( there's an inordinate, weirdly long delay before marc replies, mostly on the basis of his first thought of a response — "I wasn't even sure he was real for 80% of the time I've been moon knight" — just invites questions about 'so why moon knight at all?' and that's a great question, he doesn't want to answer it. )
( marc has SOME REGRETS about the turn of the conversation on the basis of one of his issues had been to do with the apparent indifference and silence of God.
jewish, not christian, but you know. )
On the appeal of names? Be serious.
Anyway, Khonshu's a miserable bastard. That's a question I do have answered.
—the second part is also not quite what he meant, and by all metrics it manages to be less important but far more appealing to tackle conversationally, so... )
No. When I call him a miserable bastard, I mean he's an asshole. ( and miserable to marc. as in, makes marc's life miserable. ) You don't get to be a god of vengeance and not find satisfaction in the work.
( unfortunately, just because bucky asks, it doesn't mean marc's inclined to reply, particularly given— )
What contract? I died. He brought me back. There was no discussion about what that'd entail, no promise made, no negotiation, just debt and duty passed on. A promise that in return for life, Marc Spector would be his fist. That's it.
And he's made it clear enough that he could stop bringing me back any time he wants.
( jesus. an undocumented contract is basically like the worst situation to end up in. he doesn't want marc getting screwed over by khonshu either, though. damnit— )
so you just keep to yourself and mind your own to keep him happy as a clam or whatever his version of that is
( got it. )
sorry, I figured with how most everyone else's I've heard about it must have been similar for you
( in fairness, marc has not even once considered that there might have been a single opportunity for negotiation or documentation. in many respects, he considers it what he deserves — he regrets it, yes, but at the same time, if he'd died in selima, the desert, he'd have died a man without a single good thing to his name.
marc spector may not have done much good since, but he's tried — and apparently, whether he agrees or not, that's worth something. )
I do my job.
( it's not the same thing, and quite what it looks like depends entirely on marc's mental state. )
How many other people do you know are avatars of extraterrestrial beings?
( marc definitely does good, as far as bucky's concerned. but he knows it's down to how marc feels about it, more than anything else. )
you do and you do it well
( in bucky's opinion. marc's a great guy, and even for what things do slip, it's just difficult to see it any other way. )
well technically none of them are bonded to extraterrestrials but I've heard about different contracts with demons and witches and stuff that's more Earth-bound
( moon knight and mr. knight do good. the things that go wrong, marc tends to play squarely on his shoulders, like he's separate from both moon knight and mr. knight, like they're not disguises and alter-egos in precisely the way he used to pretend steven grant and jake lockley were.
there is no real separation there, but it's an easy way for marc to delineate his self-loathing. )
That's not always a good thing.
(bonded. well, that's a horrible way of phrasing it. thank you, bucky, marc hates it.
even if it fits.
probably because it fits. )
It's not worth the comparisons. Bonds can be broken, contracts have an end date. ( marc has never really thought about how this ends, not beyond the way that he's felt empty and unmoored every time he's thought khonshu's abandoned him, not beyond he'll just stop bringing me back — but not the when of that'd be.
he thinks that's probably the difference with khonshu in jail on asgard: khonshu's not here, but marc knows it's far from the same thing as being left, that this time, it was his doing. )
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yeah I always found that a little on the noselike
did Khonshu pick you cause of your name? for all the moon imagery and such alsono subject
Khonshu doesn't tell me anything.
( and do you think marc asks? haha, of course not, why would he, that'd be a normal person thing to do. )
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have you asked??( because that would be the normal person thing to do. but also asking for details usually comes with contracts and pacts. so...?? )
1/2
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( is that an 'I asked and he wouldn't tell me'? or is that an 'I haven't asked and I'm coming up with a reason for it'?
time to guess, bucky, because he's not clarifying. )
the laugh i made seeing that first reply lmao
sounds like you haven't even tried to ask beforedoesn't he see you like a son or something? pretty sure he'd tell you things if you askedi'm glad, i love his dumb fucking faces
How was your relationship with your father?
same haha
oh, okay, wow. pointed redirection, there. )
it was okay? not bad by modern standards, I guesswhy?no subject
Because that's not how it works. You're looking at it in the wrong way.
He's a god.
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people ask the Christian God for shit all the timeI don't see how that's an issue??seems like that's exactly how it worksno subject
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some peoplesometimes
or so I hear
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jewish, not christian, but you know. )
On the appeal of names? Be serious.
Anyway, Khonshu's a miserable bastard. That's a question I do have answered.
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bucky isn't sure himself if it's indifference and silence or if it's more just being selective, though. but that's a different thing. )
okay I guess we do just refer to him as God and not like...by a name name so names probably don't matter to Him much eitherI mean if he's that miserable, can he likeretire and find a successor or something?
( look, he doesn't know how godhood works, man. he's just spit balling, here. maybe marc can contract with a more chill dude. )
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( but whatever, it's not important.
—the second part is also not quite what he meant, and by all metrics it manages to be less important but far more appealing to tackle conversationally, so... )
No.
When I call him a miserable bastard, I mean he's an asshole. ( and miserable to marc. as in, makes marc's life miserable. ) You don't get to be a god of vengeance and not find satisfaction in the work.
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clarify, then( because bucky is willing to ask for clarity, unlike someone else around here. )
I would have assumed the vengeance part isn't tied to getting vengeance on YOU thoughunless that's the contract you made??no subject
What contract?
I died.
He brought me back.
There was no discussion about what that'd entail, no promise made, no negotiation, just debt and duty passed on. A promise that in return for life, Marc Spector would be his fist.
That's it.
And he's made it clear enough that he could stop bringing me back any time he wants.
( on the matter of vengeance against marc. )
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so you just keep to yourself and mind your own to keep him happy as a clamor whatever his version of that is( got it. )
sorry, I figured with how most everyone else's I've heard about it must have been similar for youno subject
marc spector may not have done much good since, but he's tried — and apparently, whether he agrees or not, that's worth something. )
I do my job.
( it's not the same thing, and quite what it looks like depends entirely on marc's mental state. )
How many other people do you know are avatars of extraterrestrial beings?
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you doand you do it well
( in bucky's opinion. marc's a great guy, and even for what things do slip, it's just difficult to see it any other way. )
well technically none of them are bonded to extraterrestrials but I've heard about different contracts with demons and witches and stuff that's more Earth-boundno subject
there is no real separation there, but it's an easy way for marc to delineate his self-loathing. )
That's not always a good thing.
( bonded. well, that's a horrible way of phrasing it. thank you, bucky, marc hates it.
even if it fits.
probably because it fits. )
It's not worth the comparisons. Bonds can be broken, contracts have an end date. ( marc has never really thought about how this ends, not beyond the way that he's felt empty and unmoored every time he's thought khonshu's abandoned him, not beyond he'll just stop bringing me back — but not the when of that'd be.
he thinks that's probably the difference with khonshu in jail on asgard: khonshu's not here, but marc knows it's far from the same thing as being left, that this time, it was his doing. )
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