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the woman with no name ([personal profile] bottecellie) wrote in [community profile] bakerstreet2012-03-18 12:30 pm

The Morning After Meme (Expanded)

the morning after
┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ a meme
→ COMMENT WITH YOUR CHARACTER'S NAME, FANDOM, AND PREFERENCE.
→ PICK A CHARACTER YOU WANT TO TAG AND HIT UP RNG (01-10), OR CHOOSE A SCENE OF YOUR OWN.
→ PLAY NICE; NO WANK, FLAMES, OR GENERAL HUMBUGGERY.
┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ the scenarios
BREAKFAST IN BED: YOUR PARTNER'S UP AND ABOUT -- MAYBE DRESSED, MAYBE NOT -- AND IN THE KITCHEN. WHAT ARE THEY MAKING YOU? COULD IT BE... GRILLED CHEESE?
HIT ME BABY: THEY'RE SUCH A PEACEFUL SLEEPER. A PEACEFUL, SEXY SLEEPER. ACTUALLY THERE'S TOO MUCH OF THAT SLEEPING HAPPENING. WHY DON'T YOU WAKE THEM UP, WORLD'S KINDEST ALARM?
ESCAPE FROM AZKABED: YOU WAKE UP TO FIND THEY'RE RUMMAGING ABOUT FOR THEIR CLOTHES, ABOUT TO LEAVE. WHY THE RUSH, AND CAN YOU CONVINCE THEM TO STAY?
THE AFTERNOON AFTER: AND THE EVENING, MAYBE EVEN THE MORNING AFTER AFTER... HOURS HAVE PASSED BUT YOU JUST CAN'T LEAVE EACH OTHER! OR MAYBE ONE OF YOU JUST WON'T...
HANGOVER FROM HELL: THERE'S A TIGER IN THE CLOSET, A BABY IN THE BATHROOM, AND A TOTAL STRANGER CURLED UP BESIDE YOU. WHO IS THIS PERSON BESIDE YOU SMELLING OF TEQUILA AND REGRET? DO THEY KNOW ANY MORE ABOUT WHAT, OR WHO, WENT DOWN THAN YOU DO?
WET AND WILD: DON'T FEEL TOO LONELY WAKING UP BY YOURSELF -- THE SHOWER'S ON AND THE SOUND OF WATER FALLING IS MIGHTY INVITING. WHY DON'T YOU GET CLEANED UP -- OR DOWN AND DIRTY ALL OVER AGAIN?
I'LL SLEEP WHEN I DIE: SLEEP? WHAT IS THIS SLEEP THING YOU SPEAK OF? DAWN'S BREAKING AND NEITHER OF YOU HAVE GOTTEN A WINK, OR WANT ONE. WHO'S READY FOR ROUND asjldkjl?
A BITTER PILL: TURNS OUT THE REASON YOU SCORED WASN'T YOUR SPARKLING WIT AND MAGNETIC CONFIDENCE. YOUR PARTNER HAD AN ULTERIOR MOTIVE -- THEY ALREADY KNEW IT, AND YOU'RE ABOUT TO. RECON? REVENGE? REBOUND? TAG AND FIND OUT, IF YOU CAN HANDLE THE TRUTH!
THIS ISN'T MINE: THAT SLEEPY PERSON IN YOUR LIVING ROOM HAD A GREAT NIGHT -- WITH YOUR ROOMMATE. WELL, MIGHT AS WELL GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER WHILE YOU'RE BOTH THERE, RIGHT? ... RIGHT?
WILD CARD: ROLL MORE THAN ONCE AND COMBINE SCENARIOS, CHOOSE YOUR FAVOURITE, OR MAKE UP YOUR OWN!

Stolen from here.
hystericull: (hap...py? ♑ honkHONKhonk)

[personal profile] hystericull 2012-03-28 06:48 am (UTC)(link)
[Gamzee's fingers had weaved themselves surprisingly neatly through Eridan's pushed-back locks, hooking around them in desperation and tugging the boy down to meet every roll of his hips. That hot tongue felt invasive and amazing as it flitted over every inch of him, causing his feral exclamations to grow even louder and louder.

