do that! one of these Saturdays maybe, although i have very reasonable wingman rates
[She gives that a solid twenty seconds to settle, imagines his face, and only then addresses the last text:]
youre very welcome. i'm glad you told me. i'm glad you wanted to tell me.
[The noise encourages Asahi to push the shirt up higher, to brace his hands on Nishinoya's warm pectorals, where he's delighted to be able to feel his pulse. He hums, leaning closer for more, and then--
BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIING
The alarm in his pocket spooked Asahi, and he yelped, then bit his tongue.]
OW!
BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIING
The alarm in his pocket spooked Asahi, and he yelped, then bit his tongue.]
OW!
Now Ana, a man only needs one flask, unless he has a problem, or a lot of problems. I hope I'm not that bad yet.
Well, though it's generally dishonorable to share photos sent in confidence, it is even less polite to break someone else's heart, so...
[img332.jpeg sent!]
[img343.jpeg sent!]
[img376.jpeg sent!]
[img332.jpeg sent!]
[img343.jpeg sent!]
[img376.jpeg sent!]
I wanted to be your friend. But I guess if that doesn't matter to you, I can get over it.
Please don't treat me like a kid, Viktor. I made decisions that day, too.
And Yuuri needs you as much as he needs me.
And Yuuri needs you as much as he needs me.
Agreed, if it can be helped. I hate how you can never really get rid of it in its entirety. There's ALWAYS more. Weeks, months, years later.
Some of us do, yes. I went through a period where I did it more often than I should have. I've subdued a bit since then. But I agree. A drink (or many drinks) for Bodhi. Do you know where to get some? Something with a high alcohol content.
Some of us do, yes. I went through a period where I did it more often than I should have. I've subdued a bit since then. But I agree. A drink (or many drinks) for Bodhi. Do you know where to get some? Something with a high alcohol content.
[ Nishinoya had forgotten about the food. It was an incredibly rare moment for him. So he is startled when he alarm goes off. He fell back, flopping onto the floor inside the fort.
Remembering what it was for, he was a little less upset that the alarm had been so disruptive. He heard the ow. Scrambling to get onto his knees and move back to Asahi's side. ]
Are you okay???
Remembering what it was for, he was a little less upset that the alarm had been so disruptive. He heard the ow. Scrambling to get onto his knees and move back to Asahi's side. ]
Are you okay???
Oh. You know.
Your more persuasive charms can work quite well.
Your more persuasive charms can work quite well.
[ ...
What the hell. These actually are kinda nice?? ]
you weren't kidding.
[ But he caught that last bit — ]
if he was a real dick (lol) it might be better to trash them, though.
i'm sure you can find another artistic guy to fill the "nice dick pic" hole in your life.
What the hell. These actually are kinda nice?? ]
you weren't kidding.
[ But he caught that last bit — ]
if he was a real dick (lol) it might be better to trash them, though.
i'm sure you can find another artistic guy to fill the "nice dick pic" hole in your life.
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