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3 Types of Love
Three Types Of Love Meme (Expanded)
This meme deals with three types of love: angsty, sweet and twisted! Please note that there are triggers abound!
- Post your characters and include preferences (if any!)
- Others reply
- Go to RNG and enter the numbers 1-3 to get a love type, then 1-20 to get a scene. Or just choose one that takes your fancy!
- Please respect if someone doesn't want to play a particular scene out and choose something else.
I. BAD ROMANCE
- Post your characters and include preferences (if any!)
- Others reply
- Go to RNG and enter the numbers 1-3 to get a love type, then 1-20 to get a scene. Or just choose one that takes your fancy!
- Please respect if someone doesn't want to play a particular scene out and choose something else.
I. BAD ROMANCE
01. IT'S TOO LATE TO APOLOGIZE. You had a fight and now your lover isn't sure they want to even hear your apologies.II. TRULY MADLY DEEPLY
02. HURT/COMFORT. You or your lover is in pain, physically or mentally, and needs to be comforted.
03. SECOND BEST. No matter what your lover says, you feel like they're only settling for you like a second choice.
04. CHEATED. You've seen all the signs; lipstick on the collar, scratches down the back, hickeys you didn't leave behind. Do you want to keep ignoring it or finally confront them?
05. KEEP ME FROM FALLING. Your lover is being discouraged from seeking any sort of relationship with you and it's definitely a strain.
06. BUT HOW DO I KNOW... You love your partner so much, but you're uncertain just how they feel about you.
07. JUST NOT FEELING THE SPARK... That spark in he bedroom seems to be gone, so how are you going to deal?
08. I WANT YOUR LOVE, I DON' WANT TO BE FRIENDS. You're obsessed with the object of your affection and you will stop at nothing to win them over.
09. A KISS WITH A FIST IS BETTER THAN NONE. Your relationship is rough and you spend more time fighting than anything else, but you can't give up that spark anyway. You'll stay together even if you both end up miserable.
10. THE END. It's time to break up. Suddenly or something you've both seen coming awhile, the choice is yours.
11. AS LOVE LAYS BLEEDING. Your lover has been fatally wounded, so spend your last moments with them and make them as memorable as possible.
12. AFFAIR TO REMEMBER. you're not even really together together with this person. You're having an affair on your lover, but you just can't say no.
13. ARGUMENT. You're in the middle of fighting with your lover, either physically or verbally.
14. ACCIDENTAL PHOTO. Stripper on the lap, about to make out with someone else? Nude photos of another person? Whatever the case, you just got an accidental photo sent to your phone of your lover with someone else or a naked photo of someone else intended for your lover. Heck, maybe it's even a naked photo OF your lover that's intended for someone else.
15. CAN'T SAVE YOU. Your lover is going to sacrifice themselves and you can't save them. You can spend your last night with them though.
16. FALLING APART. Your life with your lover is falling apart due to outside circumstances and all you can do is try to hold on together.
17. SECRET LOVER. You and your lover have to keep your relationship a secret, but unfortunately, you've been found out by someone who disapproves. How will you deal?
18. GOING TO MAKE YOU HURT. You know you're no good for your lover and in the end, you're going to make them hurt.
19. KEEP YOU SAFE. Your lover has been hurt in an intimate way by someone else and all you can do is try to pick up the pieces.
20.YOUR CHOICE. choose or combine any of the choices on here or make up your own!
01.JUST LIKE THE FIRST TIME. It's time to tell that person how much they mean to you.III. HOW CAN I EXIST WITHOUT YOU?
02.COMMITMENT. It's finally that time to make your relationship a little less casual and something more committed.
03. KIDS. It's time for that next step! Time to reveal you're pregnant or you've adopted.
04. ANNIVERSARY. it's your one week, one month, or one year anniversary! Or however long you'd like to make it! How do you celebrate?
05. WANT YOU BACK. All couples have rough times! You might have called it quits for awhile, but it's time to give it another shot!
06. GOTTA STAY INSIDE. The weather outside has made it impossible to go out, so why not snuggle up with your lover and enjoy yourselves?
