[ His entire body seizes, a chill coursing through his entire body that leaves him breathless. Scared? Him?
He wants to deny it. Insist he isn't afraid, only being rational. Even the strongest of friendships are liable to break under pressure, and that isn't something he can afford to risk. He—isn't like Cheng Xiaoshi. He can no longer fix his mistakes, and he can't let Cheng Xiaoshi go back to fix them either.
He doesn't notice the way his hand balls into a fist, shaking from the strength of his grip. Without warning, he turns to stare coolly into Cheng Xiaoshi's eyes. ]
We can't undo our mistakes. [ Like everyone else, they only have one chance to get things right, one chance to have no regrets. Ordinarily, this would go without saying—but because Cheng Xiaoshi has the power to truly change things, they have to be even more careful.
At the same time… His jaw tenses as he turns away, his mind flicking through option after option.
If Cheng Xiaoshi doesn't feel anything after a single kiss, there really is no harm in trying. So is he afraid there is something here? Is that why he's resistant? ]
…but we can take one step. [ He relents, though only just. He tries his best to ease the tension from his body as he tilts his head to the side and holds his hand out to Cheng Xiaoshi. Holding hands is enough for now. ]
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He wants to deny it. Insist he isn't afraid, only being rational. Even the strongest of friendships are liable to break under pressure, and that isn't something he can afford to risk. He—isn't like Cheng Xiaoshi. He can no longer fix his mistakes, and he can't let Cheng Xiaoshi go back to fix them either.
He doesn't notice the way his hand balls into a fist, shaking from the strength of his grip. Without warning, he turns to stare coolly into Cheng Xiaoshi's eyes. ]
We can't undo our mistakes. [ Like everyone else, they only have one chance to get things right, one chance to have no regrets. Ordinarily, this would go without saying—but because Cheng Xiaoshi has the power to truly change things, they have to be even more careful.
At the same time… His jaw tenses as he turns away, his mind flicking through option after option.
If Cheng Xiaoshi doesn't feel anything after a single kiss, there really is no harm in trying. So is he afraid there is something here? Is that why he's resistant? ]
…but we can take one step. [ He relents, though only just. He tries his best to ease the tension from his body as he tilts his head to the side and holds his hand out to Cheng Xiaoshi. Holding hands is enough for now. ]