[It's all Anise can really say, for the moment - because every word of Sync's is totally, completely true. They echo the desperate thoughts that have been running through Anise's mind as she's tried so hard to justify what she's doing. Sometimes, she can almost believe them.
But hearing someone else say them - they sound false. Hollow.
The entire situation is just wrong. She's supposed to be the person the Fon Master can depend on more than anyone, can trust with his life. If it came down to it, she was supposed to give her life for his.
And here she was, sneaking around behind his back and spying on him. Breaking his trust over and over again, and he didn't even have a clue...
She takes a shaky breath and tries to steady herself, but it doesn't really work. When she speaks, she almost sounds like she's going to cry.]
I know. I know it's awful - that I'm awful. I know. I don't need you to tell me that!
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[It's all Anise can really say, for the moment - because every word of Sync's is totally, completely true. They echo the desperate thoughts that have been running through Anise's mind as she's tried so hard to justify what she's doing. Sometimes, she can almost believe them.
But hearing someone else say them - they sound false. Hollow.
The entire situation is just wrong. She's supposed to be the person the Fon Master can depend on more than anyone, can trust with his life. If it came down to it, she was supposed to give her life for his.
And here she was, sneaking around behind his back and spying on him. Breaking his trust over and over again, and he didn't even have a clue...
She takes a shaky breath and tries to steady herself, but it doesn't really work. When she speaks, she almost sounds like she's going to cry.]
I know. I know it's awful - that I'm awful. I know. I don't need you to tell me that!