07. I JUST WANT TO SAY... You feel the need to tell your lover just exactly how much he or she means to you.
08. DATE NIGHT. You decided to take your lover out on an honest date.
09. SICK DAY. Your lover is down with a cold or flu and it's time to take care of them!
10. EXPERIMENTATION. You both love each other so there's absolutely nothing wrong with a little healthy experimentation in the bedroom.
11. GIFTS. You found the perfect gift for your lover and it's time to give it to them!
12. PATCH YOU UP. Your lover is injured and you've got to take care of them.
13. LET'S MAKE LOVE. You want to take it slow tonight, really slow. You want to take the time to love and worship each other's bodies.
14. SEXTING. Your lover is away from you so you decide to spice things up with some text messages and maybe even some photos.
15. KISSES. A good old fashioned make out session. You're not necessarily into taking it to the next level, just kissing each other is enough right now. That might include kissing every inch of the other's body too.
16. WELCOME HOME. Your lover has been gone for far too long and now they're back. It's time to welcome them.
17. RESCUE YOU. You've given everything to rescue your lover and now it's time for some well deserved time together.
18. RUNNING AWAY. You and your lover has run away together to start a new, happier life.
19. CHOOSE YOU. You have to turn away something amazing just to be with your lover and you don't regret it for a second.
20.YOUR CHOICE. choose or combine any of the choices on here or make up your own!
01. YOU WOULDN'T WANT ME TO HAVE TO HURT YOU TOO... The object of your love/lust is resisting your advances, so it's time to take what you want.
02. JEALOUSY. It's jealousy to the extreme. You're going to make damn sure your lover knows how you feel about them seeing other people.
03. INCEST IS BEST. You know it's wrong, all kinds of sinful, but you can't resist the draw. If characters aren't related, then they are now! Or at least it feels very close to incest anyway.
04. YOU'RE NEVER GONNA GET FAR. You love that person so much, you've made sure they can't get away - by physically tying them down or by some other emotional or mental means.
05. I'LL MAKE YOU HURT. You've set it up to make sure your lover catches you cheating or doing something else hurtful just for that reason. You want to make them suffer.
06. CHAINS AND WHIPS EXCITE ME. You're both taking sex to extremes.
07. BROKEN. Your lover has utterly broken you and you need them to know.
08. SECRECY. You're embarrassed by your lover, utterly embarrassed. If they weren't useful in some way (even if it's just in bed!), you wouldn't even be with them.
09. YOU'RE MY LAST CHOICE. You don't really love the person you're with, but they're all you could snatch up and it's no secret to either of you.
10. FORCED TOGETHER. You don' love each other, but you have no choice but to be together due to outside influences. Alternatively, you've been captured and are now being forced to make a sex video even if you don't want to.
11. WATCH HOW I DO IT. You were just forced to watch your lover have sex with someone else (willingly or not) or beaten and now you've got to deal with the aftermath.
12. IF YOU ONLY KNEW. You're not who your lover thinks or you've got a lot of deep dark secrets that, if they only knew, they'd hate you forever.
13. NOT WHO I WAS. Maybe your lover was replaced with a pod person or they're under brainwash or something, but you know they're not who they were.
14. LOVE POTION XXX. You couldn't resist it anymore. You needed your lover, so you've drugged them into loving and wanting you too.
15. THREATS. This person isn't with you willingly. They're only putting up with you because you've threatened them into doing so.
16. FOR YOUR ENTERTAINMENT.
17. NOT GOING TO SAVE YOU. Your lover is on the brink and you're just going to watch them fall. You don't care anymore.
18. HATE YOU. You need your lover to know how exactly much you hate them. You can't even touch them without your skin crawling.
19. BETRAYAL. You've betrayed your lover in some huge way and you don't care that they've found out.
20.YOUR CHOICE. choose or combine any of the choices on here or make up your own!
Stiles Stilinski - Teen Wolf - F/M
2 :: 18
Please, please, please don't fail me now.
