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you'll like the way we meme ([personal profile] memeswearhouse) wrote in [community profile] bakerstreet2012-05-05 11:11 pm

INSOMNIA MEME


the i n s o m n i a meme


It happens to everyone - sometimes, you have nights where you just can't fall asleep, no matter what you do. It could be for a number of reasons, or no reason at all. And this is what's happened now: you've been laying in bed for what feels like hours, just tossing and turning, and nothing seems to help. So what's left to do? Get out of bed and go wake someone else up, of course. If you're not getting any sleep, then why should they?


i n s t r u c t i o n s

• Post with your character (note the name and fandom in the subject).
• Other people reply to you by generating a number from 1 to 10.
• Have fun!


o p t i o n s

01 • FEAR. Maybe you're hearing strange, indeterminable noises; maybe there's a severe storm happening outside; maybe you watched a scary movie before bed? Whatever the reason, you're terrified and it's keeping you awake. You just want to wake someone else up so they can protect you from the monster in your closet.
02 • HUNGER. Your stomach is growling and it just won't stop. Or perhaps your throat is so dry you could cough up a tumbleweed? Well, you've gone to the kitchen to remedy this and hey, that was a pan that just dropped on the floor. It was loud enough to wake the dead! Oops.
03 • PAIN. Your body is completely worn out, be it from exercise, battle, sickness, or what have you. Either way you're in enough pain to keep you from sleeping, so maybe someone else has a home remedy or something, or can at least help you take your mind off of it.
04 • SOLITUDE. For some reason, your bed just feels so empty at the moment. You're feeling terribly lonely and really just want someone to keep you company for a while. Maybe it'd be easier to fall asleep if you're with them...
05 • DISCOMFORT. Your room is an oven. Either that or a freezer. Or maybe this bed is just really uncomfortable? Who knows why you can't get to sleep, it feels like it could be anything. Why even bother trying? Maybe someone else can preoccupy you until you feel tired enough to ignore your discomfort.
06 • PENSIVE. Something's on your mind, and no matter how hard you try to focus elsewhere, it's just not going to work. Your body may be tired, but your mind is incredibly busy and it's virtually impossible to get to sleep. Surely, talking it out with someone else will help?
07 • SADNESS. Something terrible has happened that day, perhaps; or you could just be severely depressed. Either way you're trying your hardest not to cry yourself to sleep, and it's not working at all. Better find a way to get it out of your system somehow; you need a shoulder to cry on.
08 • ANGER. You are just... fuming. Who knows why - that annoying dog is barking again, or maybe the people next door are getting busy and keeping you awake. Whatever the reason for your ire is, you'd better put an end to it so you can get some damn rest already! Go wake up a friend so you can complain to them.
09 • RESTLESS. You're far too energetic to sleep right now. Maybe you're just trying to do so out of necessity - you have to be up early tomorrow! But you just don't think you'll be able to fall asleep for a while now, so why waste the time trying to sleep when you could be doing something else? Namely bothering someone else - you're totally jealous because they're getting more sleep than you.
10 • WILDCARD. Choose one of the options above, or make up your own scenario.


nested: (completely silent now with heaven's)

[personal profile] nested 2012-05-07 04:52 am (UTC)(link)
[He give a short, tense laugh.]

Never thought I'd be hoping for something to break the quiet around here.

[The quiet left him time to think. Time for his mind to wander. To relive past mistakes. To question old decisions.

He stares down at his bare feet, suddenly interested in his toes.]
rememberbudapest: (pic#3346572)

[personal profile] rememberbudapest 2012-05-07 05:00 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe a super villain or two.

[Her lips quirk in a faint smile, and she polishes off the sandwich, crossing her arms over her chest.]

It's not quite as bad when everyone's awake, at least.
nested: (Default)

[personal profile] nested 2012-05-07 05:06 am (UTC)(link)
Nothing huge. [He agrees with a grin.

Arms crossing over his chest, he chews the inside of his cheek before finally letting loose.]


I get it, okay. I mean, the last round caused a lot of damage, but how are they faulting us for that? The city would have been leveled if it weren't for us, and we're benched while the council has a review?
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[personal profile] rememberbudapest 2012-05-07 05:09 am (UTC)(link)
[Natasha sighs, running a hand back through her hair.]