He chanced a glance down, and immediately regretted it. His own legs, his own junk - he'd seen it a million times, but he'd seen it considerably less with Eridan bent between them in such a salacious fashion. He couldn't take his eyes off of him - pairing the sight of those jade-flushed cheeks, that mouth streaked indigo, and those fingers at work, with the sensations they created sent a pressure building inside of him he could no longer hope to fight off.

Claws that had dug into a tender scalp released themselves, and Gamzee pulled a shaky hand back to slip around Eridan's, wordlessly and forcibly instructing him to hasten the pace on his slickened bulge, which twitched and throbbed urgently in response. He pressed his feet down into the soaked sheets, twisting the remaining hand around Eridan's hair and greedily pressing his nook up against the warm pressure of that cruel tongue. His breaths were coming short and sharp now, nearing ever closer to that climax he'd tried to put off for so long.]
chronomancer: (♒ the show must go on)

[personal profile] chronomancer 2012-03-28 07:03 am (UTC)(link)
[Gamzee's fingers tugging along his own broke the weak illusion and forcefully dragged him back into the present, into the reality of what he was doing. He shivered, burying a low, rumbling groan into the wet, indigo folds under his tongue, as something hot and desperate curled up and down his spine. He tightened his grip on Gamzee's bulge, following his lead when it came to speed, and he couldn't help but shudder at the thought that it had just been inside him. That bulge had fucked him into keening and now he was jerking it off.

God, he was a sick, sick fuck because the idea only served to make his own bulge twitch and protest the neglect it'd been subjected to. Eridan continued to ignore it, using the fingers of his free hand to pry Gamzee's nook open and sliding his tongue deeper in, ignoring the trail of indigo down his chin. All in good time, yes. All in good time.]
hystericull: (hap...py? ♑ honkHONKhonk)

[personal profile] hystericull 2012-03-28 08:21 am (UTC)(link)
Ah, fuck, Eridan. S-shit, I'm-- Fuck, FUCK yes--

[Gamzee was a balled-up tangle of nerve-endings and pulsating heat, rocking carelessly against Eridan's mouth in a frenzied attempt to elicit a harder fuck out of his tongue. He wanted it deeper inside of him, he wanted it harder and faster and deeper and God damnit did his tongue feel fantastic but he needed so desperately to get fucked that he was whining through his teeth and slamming his hips up to meet the grip on his bulge, faster and faster until the nearly-electric currents of pleasure cut off all the control Gamzee had over his own body. They built and built until he couldn't take it a second longer, giving up and letting that explosive, immobilizing chaos overwhelm him completely.]

Ahh-- ah- I-- f--

[He couldn't even manage a warning better than that, because he was gone - jerking and spasming, throwing his head back with the force of a crazy, warbled, bleating moan. His eyes slammed shut, rolling back behind his eyelids until he screamed all the air out of his lungs and felt all of that sick fluid force its way out of him for a second time, coming just as powerfully as the first.]

[Oh, motherfuck. Eridan was right under him. Hope you enjoy your choking mouthful of genetic material, Jadebro. That tiny mouth was definitely not as big as a pail, and if Gamzee wasn't so busy giving himself a coronary, he'd probably feel a little bad for putting him through that. What the fuck was he saying, it was hot as hell.]
chronomancer: (♒ empty spaces)

[personal profile] chronomancer 2012-03-28 08:42 am (UTC)(link)
[He tried to pull away, when he felt Gamzee spasm and begin to gush, but he found the hand on his hair wouldn't budge. He closed his eyes and shuddered. It was humiliating and filthy and terrible and pretty much just like the first time Gamzee brought him to orgasm without letting him have the decency of a pail. Except there was indigo everywhere, but mostly on his face, and Eridan could feel his bulge twitching and his nook clenching and oh. Oh fuck.

Don't lick your lips, don't lick your lips, don't lick your lips, don'tlickyourlips--

He whimpered when it was over, loud, labored breaths ghosting over the indigo folds even then he had an unrelenting urge to lick some more. It wasn't even that he was fond of the taste at all. It was just the knowledge of what he was doing and to whom that made his toes curl. He was so turned rutting against the sodden sheets seemed like an acceptable form of reaching orgasm.]
hystericull: (happy/serious ♑ oPeN wIdE mOtHeRfUcKeR)

[personal profile] hystericull 2012-03-28 10:19 am (UTC)(link)
[Completely spent and lacking even the most basic energy to get up and go help his flushmate out, Gamzee struggled to push himself up on to his elbows, gulping air back into his lungs and opening his mouth to offer the sincerest of apologies, before promptly snapping it shut because well. Eridan didn't exactly seem to be put off by being covered in that indigoop, now, did he? In fact, he was practically licking it off of his face willingly.

