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Train to the Afterlife Meme

The Train to the Afterlife Meme

Congratulations: You are dead.

Maybe you know how, maybe you don't. Perhaps the memory is fuzzy, or perhaps it's crystal clear down to the look in your comrades' eyes. Maybe it was your time; you've done all you wanted to. Or maybe you weren't at all ready to go, maybe you went out kicking and screaming - but none of it matters. You know you're dead, and the train is taking you to an afterlife. Perhaps an afterlife of your choice; you might've earned that heaven. Or perhaps you've earned something else entirely.

It'll be a bit of a journey, though, so you might as well take your time and talk to the other people in your coach. Death knows no place: most of them are strangers, even from faraway worlds. But death knows no time either, so who knows, some of them may be people you know, even if last you knew, they were alive - or long gone.

Oh look, here comes the snack cart.

All the usual:

Post with your character's name and canon in the subject line.
Said character is now dead for whatever reason - canon, AU, what have you. They are on a train with other dead people from many other times, places and worlds.
Characters don't know for a fact where they're headed - just a general awareness that they're going to some kind of afterlife. Whatever they think it is is up to the player.
This meme is built especially for cross-canon interaction, and potentially for threadjacking and group threading - if you're interested, may be a good idea to state as much in your subject line.
Tag around and play nice!
TRIGGER WARNING: Meme obviously deals with death and may deal with other unpleasant themes as a result. Please be cautious.

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[ooc: Up for threadjacking? That thread with Lily is tempting...]

Running through a train like this had the side-effect of somehow always ending back where he'd started from. With an obvious new addition.

"Moony?!"

A blink, another, and about a hundred thoughts and feelings. But it all only managed to stop him for a few seconds before he crossed the distance between them and pulled his friend, lover, soulmate into a fierce hug.

"What took you so bloody long?"

The hug goes above and beyond what even a kiss could do right now, one hand running down his back, feeling his body, still too skinny, the other in his hair, fingers threaded through it. His lips are pressed against the top of his head, forming words he isn't sure to say out loud. His eyes squeezed shut tightly, as if to keep from crying.

It's not the man aged from years in prison and on the run that's hugging Remus, but a rather younger version, the way part of him had always stayed.

Quite suddenly he let go of him again and took a step back, frowning. "You're at least forty years too early, Remus." Never mind that it had still been too much time. His expression shifted, concerned. "How's Harry?"

[ OOC: XD Threadjack away]

"Sirius?"

He said, turning at the sound of that voice. No. It couldn't be. And then his former lover was hugging him. The man he'd loved with all his heart. The man he'd been heart broken over for years after his death.

"Had some things to do"

He said softly, his hand wrapped around Sirius's back tightly. As if he was scared he'd fall though his fingers and vanish.

He almost regretted as soon as Sirius took a step away from him. "Didn't exactly have a choice Padfoot" He said, folding his arms over his chest as he sighed. "He's doing what he has to do. But he's stronger".

[ ooc: I shall! *hurries to to so before dinner* ]

"Can't have been that important."

Sirius tried to be selfless for just a bit longer and tell himself that he didn't want to be seeing Remus already, not when it meant what it obviously did mean, but part inside him that had felt empty for too long was mending already and even as he stepped away, he reached out already for one hand to linger on Remus' hip.

"Stronger?! Stronger than bloody what? No one can be stronger than what people expect from him." But if anyone could do it, he knew, trusted, Harry could. He didn't want to have to see him for years to come.

Shaking his head, he caught Remus' eyes. "What were you up to since..." I fell behind that bloody curtain just didn't have the right ring to it and 'I died' seemed a bit insensitive to a man who had, well, just died, so he simply trailed off.

"You'd be surprised. Saving the world and all that. You would have been proud."

It was strange seeing Sirius like this. So much had happened between the last time they'd shared a bed together to Remus's death. He saw Sirius falling though that damn curtain again and again in his mind. It was hard to get over.

"He's exactly like James actually. He's braver then most people". He said, with a small smile. It had been a pleasure teaching him.

He stared back into the eyes for a moment before speaking. "I...I had a kid. With Tonks" He said. Those words had been hard to say. He loved Tonks. He did. But it was nothing compared to what he'd felt for Sirius. For so long.

"I'd be proud no matter what." But the wide grin more than gave away just how proud he was. He loved Harry as a son, they all did, he supposed.

For Sirius, time had passed strangely here and sometimes didn't seem to matter much at all. He couldn't help feeling immensely happy about his Remus being here, despite the obvious implication.

"That's right. True Gryffindor, that one." Also, as he realized in a rare moment of introspection, braver than him, at least braver in a good way, where Sirius' bravery often consisted to large parts of recklessness.

