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[sarafina]

THING I'D CHANGE

Because nobody's perfect!

HOW TO PLAY
↺ Forget those blank comments, info in the subject, usual memes. In this meme, we use the subject line to put the one thing our characters would change about themselves whether they'd usually admit it to anyone or not. Their choice can be a physical, mental, or emotional one, a personality trait, a past mistake or choice, whichever's the most dramatic.
↺ Then: welcome to the peanut gallery! Everybody else comments.
↺ You know that's the meme.

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[maskirovka]

It never seems to make much of a difference in the end, does it?

[endof_theline]

You might think that caring more doesn't make that big of a difference, but caring less sure does.

[maskirovka]

Yeah, but it doesn't hurt as much, either.

[endof_theline]

You're right, it doesn't. And if you don't care at all, then nothing hurts and nothing matters.

[maskirovka]

Some days, I think I could live with that.

[ She's just having an off day. It happens every now and again. ]

[endof_theline]

It's not all it's cracked up to be. Believe me.

[maskirovka]

I do believe you. I'm just...tired of hurting all the time.

[endof_theline]

I'm sorry. I know that you are.

[maskirovka]

Wouldn't it be nice to have a button or something that can just switch it on and off?

[ At least she tries for humor, right? ]

[endof_theline]

Honestly? No.

[Sorry, Natasha.]

[maskirovka]

[ Gee, helpful. ]

...well, all right, then.

[endof_theline]

[ See, that's what happens when you've had it switched off for long enough. You forget how to be helpful. ]

Sorry. I'm just being honest.

[maskirovka]

I know. And I love you for it. I just get a little lost in my head sometimes. It's nothing, really.

[endof_theline]

It's not nothing. What were you thinking about?

[maskirovka]

Nothing specific. Promise.

[endof_theline]

Okay.

Do you wish you cared less when it comes to us?

[maskirovka]

...no. Never. You're the most important person in my entire life, James. [ She meets his gaze this time, serious. ] I mean that.

[endof_theline]

You're the most important person in my life too.

Sorry. I didn't mean to make it about us. I just- wanna make sure you don't feel stuck.

[maskirovka]

No, it's okay. A little reassurance now and then goes a long way, doesn't it?

[ For him, she'll smile, or at least try to. He's the last person she ever wants to worry. ]

[endof_theline]

[ He doesn't want her to force it. ]

Yeah. Is there anything I can do to help?

[maskirovka]

[ She's used to it. Which is, in fact, part of the reason she's so melancholy today. ]

You do enough for me, James, by just being here.

[endof_theline]

[ He doesn't want her to just be used to it, especially not with him. He also knows that he misstepped, though, and there really isn't anything he can do about it now. ]

Not if you're still feeling like this.

[maskirovka]

[ Unfortunately she doesn't have one of those mood-switching buttons. So, it is what it is for the duration. ]

It'll pass. It always does.

[endof_theline]

...Okay.

If you do ever wanna talk about it though, I'm here.

[maskirovka]

Spasibo, malyshka. I'm really glad that you are.