Russian's cool, but holy fuck it's even more complicated.
[ the facts are that Glaïeul never apologized for the argument, for what was said. they apologized for ignoring Jason afterwards. something they claim Jason was furious over, when he was simply sad and even worried. he wasn't even furious when they had the argument. he was hurt by words that Glaïeul refuses to even acknowledge or think about why they felt that way to Jason. that's a fact.
facts are not playing the victim. facts are not twisting things around. facts are simply facts. exactly that and nothing more. it really is as simple as that.
and even with all of that if Glaïeul didn't understand, or needed some time, Jason would try to get it. ]
Things hurt in life, doesn't mean we gotta stop doing it. Fuck, I'd be...
[dead if that were the case, he almost says, but he doesn't. he doesn't want his own mental health issues to show right then and there. he's fought so hard against wanting to just end it all.]
I don't know if you really do though. Not really, not completely.
[for all his sadness, Jason is full of life. he's bright and bold and ready to get out there and do everything. he craves love and family and things to hold on to. these aren't the things Jason thinks he is, but it's all him. he wants to live in the moment, and if he can help Glaïeul do the same, then it's all the better.
Jason furrows his eyebrows a little. he knows what was said, but it strikes him hard when Glaïeul says he was lying. lying?]
I wasn't angry, I was hurt. I was hurt cause the things I do when I'm out there, they're all important to me. I fight for Gotham, I fight for people. But I also fight hard to keep those dirty fucking cops off the streets and give their asses a good beating and you made it sound like well, you didn't have time for that kinda thing. It's important to me and you made me feel like it wasn't. That's how you made me feel. I really don't get why you're calling me a liar, though. That's... that's really fucked up. I didn't lie to you about anything.
[it's almost obscene how Glaïeul is trying to misconstrue even this!! Jason is growing and learning and understanding and Glaïeul is still faulting Jason, saying they should not have had to admit to being terminal in order for Jason to 'get it'. it's almost unbelievable. but more so it's sad. when will it end? when will Glaïeul relent even a little bit in punishing Jason for a mistake he has now apologized and sat with and apologized again? ]
I know I hurt you and I'm sorry I did. But you hurt me too.
[at least Jason is trying to get it now. Glaïeul hasn't even tried.]
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[ the facts are that Glaïeul never apologized for the argument, for what was said. they apologized for ignoring Jason afterwards. something they claim Jason was furious over, when he was simply sad and even worried. he wasn't even furious when they had the argument. he was hurt by words that Glaïeul refuses to even acknowledge or think about why they felt that way to Jason. that's a fact.
facts are not playing the victim. facts are not twisting things around. facts are simply facts. exactly that and nothing more. it really is as simple as that.
and even with all of that if Glaïeul didn't understand, or needed some time, Jason would try to get it. ]
Things hurt in life, doesn't mean we gotta stop doing it. Fuck, I'd be...
[dead if that were the case, he almost says, but he doesn't. he doesn't want his own mental health issues to show right then and there. he's fought so hard against wanting to just end it all.]
I don't know if you really do though. Not really, not completely.
[for all his sadness, Jason is full of life. he's bright and bold and ready to get out there and do everything. he craves love and family and things to hold on to. these aren't the things Jason thinks he is, but it's all him. he wants to live in the moment, and if he can help Glaïeul do the same, then it's all the better.
Jason furrows his eyebrows a little. he knows what was said, but it strikes him hard when Glaïeul says he was lying. lying?]
I wasn't angry, I was hurt. I was hurt cause the things I do when I'm out there, they're all important to me. I fight for Gotham, I fight for people. But I also fight hard to keep those dirty fucking cops off the streets and give their asses a good beating and you made it sound like well, you didn't have time for that kinda thing. It's important to me and you made me feel like it wasn't. That's how you made me feel. I really don't get why you're calling me a liar, though. That's... that's really fucked up. I didn't lie to you about anything.
[it's almost obscene how Glaïeul is trying to misconstrue even this!! Jason is growing and learning and understanding and Glaïeul is still faulting Jason, saying they should not have had to admit to being terminal in order for Jason to 'get it'. it's almost unbelievable. but more so it's sad. when will it end? when will Glaïeul relent even a little bit in punishing Jason for a mistake he has now apologized and sat with and apologized again? ]
I know I hurt you and I'm sorry I did. But you hurt me too.
[at least Jason is trying to get it now. Glaïeul hasn't even tried.]