[Hate? Hate is a strong word. If he said he hated being close to people, he would be lying. Having few people he can trust, having no ties to anyone or anything but his work as an exorcist, he deliberately withdraws from it. He can't honestly say that he hates something so alien to him. That.. doesn't mean he doesn't want the same warmth or affection any other person craves in life.
It's frightening being made to think about it, about what he knows it means to have someone as vulnerable as another human being close to him.]
What do you know?
[He chews over the inside of his cheek, thinks over the words. He's teasing, at the expense of his own life? He must be. Lavi never usually pushes his luck this far when it comes to Kanda's temper.
One of the hands that attempted to break Lavi's hold reaches to fix the pin, fitting it back into place just above his ear from where it had slip down. It's another reminder of the way the bookman had looked at him earlier.]
Disappointed you can't pick up women? There's plenty out there for you. Don't think you can pretend I'm one of them because of the way I look. Idiot, I'm fine to make it home alone.
[he says it under the pretense that Lavi wants to be clingy for the sake of laughs, for lack of another warm body. Kanda knows if he doesn't draw away soon, his own excuses will start to wear thin and Lavi may pick up on it, and tease even more with that newfound ammo, even though something in the other's voice makes him doubt the thought a little.]
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It's frightening being made to think about it, about what he knows it means to have someone as vulnerable as another human being close to him.]
What do you know?
[He chews over the inside of his cheek, thinks over the words. He's teasing, at the expense of his own life? He must be. Lavi never usually pushes his luck this far when it comes to Kanda's temper.
One of the hands that attempted to break Lavi's hold reaches to fix the pin, fitting it back into place just above his ear from where it had slip down. It's another reminder of the way the bookman had looked at him earlier.]
Disappointed you can't pick up women? There's plenty out there for you. Don't think you can pretend I'm one of them because of the way I look. Idiot, I'm fine to make it home alone.
[he says it under the pretense that Lavi wants to be clingy for the sake of laughs, for lack of another warm body. Kanda knows if he doesn't draw away soon, his own excuses will start to wear thin and Lavi may pick up on it, and tease even more with that newfound ammo, even though something in the other's voice makes him doubt the thought a little.]