[ It's a plea thrown to the stars and the night sky above. She's worried he's having second thoughts, worried that his father has gotten to him, that sense has been talked into him because everyone knows running away from home at their age is nonsensical, right? ]
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[ They had decided two days ago, Sawyer and he, that the only way they were going to make it was making it elsewhere. It didn't work here... it would never work here. So what was the alternative? Not being with her? He's not the biggest fan of Romeo and Juliet (they knew each other for what three days total) but he'd sooner die then give up Sawyer. She makes things so much more than bearable, she makes them wonderful. Fantastic. Ace. But he thinks about leaving his dad behind and his throat falls into his chest, and his heart sink into his stomach, and who the hell knows where his intensities go. If he goes, his dad will be alone but honestly, his dad acts like he's alone already so maybe Stiles should just do him the favor.
It's not like they've made eye contact in years.
He takes a deep, stuttered breath and reaches into his pocket to check his phone. He's ten minutes late. He has to decide. Beacon Hills or Sawyer Thomas? The fact that his phone background is a picture of her face staring back at him seals the deal. The brunette throws the last two things in his bag and gives it a violent zip closed. He makes quick work of flipping off the lights before he shoves himself through the window and out into the side alley.
Earbuds in, Pandora on, obscure surf rock blaring -- he takes off.
By the time he reaches the meeting spot, the edges of his lungs are on fire. He tries to steady his breath, keep the world in focus and not so twirly as he comes around the corner. Hands go on the small of his back, looking up to the sky for a moment before russet eyes find their way onto Sawyer. He offers her a slight grin, tone light but a bit wheezy. ] Took a wrong turn. Or seven. Shortcuts through buildings are rough -- I think I became a member of that cult on the corner of 5th street. What's the name of that place again? St. Michael's Catholic Chruch?
I love this tag
Sawyer glances at her phone, wrapping her arms tighter around herself, holding in her own body heat. She knows he's late, but she also knows that she's going to give him a little while to make this decision. In fact, she knows she'll give him hours even if she doesn't want to admit that to herself. She will wait here for Stiles all night. Squishy was never her style until she met him, but he had a certain way of making it very appealing.
Her lips curve up into a smile, which turns into a bright, ear-to-ear grin. She launches herself at him, arms going around his neck in a hug. ] The good news is, you can now have three wives. The bad news is...you can now have three wives. You didn't drink the kool-aid, did you?
Hey, hey ,hey -- right back at ya`!
[ He finally sets her back down on the ground, callous fingertips from both hands coming to grip the cloth of her hood on either side. Stiles leans down, pulls her face over to his so that he can kiss her full on the lips. Before, or with any other girl, he might not of had the confidence to just... you know. Sawyer is different though, special (and not in the your school bus is inherently smaller than normal ones kind of way). She makes him feel comfortable in his own skin for once in his life.
He grins against her lips for a second before pulling away, finds her eyes. ]
Sorry I was late. [ He's genuine, wanting her to know that he was always going to come. He's just shit with deadlines. He moves on from the moment of sincerity quickly. The brunette lets go of her hood and moves to fiddle with the zipper, or buckle, or whatever of her messenger bag. ] Oh, stuff -- what did you bring me? It better not be underwear... or actually, yes. I hope it's underwear and I hope I get to see it. Often. On you. Or me. Whatever.
Oh Stiles. I want to keep him.
hinderhim, she wraps her legs around his waist so that she is hugging him with her entire body. Her face turns into the crook of his neck to press a kiss against his skin. Hugging is definitely high on Sawyer's list of favorite things to do eclipsed only by snuggling and kissing. On occasion, she calls him on the deep breathing thing, but it's always in a teasing sort of manner because in truth, she doesn't mind. It makes him feel more real and solid and hers. ]We may have to detox you and switch to the cherry. I hear it covers the taste a little better for those with a discerning palatte.
[ She goes to her feet easily, legs unwinding from his waist when his hold on her loosens, anticipating what he's going to do because they've done this a thousand times before. There's no such thing as a half hearted hug between Stiles and Sawyer. They are a 110%, 'Where have you been my whole life' sorts of hugs because that's how everything feels with him. The kissing, the kissing is her favorite thing, especially when he just you know kisses her like that. A smile tugs at the corners of her mouth as he kisses her, she tiptoes a little, arching up into the kiss. Stiles does the same thing for her. When her fire elemental manifested, she'd felt all wrong, her skin too tight, too hot, too small for her, but with his own special brand of 'Stiles magic' he'd managed to make her feel comfortable again. She's not sure how he does it, but she can breathe around Stiles.
