FEARbruary 😈

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🔪THE FEAR MEME 🩸 There are two kinds of fears, rational and irrational. Being afraid of realtors is an irrational fear. — Lemony Snicket, A Series of Unfortunate Events HOW TO PLAY: Comment with your character. In the body of your top-level, your character is forced to admit their biggest, darkest fear. Maybe they assumed no one was listening, or perhaps this is the work of a magical truth serum. Either way, it's out in the open now. Other characters can offer comfort, judgement, or probing psychological questions to delve into the root of this. An especially evil character might look for ways to exploit this newfound information... but you wouldn't do that, would you? Anything involving images, especially spooky images, should be linked and tagged.

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Bucky Barnes | MCU l ota

[endof_theline]

Forced into becoming the Winter Soldier again.

[ceptme]

...that a possibility we're worried about?

[endof_theline]

I wanna say no- the Wakandans helped remove my trigger words, HYDRA's been eradicated. But sometimes I wonder if he's still inside of me, and if the wrong people got a hold of me again.... I don't know.

[ceptme]

If it makes you feel any better, if it comes to that I'll take you out myself.

[endof_theline]

I really wish it was that easy.

[ceptme]

[Have a shadow of a grin] Never thought it was gonna be easy. But I love a challenge.

Nah, for real though, I get it. Ain't anythin' anyone can say that's gonna make a damn difference.

[endof_theline]

I'm glad that you do. But I'd hope you'd just stay the hell away from me.

I do everything I can so that it won't happen, but yeah. That fear is way too engrained in me now. It feels right on the surface every time I have a nightmare. Every time I feel like I lose control.

[ceptme]

Never thought I'd be glad of anythin' about my shit, but at least the fuckers mostly stayed outta my skull.

You ever lose it?

[endof_theline]

Mostly?

Feels like I do when I fall asleep. Like it's only the Winter Soldier up in m head.

[ceptme]

[He gives a wry shadow of a grin and taps a knuckle against his temple. The sound it produces is distinctly metallic] Mostly.

Don't sound like it makes for a decent night's sleep.

[endof_theline]

Not surprised you've got a hard head.

[Maybe a little joke.]

Most'a the time I just try not to.

[ceptme]

How long can you keep that up for? [He sounds honestly curious]

[endof_theline]

As the Winter Soldier I'd often go for many days without sleep. Sometimes up to a week.

These days...maybe three.

[ceptme]

Not too bad. It fuck up your reaction times any?

[endof_theline]

Now? Yeah, it would. Back then- I don't know. It was kind of impossible. I followed orders.

[ceptme]

Huh [He considers this information] That's fucked up.

[endof_theline]

That's pretty much everything that HYDRA was. That I was, really.