What Remus said next took him a while to even make sense of. He blinked several times, before finally just saying the first thing on his mind. "Bloody hell, Remus, that's my niece!"

He ran a hand through his hair, suddenly realizing that he had missed much more than he realized. "You... How? When?" The feelings inside him at that particular bit of news were very conflicted.

"I'm sure he knows that" he replied, chuckling at sight of that huge smile of Sirius's face. It was a long time since he'd seen that smile.

It was war. People died. They'd all know that going in. Even during the first war, there were nights when Sirius and Remus were together where Remus would be up all night, wondering if his boyfriend was going to actually come home in one piece and without that tired look in his eyes. Of course Remus had the same look.

"He even has a sword to prove it" he said with a little smile. Harry had been brave but they had been brave a lot longer for a lot longer time. Not everyone could take it. Peter for example.

He grimaced as Sirius finally reacted to his news. "She's my wife Sirius" He said, softly his eyes looking at the floor for the moment. "We got married after...You were gone for a while"

It was war, had been war. For Harry's sake, Sirius hoped that it would finally be over now. It had messed up one generation, it shouldn't do the same to the next, not more than it had already. Costing them friends and years of the life that should have been.

Now it was in the past, this was the afterlife. Sirius didn't live in bitterness and regret any longer.

However, right now he lived in definite confusion and...he wasn't even sure what that mix between jealousy, hurt and anger was supposed to be. He had no right to it, he had been gone, after all. Shaking Remus and asking him how he could have done that wasn't really the appropriate reaction, all things considered.

Didn't mean he didn't really want to do it. To be on the safe side, he crossed his arms instead. He'd have much rather be snogging, but that didn't really seem appropriate, either, given that Remus had just pointed out he was married to someone else.

"So... girl or boy?" There had been a time when he'd thought they could have kids, somehow, adoption or whatever, once the war was over.

It was over. The final battle had taken place. They'd won. Harry had done what he'd needed to do. To many had already died in the war but that was the cost they'd had to have to win.

When Tonks had asked Remus to marry him. He'd freaked out in a very remus way. He loved Tonks but did he really love her enough for that? Sirius was gone and never coming back. Even at the wedding, he was still mourning Sirius's death.

He'd rather be snogging Sirius as well, all things considered. He pulled his scruffy coat around him and ducked his head for a moment coughing for a moment.

"Boy. Teddy, Theodore. After Tonk's father" He said, finally looking up at him. That had been the dream that had been shattered by Sirius going to jail. Having kids. Being together. Peter had taken away years of there life even before Sirius died.

Finally the war was over. Having died fighting, Sirius didn't really regret that. He regretted many things, above all talking James into choosing Peter, then not being fast enough when he'd confronted Peter and finally leaving Remus for a second time and falling through the damn veil. Without managing to kill Bellatrix, too, no less.

"After Ted, yeah... He came through a few months ago, guess now I know why he's been avoiding me. I thought I still owed him money or something." Sirius took a deep breath and offered the most sincere smile he could muster. "Congratulations."

He'd thought he'd lost Remus for good over the years in prison and finding him again, being with him again, that had been the sole good thing, apart from Harry, of course. Sirius never had been one to deal with emotions in a rational way. What he really wanted to do right now was get drunk.

He grabbed Remus' hand to look for a wedding band, then just glanced to the side, though he kept a tight hold on his hand. "Sorry you didn't get more time with your son, but it's still nice to see you."

His hand gasped Sirius's back, almost wanting to pull him in and kiss him again. To just be with him again. It was so cruel damn it. Even now something was keeping him from him.

"I...I wish I did as well" He said, softly. He really did wish he'd spent more time with his son. But Harry was a good godfather. He'd take care of him well enough.

"I missed you Sirius"

He said softly as he closed his eyes and pulled the other into another hug. He just needed this, for a moment.

It was too cruel. Sirius wanted to scream at someone and it wasn't easy to hold on to what self-control to keep to not just give into that urge.

He felt sorry for his friend, who had managed to move on past everything, get married, have a kid and then only end up here too early. But he couldn't help the hurt he felt toward his lover, the resentment at him for having moved on. It was selfish, egocentric and wrong to feel it, but Sirius couldn't help it.

"I missed you, too, Moony." He hugged back, fingers reaching up to run through the man's hair. This wasn't fair. "I wish you weren't married. Was hoping to get laid again finally." It was a weak joke and he didn't manage a smile. He'd hoped they'd finally be them again.

He closed his eyes at the feeling of Sirius's fingers running though his hair. How many times had he done that during school? Stolen moments in there dorm room. Sirius helping him recover from a bad moon night. So many times.

"Can we even get laid here?" He said,chucking against his cheek for a moment. Pulling back to stare into Sirius's eyes for a moment. His lips inches from his old lovers for a moment before he took a step back.