Which, motherfuck of all motherfucks, if Gamzee hadn't already climaxed his brains out - twice - he'd be pretty fucking turned on at the sight of it. And he noticed something else, as well. He was being pretty fucking observant at this precise moment, truth be told. Now was the perfect time to exact a little revenge on this pitiful, most wonderful of boys.

Fighting the urge to curl up and rest his still-racing heart, Gamzee leaned forward, simultaneously running a hand up Eridan's drenched side and pulling his tongue up his neck, licking his own mess off of him, and making a scene of getting it absolutely everywhere.]


Your bulge be makin' it all to seeming like you got your motherfucking pleasure on at bein' my filthy fuckin' bucket, Jadebro.

[He pushed Eridan gently, shifting him so he was upright, both on their knees. Gamzee practically purred into his ear, a sharp, dirty edge to it.]

Y'know, I ain't all to be objectin' what's much to usin' one if you'll all to be like, motherfucking volunteering for the position, I fuckin' think.
chronomancer: (05)

[personal profile] chronomancer 2012-03-28 10:47 am (UTC)(link)
[Eridan whimpered at the words, shivering as his entire body twisted and shook in Gamzee's hold. Goddamn that tongue and the way it made him shiver when it landed on his skin, it numbed his brain enough he didn't resist the way Gamzee shifted him around. But then the words registered and Eridan's face burned. It was a very particular flavor of shame, that, it was mingled in equal parts with excitement and lust. Eridan groaned in retaliation, before one of his hands shot out to grab a horn and tilt Gamzee's head back.]

You would like that, wouldn't you. You just like to see indigo seeping everywhere.

[The accusation would probably carry more weight if his voice weren't airy and rough and his other arm weren't wrapped around Gamzee's waist, pulling him close to him.]
hystericull: (happy ♑ hEaRt)

[personal profile] hystericull 2012-03-28 11:09 am (UTC)(link)
[He was so, so tired. He wanted to wrap his arms around Eridan, drag him under some - preferably dry - covers and kiss him innocently until they both fell asleep. Until he heard that whimper, saw that burning jade on Eridan's face, and got his head jarred back sharply. Then he was back. Not nearly ready to go anymore, but at least energized enough to keep up the bawdy talk. He snickered under that firm grasp on his horn, peering down at Eridan from his skewed angle.]

Motherfucking love to get my see on of it, for fuckin' what's all certain. Long as it's all over your fucking face.

[He tried wriggling his head free, to no avail. He settled for running the pads of his thumbs up the inside of Eridan's thighs as he was tugged closer, eventually getting them rubbing against the base of his bulge and smearing that jade up the length of it.]

Like it even the fuck more when I all know you're to be motherfucking wanting it all over you.

[He trailed all of his fingers back down Eridan's bulge, then back up, caressing it tantalizingly instead of working to pleasure him properly. He moved so he had Eridan's thighs between his.]

You gonna fuck me with this now, my dirtiest of motherfucking bitches?
chronomancer: (♒ but my smile still stays on)

[personal profile] chronomancer 2012-03-28 11:25 am (UTC)(link)
Fuck.

[That was, generally speaking, Eridan's usual reaction to Gamzee being Gamzee. Be it in frustration or fondness or exasperation or sheer, mind blowing lust. He tugged on that horn harder, just so he could lean in and bite on his throat, sinking his teeth into the welts he'd left there before. Eridan closed his eyes as Gamzee's fingers played with his bulge, his goddamn mouth still moving, still spewing the worst possible things to say and still driving him crazy.]

Yes, I fucking am goin' to fuck you, until you shut up.

[The words were growled into the skin of Gamzee's neck, jaw clenching and unclenching around the words. And then he shoved the goddamn smug juggalo down, into the messy bed. Fuck the bed, might be easier to just set the whole thing on fire and replace it than attempt to clean it, those stains were never going to be removed. Eridan bit down again as he ground his hips down, every limb shaking with unspent energy.]
hystericull: (happy ♑ hEaRt!)