She goes back down to the flat of her feet when he pulls away, that smile still tugging at the corners of her lips. ]
It's okay. I'll just spend the rest of my life making you make up for it. [ She's cheerfully teasing him about it because he's here and that he was late just doesn't matter anymore. She bites her bottom lip around the grin she can't contain any longer.] You caught me. I've spent the last two days in Victoria's Secret amassing a rainbow of lace underwear that's just your size.
[ She tugs on the strap of his bag playfully. ] I do hope you've brought boxer shorts for me because I do believe that's the plan: seeing each other in underwear. Often.
[ But seriously...sort of. She fishes in the pocket of her jeans and pulls out a set of keys. ] Giant SUV thing that's older than both of us, but the guy swore it ran like a top. I bought it this evening with cash and wore a wig, giant sunglasses and so much makeup it was melting off my face by the time he finally gave me keys.
[ She's been a busy girl the last two days. There's also camping equipment in the back of the SUV and the contents of her aunt's pantry. ]
Only if you let me at least borrow Sawyer.
[ Another reason he's in love (and he is in love) with Sawyer is no one else on the planet would be willing to put up with the amount of banter that spews from his mouth. More than that, give it back to him ten fold. He could listen to this girl bullshit him for the rest of his life (yes please) because she's witty. Super witt. Incredibly witty. Sometimes without even meaning to be. ]
What?! How come in all your plans I never get to be the one who wears a wig? Also, I'm driving. [ He snatches the keys from her hand, leaning forward to pop a chaste kiss on her cheek before spinning around in a full 360, now looking for said SUV. He sees it parked a few spots from the corner they stand on now. There's a burst of excitement in his voice. ] Dude, that's awesome -- it looks like a freakin` tank or something.
[ He makes a move to head over to the vehicle but seems inspired by something so he stutters a step backwards and forces a piggyback ride onto Sawyer, leaning over slightly and grabbing at the bend of her knees until she's forced to jump on his back. ]
All aboard, let's get this Bonnie and Clyde TV mini-series adventure going. I'm thinking this first season is going to be sort of like a Scooby Doo mash up.
[ Stiles bounds over to the SUV, dropping her off at the back so they can deposit their bags. He's ready for this, completely ready to go off into the world with her and have it just be the two of them. Basically foaming at mouth at the prospect of having her all to himself. He pops the back hatch open and tosses his bag in, waiting for her to do the same. ]
I think that can be arranged easily!
[ The banter that spews from his mouth is part of the reason she's entirely in love with him. She loves his sense of humor and that they fell into this sort of rhythm from the very beginning.
She loves that there's never any awkward silence between them and just talking to Stiles is always fun. ]
Because you have the Cosplay fantasies. [ She bats her eyes at him. ] I just live to fulfill your fantasies. [ She's offering her cheek for him to kiss even before he leans in to kiss it. The excitement in his voice makes her grin. She had hoped he'd like it this much. ] I only do things that are awesome. Catch up, Wolf Boy.
[ And then the giggling laughter sneaks in as she hops on his back, arms circling around his shoulders and neck. She wraps her legs around his waist and rests her chin on one shoulder. ] The Scooby Gang worked out better in the end. We'll be the Daphne and Fred Adventures, who you know were dating, but hiding it from Velma because of her delusional crush on Fred.
[ Her bag gets tossed into the back right next to his and she can't help the big grin that spreads across her face. She tiptoes up, puts her hand on the back of his head and pulls him down into a kiss. She nips his bottom lip then pulls away. ]
Just making sure this is real. [ And she's bounding off to the passenger side. It's showtime. ]
Oerba Yun Fang | Final Fantasy XIII Compilation | F/F
Ymir | Attack on Titan | F/F
Medusa Gorgon || Soul Eater || OTA, prefer F/M
Lovino Vargas / South Italy || Hetalia
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3/4/5/6/17/something along those lines
He'll just place that on the table where everyone can see it, because everyone has to know it by now. Nothing drives it in quite like this. Nothing drives it in like wearing his boyfriend's old teenage clothes while resting in his girlfriend's bed in her apartment. That's what she is, isn't it? Probably. Everything is confusing right now. He's never taken well to cheating, particularly not cheating on Harry, but this has been coming more naturally than anything has before and that worries him.