"Tonks..She should be here. Um.Somewhere. I saw her go down before I.."

"I've not actually tried yet. I'd ask Prongs, but Lily frowns upon me inquiring about their sex life." Sirius shrugged as if he couldn't conceive why she'd mind that. Remus was close, too damn close.

"Tonks?" Nymphadora? Never mind the fact that he was currently feeling rather conflicted about Remus' wife his first thought wasn't even that. His niece, the daughter of his favourite cousin. "But she's so young..." And a mother, of course.

Sirius licked his lips, casting his eyes down for a rather long moment. "Damn it. Andromeda's all... And your son." He frowned, still not used to that thought. "I'm really sorry, Moony. We should go look for her."

"She always did" he said affectively. Come on, even in school Sirius would bug James and Lily about their sex life, while somehow bragging about his and Remus's.

"That would be her,yes" He said as he glanced around the empty carriage before back at Sirius.

"She has her grandson. It's not much and it's not the way we wanted it. But Andy will be fine." He said softly. He stayed still at those next words. It was stupid and selfish but this was what he wanted. "We can wait" he said softly. "Just for a little while longer. Please.." He said, for once giving into what he wanted.

"She should be grateful. If not for my well informed advice, Prongs probably still wouldn't know how ladybits work." Sirius was sure Remus would be able to recall that particular impromptu presentation. Damn, he could remember Peter taking notes. He'd drawn pictures and everything. There might have been a comic. They also might have been drunk.

"Of course she'll be fine, always has been." Sirius shook his head and smiled a half-smile. "Just seems unfair how much her life sucked."

He looked at Remus when he pleaded, swallowing thickly and catching his eyes. He knew Remus, he knew he wasn't selfish, unlike him, he knew he deserved all the happiness in the world, he wanted to give all that to him, but... "What do you want from me, Moony? You're married. I... Fuck, does Tonks even know about us?"

Oh. He remembered. He'd been politely drinking and telling Peter and Prongs the proper names of things. Not just was Sirius wanted to call them. "From what I'm told. He took a little time to figure it out". He'd talked to lily a few times about it. Clearly he was someone Lily could talk sex to. Not Sirius.

"She's a strong girl. " But he knew, that's for sure.

"I...I don't know" he said, sighing softly as he glanced at the ground. "She never said anything if she did." But she had to know. Remus had been damn near suicidal when Sirius had "passed"

No one care about the actual names, Sirius was convinced that his made much more sense. And it wasn't as if his advice had been to call them that out loud. "Now, why would she talk to you and not to me? Am I not trustworthy?" Sirius paused for a moment, then waved off. "Don't answer that."

Sirius looked at Remus and bit his lips together. He sighed and finally reached out to cup his friend's chin, lifting his head so he'd look at him. "I want to be with you, forever. But you're... I understand." I don't want to understand. "I'm not going to ruin your...marriage. She'll need you when she gets here."

Remus cares about the actual names. At least be RIGHT when you're being dirty Sirius. Honestly.

He frowned at Sirius words because he had no idea what to do right now. "But...things are different now" he said softly, reaching out to run his hand though Sirius's hair. "Your here" He said with a frown. He knew it was wrong to still want Sirius. And he loved Tonks. He did. Just...it was just confusing. Harder. Why did this have to happen?

Funny, Remus had never told Sirius he was being wrong while being dirty...

"I'm here." Sirius closed his eyes and chuckled, shaking his head slowly. "I kinda thought Tonks was gay, actually. My gaydar never was the best."

He ran a hand through his own hair with a sigh, but then without thinking, his hand was already carding through Remus' hair as if it just belonged there.

"I want you to be mind and no one else's. Ever." There, that was selfish and the truth and just who he was. "Now what?"

That's because he was normally moaning or have his mouth other wise...busy.

"Tonks?" He said, blinking for a moment before laughing softly. That would be kinda surprising if hadn't been so laughable. "You knew about me" he said, softly as he tilted his head at Sirius for a moment.

It did belong to him. Remus always had. No matter what.

"That kinda sounds lovely" He said softly before closing his eyes. " I thought the after life was meant to be easier, not harder".

Clearly he can't have been that wrong then...

"Took me too long to figure out about me, though." Sirius smiled somewhat and shrugged, watching Remus and wondering why they weren't snogging yet.

"A lot of things are easier, I guess. It's all over, kinda matters less. And the reunions can be the greatest thing." Seeing James again had been wonderful. Being forgiven, not that he'd ever entirely forgive himself.

"It just really sucks when the love of your life married someone else."

Being wrong and being good at sex are too different things Sirius.

