[he feels hate, love, fear, anger, emptiness, regret, sadness, loneliness. more of the later ones than the earlier. Kaz's shoulders start to shake, and he lets out a choked sound that's something between laughing and crying. Boss being proud of him shouldn't mean as much as it does. but Kaz had always admired him, looked up to him. apparently, he still does.]

You're calling me honorable? After.. after the first time we met, I tried to kill you with a dirty trick?

[he shoves at Boss' chest in a gesture that's almost playful, with a cracked smile.]

If you could've moved a pinky, you'd have taken them all down, I'm sure of it. I've never met anyone like you. You know-- [another shaky half-sob half-laugh] --there were so many times I was listening on codec and I thought 'this is it, he's going to die for sure'. But you never did. Even now, you pulled your ass out of a nine-year coma and kept going.

Do you remember? I think the last thing I said to you was "Don't you die on me". If you didn't do any more, it's because doing more was an impossibility. And an impossibility even you couldn't power through.

[which he says with absolute faith and confidence.]