It's not like he's called her his girlfriend. It's not like he's said he loves her. He's pretty sure he doesn't, not yet. Not the way he loves Harry, but he doesn't love anyone quite the same way as he loves Harry, and never has. But he's kissed her... on the cheek, on the forehead, on her neck and fingers the way he does with Feli when they're messing around. He's shared a bed with her, and woken up snuggled up with his face in her chest. Not like there's a whole lot there, and a jerkish part of him insists it doesn't count.
It's resting here right now that feels distinctly wrong, though. Because he can smell Harry's scent in his clothes and it's late, Harry must be out patrolling by now and he could call any moment to check up on him. Or ask for help. It would be so comforting if Miku wasn't laying next to him, probably awake and aware of how tense he feels. It probably doesn't help he insisted on smoking inside her apartment... he's stressed. She can tell, he knows she can tell, as if it's hard for anyone to tell how stressed he is. He just hopes against hope she isn't able to piece together what's worrying him so much.]
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It start with the odd silences. The tense feeling that was present when they would share space in the same room. She would ask what was wrong, and thats when she'd learn. Thats when she would have received the news that she wasn't good enough, or there was someone else. Or they were just "growing apart". Something.
She just never thought she'd hear it from someone who meant so much to her.
Someone who she had dedicated her time, love, and almost her soul to. Someone who meant more to her then the stars themeselves. Someone who had become her life. Miku never really had much in life. And after meeting Lovi, who seemed to help her, things seemed to look up. She had gotten medicated for at least most of her issues. He was teaching her how to cook. Things were going great.
She had only ever been in one relationship before this. And the end of it.. Didn't end well. And she promised never to give her heart to anyone else. That didn't work out so well.
After laying there for more than twenty minutes, not saying anything, pretending to be asleep, it almost became unbearable for her. She finally spoke up, breaking the silence. ]
Is something wrong?
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Lots of things are wrong. [He finally mumbles.] Poor people and anarchists and assholes and beggars and shit like that. [That's not a great way to distract her, though, is it?] ...I'm an asshole. A total jackass. Why do you even like me?
[He'd asked this question to Harry a few times, and usually received joking answers. Harry is still afraid to let him in completely, and he doesn't blame him. He's genuinely curious to see how Miku will react, but it bugs him that he can compare her answer to Harry's. That he wants to compare them. That the old urge to do only what yields the best results has finally itched its way back even though he's sure he couldn't survive without Harry.]
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[ But the feeling in the room only grew heavier, and she could slowly feel the worse possible ending to this creeping even closer towards her. She felt her stomach sink even lower, almost into her bowels. ]
You're not an asshole..
I'm so worthless.. Just say it already..
[ Her voice lowers to a whisper, more of an upset mumble thats hardly audible. ]
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[...He isn't sure what he was expecting but that wasn't it. A joke answer, maybe, or something material and baseless he could deny. Not something that actually warms him from head to toe. And then there's that mumbling and he's right next to her, he can hear that. He quickly removes the cigarette from his mouth and sets it aside to curl toward her and wrap his arms around her and press their foreheads together.]
Shut up. [He hums.] You're great too. Better than I am. Hell, I'm not even that great, but you... you are. [His hands slip to her waist and he nuzzles their noses together and it's so normal to be affectionate like this because of Feli and Harry and all his particularly nice clients of the past that he doesn't really think about how close they are or how their breath is mingling or how he just may or may not have kissed her on the lips.
Which he will vigorously convince himself he didn't because he can't afford to make this any more complicated. He pressed his face ever so subtly into the shared pillow and averts his eyes, blood rushing to his face.]
...I-I'm a jackass and everyone I care about gets hurt. Always.
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Yeah..
[ Once hes moved back, she'll sit up and move off the bed and towards the door. ]
I'm gonna take a shower and go for a walk or something..
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Hey... can we uh... can we talk first?
[God, he's just digging himself a huge hole. But they need this talk, and he's always prided himself on being the mature person in his family. He's had uncomfortable talks, and he's survived. God knows he's survived. He can survive again.]