They can't hold anyone else accountable. Someone has to take the fall for everything, but considering their solution was a nuclear missile, I like to think we caused even less damage than they would have.

[She looks a little disgruntled with that.]
nested: ({I've been down below and its the)

spoilers (just in case)

[personal profile] nested 2012-05-07 05:25 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, and there's no guarantee that would have worked either. Nevermind the fact that we were still trying to hold our positions, what about all of the civilian casualties leveling Manhattan would have caused? Does anyone care about that?

[It isn't just how close it all came to fucked that's bothering him. It's dealing with the aftermath of it all. Dealing with all the other agents who died because he'd been compromised. Dealing with finding out that Coulson--

Just dealing.]
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oops yes right, spoilers

[personal profile] rememberbudapest 2012-05-07 06:01 am (UTC)(link)
Apparently not.

[She watches him, curious, vaguely concerned.

She knows how much Clint has to be beating himself up over what he did while under Loki's control, over what happened in general recently. It wasn't his fault, but...it wasn't like a few nice words and reassurances would keep Clint from putting the blame on his own shoulders.
]

How are you holding up, by the way?

[Natasha is trying to sound as casual as possible, like it's just small-talk.]
nested: (Default)

the others were tiny >.> mine reallllllly wasn't, so XD

[personal profile] nested 2012-05-07 06:12 am (UTC)(link)
I'm-[He tries to sleep. He does. He lays down, but right when he starts to drift, when unconsciousness starts to creep in, he remembers the cold. He remembers the feeling of being--unmade.

It was all like a bad nightmare. A waking nightmare, and it jolts him out every time.

Now he can't sleep.

Not without thinking how Loki didn't use any effort at all to pull information on Natasha out of him. How he told him what he'd make him do to her--]


--I'm fine.
rememberbudapest: (pic#3346531)

thaaat's true

[personal profile] rememberbudapest 2012-05-07 06:21 am (UTC)(link)
[She knows how untrue that is. How much of a lie "I'm fine" is right now.

Clint's not the only one still bothered by Loki. What Loki had said in the cage-- as much as Natasha had been playing a part to get information from him, it had still...shaken her. She tried to deny it, to avoid that line of thought, because Loki had just been trying to get to her, that's all it had been, and-- it had worked.

She didn't want to admit it, but he'd gotten to her right where it hurt the most.
]

All right.

[She glances away, towards a clock.]

If you plan on getting any sleep before the others wake up, you might want to try now.

[Sure, there's plenty of room around Stark Tower to sleep, but when Tony's up, he makes sure everyone is.]
nested: (Default)

[personal profile] nested 2012-05-07 02:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[His jaw works, like he might try to say something else, but he opts to clench his jaw so tight that it hurts instead, crossing his arms over his chest. It's a defensive gesture, a barrier he puts up when he feels vulnerable.

Fighting after coming out of that--fugue, it had helped. He could focus on stopping the bad guys, and the idea of how satisfying it would be to revisit a little hurt on the deranged demigod.

It had helped for a while, but the knowing looks he got from him while they got everything together to allow for Thor to transport him back to their realm were enough to make him feel like he had ice in his veins again. It didn't help that he caught a look he couldn't place in Natasha's eyes sometimes.

It left a tension in the air too thick to even attempt to wade through.]


Yeah.

[He follows her gaze to the clock, and reaches up one hand to rub the back of his neck. Two nights-no, three? Things were starting to blur.]

Think I'll hit the gym instead.
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[personal profile] rememberbudapest 2012-05-07 02:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[Natasha sighs, frowning slightly.]

When was the last time you slept, Clint?

[Her tone is less casual now, genuine concern actually leaking into her voice.

She knows it's not her business, and she shouldn't be asking, but if anything is going to affect Clint's performance, it's certainly his sleeping habits.
]
nested: (help you cast your demons out)

[personal profile] nested 2012-05-07 02:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Don't worry about it. [Terse. Snappish. He's normally more collected than that.]
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[personal profile] rememberbudapest 2012-05-07 02:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[Well, if anything's concerning, that is.]