[personal profile] hystericull 2012-03-28 11:46 am (UTC)(link)
[He tried his hardest to latch on to the spark of heat that lit him up at the rough tug of his horn, at those fangs in his throat, but he was just so absolutely worn out, it flitted away as soon as it had come. That didn't stop him from groaning at the pain, and also at the thought of Eridan's teeth sinking into his already-wounded neck.]

Gonna have to get pretty motherfucking nasty to all get this brother to be clamping his fuckin' chute, bro. Hahahaha!

[Gamzee's laughter was cut off by being forced on to his back, and that sharp, jagged fire seared his throat once more, pulling a pained growl out with it. His hands clawed their way down to Eridan's hips, sinking into them as they crushed downwards. Gamzee untangled their legs only to tangle them again, hooking his around the backs of Eridan's, leaving him wide open and wrapped around the other. Even if he'd already had his fill, he was still a damn slut, and, hell, he wanted to watch his lovely jade boy fuck him until he shut up, too. He arched his neck, giving Eridan plenty more room if he needed to re-anchor himself, reveling in the pain.]
chronomancer: (♒ the show must go on yeah)

[personal profile] chronomancer 2012-03-28 12:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[And then... and then there was Gamzee, veritable slut, insatiable fucker, Gamzee. Spread out under him, quipping and taunting and offering. Fuck. fuck. Eridan let out a frustrated, needy sound, muffled into that wounded neck, as he sank into well-spent warmth. He shuddered. Gamzee was slick, and the reason for that slickness was still pretty much everywhere in his skin. One of Eridan's hands dug into what remained of the torn, soggy sheets, holding up some of his weight, while the other grabbed onto that horn like a lifeline.

And then he started moving. Messy, uncontrolled thrusts, all but flat out rutting into Gamzee, careless and desperate. His mouth moved upwards as he gained momentum, not that he really needed much. His teeth fastened on the skin under Gamzee's ear, fierce and demanding. And then he started hissing.]

I don't need to be nasty, Gamzee. All I need is to tell you how much I love how nasty you are.
hystericull: (happy ♑ EyYyYyY)

[personal profile] hystericull 2012-03-28 12:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[It was probably not the time at all to be thinking about this, as Eridan was coming completely undone and bucking against him with no obvious pace or rhythm, but Gamzee had come to realize that he was completely and utterly smitten with this boy. Here he was, fair enough, ever the "veritable slut", he wore that title well. And for as much as Eridan was breaking out of that modest shell and surrendering to his most primal of desires, there was a part of Gamzee that didn't want him to lose his moral self entirely. Eridan was the respectable one, the responsible one, and Gamzee was more than happy to be his toy, laying under him and taking his bulge even though he'd been drained brainless multiple times.

Hell, he'd do it all for Eridan even if he didn't come a single time. Just the thought of watching him and feeling his momentum building and hearing his breath start to hitch was enough to get him to open his fucking legs obediently. He wasn't a slut in the sense that he sought out pleasure from everyone - he'd die before even considering infidelity - but he was sick, and the fact that Eridan held on to his self by saying those words brought Gamzee some tremendous comfort.

Those urgent thrusts and gnashing teeth earned Eridan some moans, and Gamzee trailed his arms up to wrap around Eridan's back. His voice was uneven from the force in which he was being shaken, and from the small twangs of pleasure that still managed to hit him at random intervals.]


I know. I fuckin' know you love it, I fucking do. I'll be as nasty as you all ever want me to motherfucking be.

[He drew a leg up, brushing it against Eridan's side, because he knew how fucking much he loved to move his jadebro's legs around when their positions were reversed. Felt fucking amazing, it did. As creepily flexible as ever, that leg kept going, pulling up and hooking around the arm Eridan had rooted in the mattress.]
chronomancer: (♒ the show must go on)

[personal profile] chronomancer 2012-03-28 12:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[The shift of angle dragged a garbled moan out of his throat, and he felt his eyes slid shut. Gamzee was nimble and flexible to the point Eridan often wondered if his joints were actually joined to anything. He breathed shallowly, trembling as he slowly unraveled into a single point of heat and need between his legs, cradled in the body he clung to.