...I want to talk about... us. Figure out what we... are. Put things in black and white.
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Yeah.. Okay.
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Physical contact can at least help, right? He tries to think of what's not too awkward... well, everything is. He gives up and places his hand next to hers, before lacing their fingers together.]
Okay first of all I... I don't want to jump the gun or anything, right? So uh... um... I don't know what I should ask first. [He swallows hesitantly.] ...What are we right now? I mean... we're not just friends, right? [He curses himself a bit for being hopeful. They should be just friends. That would be safer. Harry is so much safer than anything else in his life, he can't afford to throw that away.]
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'But thats what you want to be, right? Friends.' Is what she would've said if her eyes weren't burning just at the thought of saying it.
She doesn't want to touch him or look at him or god forbid think about him because every time she does her heart feels like someone is punching it a little harder every time but goddamn is his skin soft and he smells like roses and cigarette smoke and the way he touches her hand makes her melt.
Which is going to make this a thousand times harder when her life gets ruined. She pulls her hand away to rub her scabbed wrist, which shouldn't have been scabbed because she had gotten over that since they had gotten together. ]
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So I guess I'm your uh... boyfriend now, right? [God, he sounds so odd about it. He squeezes her hand, and grumbles.] I guess it's kind of... I mean that's weird, isn't it? [Wrong choice of words. God, he has completely forgotten how to talk to women.] ...God, I sound stupid, huh? I... I'm not sure how to put this. [He sighs.] This is too weird for me. You know? I don't know what to do about... I mean, you... [SIGH.] It's Harry.
[Here comes the madness, he can just tell.]
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Did he ask you to move back in with him?
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...You turned everything upside-down. [He wilts.] I... uh... I like you. A lot. I don't know how much... just a lot. It makes everything complicated. I don't know how I feel about it... [He frowns.] I don't want to hurt you, though. I'm scared to. That would kill me. And that's... I think that's why it might be smarter if we didn't do this. I mean... me dating Harry, that's proof... I get really rough. I get fucked up. You deserve better than me, at least he can handle me, you... I'm not sure you could handle me when I'm really fucked up.
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It would've saved the both of us a lot of trouble.
I hope he treats you well. He has got lots of money, after all.
[ After leaving the room, she'll make her way over to the bathroom around the corner where she'll start breaking things and looking for pills because it is really hard to see through gallons of tears. ]
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Lovi follows her as she gets up, but she slams the door before he can follow her. No no no no no, if he can't follow her he can't protect her, he didn't want this. His hand curls into a fist and he slams it into the door,wincing at the force his stress is pulling forth.]
Miku! Miku, you said you would talk to me! [He shudders; god, it's scary how he can sense her motivations and he just knows... he needs to be in there right now, stopping her.] Miku, please, open up, just... I need to talk to you. Stop what you're doing, okay, talk to me.
[His voice has gained the tone he gets when he's talking to Feli, when Feli is being stupid. He can't help it, he doesn't feel like a boyfriend right now, he feels like a brother. Like a parent. Like someone who doesn't want one of his best friends to die. Who doesn't want anyone to die, not on his watch. Whatever Miku is to him, he can't lose her.]
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She's a fucking mess. Her eyes are red and puffy, there mirror above the sink is shattered, shes got a huge cut on her head and theres an almost empty bottle of ibuprofen on the floor with a few pills spilling out. As for her clothes, they're wrinkled, soaked and torn a bit.
In short shes a fucking mess. ]
I don't want to talk.
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You... you idiot! [He growls, and reaches out to shake her by the shoulders because he's just not thinking.] You fucking idiot, how the fuck dare you! How is that supposed to solve jack shit!? Jesus Christ- Move. [He drags her roughly to her bed, refusing to take no for an answer and well, he may not be as strong as Harry but not many people are. He is strong enough to cart huge boxes around all day should he please, definitely strong enough to overpower an unstable teenage girl.] You are sitting there and staying fucking put while I call 911 and you are not going to fucking die! [He glances over her again, and his brow twitches again... there is terror in his eyes. He reaches for his phone and dials the number, shuddering impatiently before it connects. He can't stay calm, but he manages to get an ambulance on its way, and calls Harry to alert him he's about to pay for a serious emergency. At least he has money now, at least he can actually solve this. He can fix it, he can fix it, he can fix her, he has to.