Clint.

[She uncrosses her arms, taking a step closer to him.]

If this is going to affect you, I need to know. [If Clint could potentially endanger the team or himself because he isn't sleeping, Natasha needs to know.]
nested: (your cloud but I'm more than just a)

[personal profile] nested 2012-05-07 02:39 pm (UTC)(link)
[Arms crossed over his chest again, his jaw is tight. He wants to be stubborn about it, refuse out of petulance or misguided spite, but something in her look gets under his skin.

His shoulders slump just slightly.]


Two or three days. [He admits it softly.]
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[personal profile] rememberbudapest 2012-05-07 02:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[Natasha sighs quietly, nodding.]

What's kept you awake?
nested: (and not to pull your halo down)

[personal profile] nested 2012-05-07 02:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[terse again.]

You know what.
rememberbudapest: (pic#3346532)

[personal profile] rememberbudapest 2012-05-07 04:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[She had a feeling.]

Right.

[Loki was the reason Natasha had trouble sleeping, too, but...to a much lesser degree. She hadn't had Loki literally in her head.]

He's gone. You know that.
nested: (your cloud but I'm more than just a)

[personal profile] nested 2012-05-08 06:47 am (UTC)(link)
[His jaw clenches and he studies his bare feet again, wiggling his toes for a moment before giving a sigh. He looks back over at her.

He can remember what it felt like still. He can remember that insinuating voice in his head, at his ear--]


Yeah, I know.

[He doesn't feel gone. Clint feels like he's still got ice splintering under his skin.]
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[personal profile] rememberbudapest 2012-05-08 06:50 am (UTC)(link)
[Natasha reaches out, rests her hand gently on Clint's shoulder and squeezes, just enough to...what? Let him know she's there?

That sounds sort of stupid in her own head.

Her voice is a little softer when she speaks again.
]

It won't happen again, Clint.

[Because she will not let it.]
nested: (Default)

[personal profile] nested 2012-05-08 07:01 am (UTC)(link)
Monsters and magic, Tasha.

[It's obvious that he's parroting her own words back to her, but they were the right words to say. They weren't ready for this, and even after winning--

--it still didn't feel like they'd gained a foothold.]
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[personal profile] rememberbudapest 2012-05-08 07:15 am (UTC)(link)
[Having him repeat her own words gets a small chuckle out of Natasha.

He's completely right, and it's...a good reminder, in part.

But as ill-equipped as they are to really handle another being like Loki, she still can't imagine letting the same thing happen to Clint again. Not if there's anything she can do to stop it.
]

Monsters and magic.

[She shakes her head, letting her hand fall away from Clint's shoulder.]

At least the monsters are gone for now.
nested: (and tear you down and tug you off)

[personal profile] nested 2012-05-08 02:02 pm (UTC)(link)
We both know they'll be back. Probably worse--[Clint gave an involuntary shudder, he didn't want to think about that.]--than before.
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[personal profile] rememberbudapest 2012-05-08 03:59 pm (UTC)(link)
We're better prepared now. We can handle it.

[There's a team now. Better response.

She knows, though, that they can't be completely prepared.
]
nested: ({I've been down below and its the)

[personal profile] nested 2012-05-08 04:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Together, yeah.

[That was still new for him though. Sure, he was part of a larger operation, but he was usually out on solo missions.

Except when he was teamed up with Natasha.]
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[personal profile] rememberbudapest 2012-05-08 04:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Exactly.

[Clint isn't the only one who has trouble working with a team. Even working with a partner is a stretch.

Clint, though...it's working with him that's actually easy.
]

nested: (and tear you down and tug you off)

[personal profile] nested 2012-05-08 04:18 pm (UTC)(link)
[Working with Natasha was different than anyone else. They didn't need to say anything to communicate what they needed. The moved like extensions of the other in battle without thought.

It's probably what makes this--the talking without talking--easier. Even if she knows what he's thinking, she isn't going to lecture him about how messed up it is. She isn't going to push for him to go baring his soul or anything like the SHIELD psychs.

He'd do the same for her. Let her come around in her own time.

He looks over at one of the other couches, giving a nod to it.]


Think I might try to steal a page from your book.

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