"I think it took everyone time to figure out you" he said with a smile. Remember all those heart broken moments when he thought the other was straight. And they weren't snogging yet because even if he wanted this. And he did. He wanted Sirius with all his heart and it was almost painful not to kiss him.

He was married. He'd made a promise to someone.

"Seeing Lily again was lovely. She's just as brilliant as I recall" He said, as he stared into his old boyfriends eyes.

"Well I did ask you to marry me. And you said "It was a stupid tradition. Lets have sex" Which, kinda killed the moment"

How can it be wrong when it feels so right?

"Too much time." It hadn't seemed to matter so much at that time, but then he'd also thought they'd have forever and a day, not some pitiful scraps before getting thrown behind bars/falling behind curtains...sensing a theme here.

"Did y'see Prongs yet? He's still a berk. Says his death was more wicked." He did have a point, too, seeing as there was no drapery involved. "And Lily is. Married, too." Not that it mattered, given that he had never had any interest in Lily, James had gone there first and he'd never have even considered that kind of betrayal, but suddenly the very concept of marriage seemed like a personal attack.

"I stand by my original statement. It's a stupid tradition." And let's have sex. "I didn't think y'needed a ring to stay..." mine. Damn, this wasn't fair. Sirius rubbed his eyes. "Sorry. I've no right, having died and all."

You could say that for a few things, now couldn't they?

"Do you have any regrets?" He asked as he frowned slightly. He felt regret for never seeing Sirius in jail. He'd been so hurt by the idea that Sirius had killed his friends. It shook him to his very core that he'd shared a bed with Sirius, known him inside and out. That Sirius could have betrayed all of them.

He should have trusted Sirius more.

"I think I might have a contender in that prize. I died in the battle of hogwarts. You should have seen it Sirius. It was insane. Molly...She was amazing." He took a deep breath before nodding. "I know, I saw her. She said you were off with James."

"You didn't" He said quickly. And it was true. He would have stayed with Sirius forever or at least a very long time. "It's not stupid" He said, folding his arms and glaring at Sirius again. " It's a commitment to the other person. A promise you'll be there for them. That you love them. " Not that he ever needed it. Though, even at James and Lily's wedding, he'd felt that urge to get married. To Sirius who'd looked so damn dashing in his tux.

"Your right. You don't" He said softly, shifting a little.

"...are you seriously asking the bloke who talked his best friend into choosing Peter over him and who didn't manage to take that bloody rat down before he got away and framed him instead whether he has any regrets?" Sirius apparently still had some bitterness left. It probably came with being someone with that much passion for life and who'd failed so hard at actually living. "Then Bellatrix gets the drop on me and I couldn't even be by Harry's side when he needed me most. Or by your side."

It had been a crazy time, so hard to even trust himself and with both of them having ties to the dark side, through blood one way or the other, lycantrophy and family, it was no wonder they had just not been sure, couldn't have been sure, not when it was about their friends', Harry's life. The mistake was that they hadn't thought little Peter, always a step behind, capable of being the spy.

If anything, Sirius would never be able to understand how Remus had never gone to see Harry. Maybe it was just as well that he had been in Azkaban, because he certainly wouldn't have accepted Dumbledore's orders and let him grow up with the Dursleys. Even if he'd have to get Petunia to run away with him to get to be with Harry. [ooc: How's that for an interesting AU? xD]

"You died in the Battle of Hogwarts, I fell behind drapery. James stood up to the Dark Lord. I hope Snivellus dies by tripping or something."

Sirius glared back. He was good at getting angry. "I don't know. In my family, it's a contract to ensure the blood stays pure. It's whatever people make it. I didn't need a piece of paper telling me that I'm committed to you, love you and want to be with you forever, I trusted myself just fine in that regard." He narrowed his eyes a little. "How did you turn things around so that you have the moral high ground here? You married my niece. We can't be together just us and a threesome is so not an option, either."

Oh, you tempter...

/tempts away.

/can't resist

^^

dinner came first xD

Sorry I feel asleep! XD damn time zones.

Just wait till I'm back from holidays and actually on the computer regularly. xD gotta go now!

XD fair enough

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damn it, boys, stop hurting my heart o.o

I know right? God damn it. *blames JK*

It's terrible! I always thought Andromeda got the worst out of the lot...

Prrrrrretty much.

And all that because she can't admit to Sirius/Remus being canon. xD

Fuck her. Shoebox says it is. ^^

Knew you'd have read that. xD

Of course!

we have so many things with these two to play out! Also, off to dinner now.

XD I'll play anything you want /because we clearly need more tags.

I'm guessing you mean that sarcastically, but I don't xD YES, we need more tags

All of the threads! A billion threads at once!

Yeeees! /stalks you more!

Stalk away! Link me to anything you want Remus for XD

Oh I shall, I shall... /looks for stuff

I know right? God damn it. blames JK