Now he waits at the edge of the bed, rocking at an odd rhythm and glaring daggers at Miku.] You didn't solve anything. Look at that. You need Harry now, isn't that just fucking fantastic? Without him and me you'd be dying right now but you're fucking not because I'm not going to fucking let you. God, you're like a little kid mixed with a bomb. Goddamnit...
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What the hell do you think I was trying to do?! I want to die! I've wanted that since we met! But after you didn't beat me up and we started talking, life actually mattered! Are you really that fucking stupid?! We're you not able to see how much I cared about you? If I don't have you, I don't have anything. There is nothing for me in this life! You may think you're shit but to me you are everything!
You say you have problems, and I do too. It would've saved you so much trouble if you hadn't led me on.
And you are an asshole you know, but I still- stilldon't fucking care because my goddamn heart won't fucking let me hate you because I'm in love with you!!
And I don't need Harry!
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[ She stops and her eyes widen. After a minute of being silent she finally opens her mouth, and she's very quiet. ]
I'm sorry.. I'm a mess. And you shouldn't have to deal with me. I shouldv'e.. I mean I- I'm really sorry.. I just wanted to-
[ Her hands clamp into fists and she pounds on her head. ]
I'm so sorry! I'm so so so so so so so sorry!!
STOP STOP STOP STOP
[ It was sort of normal for Miku to have odd spasms that ended up in her hitting or scratching her head. Though she never explained to Lovino why she did, she was pretty sure he was curious.
Today may be a good day to tell him. ]
I- I need to throw these up..
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No fucking shit, do you know what an overdose like that does? You can't just decide not to die at this point. Just shut up and wait for the ambulance, you're not moving from there. And stop touching your goddamn head! [He reaches out and grabs her hands, pulling them roughly from her head with a glare.] God, you're just a huge bucket of problems, aren't you? It's annoying! Just shut up and sit tight and only talk if you start hurting somewhere, okay? The moment the ambulance gets here you're going to the ER and you're not fucking talking to me until you come back alive from that. Alright? You didn't want to talk, so you're not talking.
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I'm sorry. I know I'm annoying.. If I survive, I promise you won't ever hear from me again. I'll get out and stay out.. I shouldn't have caused you so much trouble.
You know, my parents thought that too.. Haha.. Everyone says I'm annoying. So I suppose I should've taken the hint and tried to become more tolerable, huh?
I'm really sorry I mean it. I'm an immature obnoxious child who doesn't know how to cope with anything. I really don't deserve any help I get. And I swear I won't ever bother you or Harry ever again. I'm just.. I'm really sorry, and I hope some day you can forgive me.
[ Her eyes burn and she starts to cry quietly. God its no wonder everyone she meets ends up hating her. Not many of them know anything thats actually happened. But maybe thats better. Yeah. Its better for them to just think she's obnoxious and immature, then for them to know anything. Because then they'd most likely hate her more.
But truth is, she is a mess. She's 18 goddamn years old and she still acts like a confused child. She's just scared, thats all. Oh dear god shes scared. She's scared of Lovi and Harry and loneliness, and voices in her head and she wants all the fear and the sadness to go away. ]
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Fuck you! [He growls.] Don't you fucking dare leave, okay!? You are going to survive and you're going to stick with us and we're going to figure this bullshit out like fucking adults, okay!? I don't want to hear about how sorry you are or how much you hate yourself, it doesn't change anything! You didn't change anything, you just made life a little harder until I fix this for you because I am always the one who has to fix things, okay!? You're just wasting my time right now, I am not going to let you die on me and I am not going to let you hurt me even more by leaving! Alright!? I'm going to give you a happy ending whether you want to help me with it or not!!
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[ She's a piece of shit. ]
I'm a burden. You've pretty much stressed that. I'm just questioning why you think its still a good idea to keep me around, although you've already said things would be harder. ]
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[He groans and taps his foot on the ground. And after a moment he grabs Miku's arm and tugs on her.]
We're going outside. I want you in the ER as soon as possible, like I said, you are not dying. And when you're healthy I'll talk to you but not until then. Understand?
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