He came with a choked whine, quiet as he always at the end, when there wasn't enough air to keep his lungs full and his mind was too busy processing pleasure to bother with anything else. He collapsed into Gamzee's body like a boneless heap of pleasure-drunk nerve-endings and hopelessly filthy skin. He moaned quietly, utterly undone, but still holding onto that horn. It wasn't a possessive grip, though. It was the reassurance that he wasn't alone, the certainty that he wouldn't let go.

He was so many marvelously hideous things, and no one but Gamzee would ever know.]
hystericull: (happy ♑ hEaRt)

[personal profile] hystericull 2012-03-28 08:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Mmmm, mhmmm...

[Gamzee mumbled little encouraging noises as he felt Eridan getting closer, locking his leg around that arm and running his palms down the boy's back, coaxing him over the edge and enjoying the rippling tense of muscle as he finally did so. That sudden, forceful gasp made his skin prickle, and he dragged his hand gently across Eridan's back, shoulder, up to his neck to simply cradle his head there.

Gamzee's own body tensed involuntarily as he felt himself being filled up, bending his legs and scrunching his toes even though there wasn't much pleasure left to be wrung out of him. A satisfied grunt forced its way out from between his lips, followed by a heavy sigh when Eridan settled against him, forcing him to get his leg out of there and shift it back down to tangle in the jadeblood's.

He could feel his heart pounding, slow and hard against his chest, against Eridan. The hand curled around his horn kept him here, kept him safe. It kind of scared him to think about, but as long as Eridan was holding on like that, it meant he wanted him here. It meant that Gamzee didn't have to go just yet. It meant that, right now, he wasn't alone, either.]
chronomancer: (♒ to take it anymore)

[personal profile] chronomancer 2012-03-28 10:16 pm (UTC)(link)
You're terrible. The absolute worse.

[Eridan's voice was little more than a hoarse, tiny whisper against Gamzee's throat. His eyes remained stubbornly closed, and he refused to move even an inch off his comfortable spot.]

Positively hideous, I just wanted a shower.

[He peppered tiny kisses on the skin under his lips, smiling stubbornly.]

I love you.
hystericull: (sad ♑ hOnK dEsPoNdEnTlY.)

[personal profile] hystericull 2012-03-29 01:13 am (UTC)(link)
[Gamzee leaned his head back contentedly as Eridan insulted him. He was teasing, of course, and it made a small smile crack back across his lips. The quips rumbled against his neck, forcing him to fight back a few giggles caused by the tickling sensation.

He was about to form a quick retort of his own, honest, but then little points of warmth were blooming against his throat, kind and loving and not at all like the ravenous, lust-driven bites from before. Gamzee could feel his eyes droop at that tender heat, nuzzling his hand gently against Eridan's face and neck and losing himself in deep, drowning adoration.

The most common of phrases, the most heavy. One he hadn't heard nearly enough in his life, and one that could send him into a mess of nerves and ecstasy and terror and delight all at once. And it'd been a long while, and he'd heard it more and more, but when there was no other context but that, it was hard to escape the rush of feelings that usually were pretty good about not accompanying it.

Gamzee's eyes fell closed and his smile dwindled, letting a shaky, small breath out of his nose. Eridan knew what it used to do to him - he wondered if the boy knew exactly what it still made him feel. What Eridan made him feel.

He paused to make sure that hand was still around his horn.]


I love you too, Eridan.

[He almost shuddered the response out, even going so far as to use Eridan's actual name instead of some inane moniker. Thankfully, he held on to some control by concentrating on circling his arms back around the boy, pulling him up just a bit more so Gamzee could feel his head in the crook of his neck.

He buried his face into that normally slicked-back hair, now tousled from the water and their motions, hoping to hide his burning face in it. It was times like these that he wanted his paint back on.]
chronomancer: (♒ to take it anymore)

[personal profile] chronomancer 2012-03-29 05:14 am (UTC)(link)
[Gamzee could be silly or irritating or frustrating or amusing or perplexing. Eridan would never dream to claim he understood everything his matespirit said or thought, but it was okay. Because when it came down to it, the most important thing that Gamzee always made him feel was that he belonged. He belonged between long, thin arms, curled up against his body. He belonged there, it was his place, it was okay.

