[ He didn't even realize he was holding his breath until now.
But it seems like there is some saving grace after all. He looks down, unsure of his next words. He's started this, now he has to finish it, and whether or not he will receive the answer he wants is anyone's guess—but he knows the response he deserves, but that'd just break his heart. Honestly, he'd be willing to let Diluc trample his heart to pieces if it came to that, but right now, his priority is making sure he's actually voicing out the thoughts he wants Diluc to hear. ]
I don't think I've ever apologized for what happened that night. I didn't know how to.
[ It's a bitter laugh that escapes him. He wishes his heart would stop thundering in his chest like this. ]
After you left, I spent months trying to pick myself back up, trying to convince myself that I was okay without you. I've lost count of how many times I wanted to drop everything to find you, but you needed your space, and I respected that. And when you came back and pretended that I didn't exist, it shattered me, although I doubt it's anything close to how you felt that night.
[ He can't walk away now. ]
The bottom line is, I missed how we were before. There's part of me that wished I didn't tell you, but I couldn't live with myself. I know I screwed up the timing, but for what it's worth, I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when Master Crepus died.
If I had any way to give you back your life, I would. Believe me, I've tried.
these twooooo ;; always bring a tear to my eye ;;
But it seems like there is some saving grace after all. He looks down, unsure of his next words. He's started this, now he has to finish it, and whether or not he will receive the answer he wants is anyone's guess—but he knows the response he deserves, but that'd just break his heart. Honestly, he'd be willing to let Diluc trample his heart to pieces if it came to that, but right now, his priority is making sure he's actually voicing out the thoughts he wants Diluc to hear. ]
I don't think I've ever apologized for what happened that night. I didn't know how to.
[ It's a bitter laugh that escapes him. He wishes his heart would stop thundering in his chest like this. ]
After you left, I spent months trying to pick myself back up, trying to convince myself that I was okay without you. I've lost count of how many times I wanted to drop everything to find you, but you needed your space, and I respected that. And when you came back and pretended that I didn't exist, it shattered me, although I doubt it's anything close to how you felt that night.
[ He can't walk away now. ]
The bottom line is, I missed how we were before. There's part of me that wished I didn't tell you, but I couldn't live with myself. I know I screwed up the timing, but for what it's worth, I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when Master Crepus died.
If I had any way to give you back your life, I would. Believe me, I've tried.
[ He feels so empty. ]