Eridan rumbled contently into his neck, pliant. It should scare him, probably, how much he was willing to do if Gamzee asked him to. Then again, was it really that surprising? He was much the same about Feferi. Maybe he was just destined to give in to anything his quadrantmates wanted. He let Gamzee shift him about with the same ease he let Gamzee talk him into the strangest things, willing to bend and twist so long as he was happy.

His toes curl a little at the sound of his name, and the only point of tension in his entire body was his shoulder, because he still refused to let go of that horn. The rest of him was pliable and willing to go wherever Gamzee saw fit. He was getting drowsy, exhaustion catching up with him and muddling up his brain. Eyes closed, he offered a pity-filled smile.]

Love you lots, felt like reminding you.
hystericull: (serious/sad ♑ ...)

[personal profile] hystericull 2012-03-30 06:03 am (UTC)(link)
[And Eridan had been the sweetest thing Gamzee had ever known. A mountain of nerves and uncertainty and guilt, but so collected and selfless. He wished sometimes that he had the strength to shoulder all of the weight Eridan had managed to. Many times had he tried to help him carry that burden of his, and many times had he failed to do so. As Eridan wanted to do things for Gamzee, Gamzee had wanted to do everything for Eridan. He didn't want him to hurt any more. He didn't want his precious boy to have that nagging darkness in the back of his mind, always hanging on and never letting him go. It broke Gamzee's heart to realize that, no matter how hard he tried, no matter how much he kissed or held or talked with him, nothing he did seemed to make that pain completely disappear. And whenever he thought about that, he felt the dull, stabbing twang of inadequacy.

Of course, these thoughts weren't as streamlined in his brain. He didn't know how to express them, and he didn't even really understand the extent of these feelings. Only that he didn't feel like he was doing enough, and he didn't know how to do what he wanted so badly to do.

But then he saw him like this - so seemingly content and comfortable, giving Gamzee a look he treasured. A look he knew was meant only for him, and it made him feel safe. Infinitely happy, infinitely loved and infinitely whole. He dipped his head down to kiss the exposed edges of Eridan's lips, pressing against them so gently with his own. The air between them was warm, it smelled of them both and tasted of Eridan and felt like a dream because the edges around them suddenly seemed very blurred, and Eridan's lips were soft... always so soft... against his. And he didn't want to move at all.]


Love you what's even more, my starshine. So much motherfucking more.
chronomancer: (♒ inside my heart is breaking)

[personal profile] chronomancer 2012-03-30 06:47 am (UTC)(link)
[Eridan relished in the words, relished in the closeness, the warmth. His chest rumbled a soft sound into Gamzee's lips as he finally relaxed his hold on his horn, but adamantly refused to let go completely.

He was safe there, lying in a tangled mess of limbs, exhausted and content. And nothing outside the room seemed to matter much at all. Gamzee held him and loved him and for a few precious moments, everything was alright. Everything was fine. He made peace with himself because it was impossible not to, with the highblood tangling his fingers in his hair, his lips on his, his words curling lazily inside his skull. It wouldn't last, though, because it never did. At some point, it would all dissipate like wisps of smoke in the wind, and reality would settle back in. Eridan would remember and Eridan would mourn and Eridan would move on, always forward, never look back.

But he liked to think it was these moments that gave him the strength to go on. That there was a meaning and a purpose to everything that happened and that it'd eventually be alright. At some point it would be over. And then he would be able to just... fall into the arms of those he loved the most, penitence fulfilled. He shifted just enough to be comfortable, curling up against Gamzee's body.]

...thank you.
hystericull: (sad ♑ uGhHh...)

[personal profile] hystericull 2012-03-30 09:02 am (UTC)(link)
[This was home. This was home in every sense and every allusion of the word, with Eridan curling against him, feeling his warmth and his presence drawing nearer, nearer still until they couldn't get closer to each other at all. Never before had Gamzee wanted to believe that something he held so very dearly to him would never drift away. Never did he want to imagine having to watch Eridan retreat from him, until he was just a distant shape on the horizon, and maybe he had disappeared hours ago, and maybe his eyes were playing tricks on him, and maybe then he'd realize he was really gone, and Gamzee was truly alone again. Truly abandoned again.

And then he would wait.

He would wait and stare and mourn for him, not knowing if he would return for him, not knowing if he'd done something wrong. But... Eridan wouldn't do that. He wouldn't. He couldn't. Gamzee's arms tightened their hold, clutching almost as possessively to Eridan as Eridan had gripped his horn. They needed each other. They needed each other so badly that it was hurting them, neither quite aware of how much it was affecting the other.

Gamzee didn't want that fear, that dread, to plague this perfect moment. But it was always there, lurking like a being truly detestable, scratching around the depths of his pan to remind him that there was in him a fatal flaw. Something unknown that was wrong with him that had made him unwanted by everything he'd ever tried to love, and he truly feared the day Eridan would discover what it was. For now he would give and give, everything he had until he had nothing left, anything he could do to make the boy want to stay with him, because being left behind again would shatter him.]


Thank you, sweetest of jades. You all got any idea what you're to be fuckin' meaning to me?
chronomancer: (♒ but my smile still stays on)

[personal profile] chronomancer 2012-03-30 09:32 am (UTC)(link)
I... might have a slight idea.

[Eridan smiled against Gamzee's skin, wallowing in the strange sensation of being wanted and loved and cherished. Most of all, forgiven. So at some point his brain will kick back and reboot and he'll remember Gamzee probably forgives him because Gamzee has never really seen the hideousness he's truly committed. That even though he's told him, he'll never be able to show him and truly make him understand. But here and now it didn't matter. Here and now he basked in it, the sweet words and the gentle hands and the precise tone of Gamzee's voice when he was quiet and soft and perfect. It was only in the spirit of such feelings that he could say something like this:]

Tell me anyway?
hystericull: (confused ♑ :o)a)

[personal profile] hystericull 2012-03-30 10:21 am (UTC)(link)
Mmmm...

[That felt good to hear. Gamzee was glad he'd been able to show him how much he adored him, at least even a little. Fuck, that sounded creepy. He was probably coming on a little too strong. Oh, God, who the fuck was he kidding, he always came on a little too strong.

He snickered quietly at that, nuzzling his nose and lips against Eridan's some more.]


You sure you all be wanting to get your hear on of this shit? Noise gets all motherfucking sorts of crazy sloppy once it gets all fuckin' started. Ain't too easy to shut it the fuck off once it start, neither.

[He was keeping himself afloat by making light of his feelings. Because honestly, he wasn't one to dwell. He really wasn't. There were some parts of him that wouldn't stay down, couldn't be ignored, but along with that was the Gamzee he was, the Gamzee he wanted to be and the one he presented as fact because it was fact. The stupid, silly little clown chock full of impulsive snuggles and honks. There's a darkness in everyone, but it's their own choice whether or not they want to let it define them, and he sure as hell didn't want to give his the time of fucking day.]
chronomancer: (♒ what are we looking for)

[personal profile] chronomancer 2012-03-30 10:31 am (UTC)(link)
[Eridan trailed his hand down from Gamzee's horn finally, trailing it down to the side of his face, fingers brushing against clean skin lightly. Eridan opened his eyes to look up at Gamzee with undiluted adoration, like he was the center of his universe. And he was, he was. There were two suns around which Eridan orbited diligently, his Moirail and his Matespirit. Two sets of equally consuming, yet very different feelings. He didn't know restraint, not really, when it came to his quadrantmates. He brushed his fingers over Gamzee's cheek again and again, encouragingly.]

Lay it on me, bro, I can take it.

[He could. And if he couldn't, he'd make himself able to. It was just the way things went.]
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[personal profile] hystericull 2012-03-30 11:09 am (UTC)(link)
O-okay. Uhhh...

[Oh. Oh, good. Now was a great time to lose face. Yeah, real helpful. He hadn't actually thought of what he was going to say, so he stumbled for a second, concentrating on those gentle movements against his cheek and letting them guide his mind back to where he'd started.

It probably was for the best that he hadn't planned anything out, because that wasn't how he rolled, anyway. Better to have the feelings come right from your pusher than from your pan. He brought his eyes up slowly to meet that adoring gaze, and suddenly he felt that all of the things he'd been keeping to himself this whole time, well, it had been very unlike him. He should have been telling Eridan everything whenever he felt it, lest the boy believe Gamzee's feelings didn't run as deep as they actually did.]


Like... the way you all be lookin' at me like what's the fuck right now?

[He paused briefly, bringing a hand to Eridan's face and running a cool thumb over his forehead, down his temple.]

Ain't never all had a motherfucker to be goin' up and all gettin' their glancing on at me in like, such a motherfucking fashion. An' I know you're all to be knowing that wicked shit already, but...

[He paused again, but no action punctuated this silence.]

...but it gets a brother to feel real nice when he ain't ever was to be motherfucking thinking no one was all ever going to be lookin' at him in a way like that.

[His eyes flicked down sheepishly for just a second, then came right back to Eridan's. Yeah, that felt a little hard to admit, but it wasn't terrible. He'd plow through it.]

So like, when I all was first to be fallin' all lugbone-perpendicular-to-motherfucking-footsleeves for you, not that I've been ever too motherfucking keen on getting the mystical wear on of motherfuckers like those or nothing, but, uh...

[Oh fuck, oh fuck, what was he saying, again...? He took an exasperated breath in, closing his eyes and pressing his forehead to Eridan's.]

I was scared you weren't all gonna love me back. 'Cause no motherfucker ever does the shit that way when Gamzee gets his fuckin' pity on all hard for 'em. But you just been so fuckin' kind to me, Jadebro. Like you all really pity me and shit. And like, to all have someone who's at being the stars and moons in your motherfucking world be all actin' like you might be what's the same in theirs...

[He smiled gently. It was hardly a good explanation of his deepest and purest of devotions, but it managed to scratch the surface.]

it feels like maybe I got the most motherfucking precious thing I all could ever be hoping to fuckin' finding, it fuckin' does.
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[personal profile] chronomancer 2012-03-30 11:36 am (UTC)(link)
[Eridan shivered and closed his eyes as he soaked in the words. He let out a soft sound, his hand curling in the hair behind Gamzee's ear, trying to pet him comfortingly. He swallowed hard.]

I was terrified.

[His voice was small and hoarse and barely above a stolen whisper.]

I was so terrified. You were the single most pitiful troll I've ever met, Gamzee. You still are. And I love you so much and what if I fucked it up. What if I was wrong and I ruined everything and made you hate me? I don't have it in me to hate you, not that way, not any way.

[He swallowed hard again, shivering.]

What if I was just imagining things, what if you didn't really pity me and were just being nice and I was just... just making up things that weren't really there.

[He leaned in to press a soft kiss to the corner of Gamzee's mouth.]

Maybe you're not my moons and my stars, but you're my sun. So bright and warm and mine.
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[personal profile] hystericull 2012-04-03 03:23 am (UTC)(link)
[Gamzee understood those words. He did, so help him God, he understood them. His moons and his stars, the same ones he stared at night after night of his meaningless, wonderful, detached, and glorious life, they were his only companions sometimes. A tangible omnipotence when he needed something more to help him immerse himself in beliefs of a more mystical future for him. For everyone. As he had lived under those moons, Eridan had lived under the sun. It was a sentiment he could appreciate, and it made him flush all over, stroking Eridan's face again and pushing a few strands of hair back out of those jade eyes.]

They was never not there, brother. Them pity feelings, I fuckin' mean. For you. Always had 'em, even if I wasn't to all fuckin' be gettin' my understand on of them proper. I like being yours.

[He smiled, laughing a little to himself because damn he really never could understand his feelings. Who he was flushed for, who he was pale for; he was pretty sure he'd never had any black feelings, but who the hell really knew? Until, you know, now, when he was absolutely smitten. It was hard to be confused until someone reciprocated. To not know if your heart was hurting or if it actually wasn't, or if it was even justifiable to feel that way at all.

But, he didn't have to worry about that anymore. And that's why he felt it might be okay now, to laugh at it.]


You ain't got to worry, not at all. Nothing you all do is gonna ever make me wanna get my motherfucking split on from you. Ever.

[That felt a little overwhelming. Maybe he should have toned it down a little.]

I never seen you fuck the shit all up like you're always to be saying you do, but even if you all get at doing the biggest motherfucking fuck up anyone's all ever got their wicked sights on of...

[He returned that kiss. They were a mess of kisses, back and forth with those innocent things.]

Even if that happens, this motherfucker ain't ever gonna stop getting his pity on at you. I'm always gonna be right motherfucking by you, bro. 'Cause it's all where I motherfucking belong.

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