[Jason yells, his voice tinged with all the emotion those drugs he's been using had taken away. he feels himself choking on them now and desperately wishes he would have taken them today. but he didn't. he hasn't, nit since he sent Bruce the message, and he realizes maybe he wanted it this way. he gets pushed back hard and this time he stays. ]
I know how you are! It never would've been enough. Look at you, you're Batman. I was supposed to be Robin. Always. Always by your side! And all you ever fucking did was try to take that away from me!
[ the truth of it is, only half of it was about proving himself to Bruce. the other half was all that fear he carried inside of him. fear of losing Robin, fear of losing Bruce, fear of losing himself. everything that had happened back in San Fransisco with the Titans coming to a head. what felt like Bruce's betrayal had been the thing to push him over the edge so completely, but there was so much more to it than that. ]
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[Jason yells, his voice tinged with all the emotion those drugs he's been using had taken away. he feels himself choking on them now and desperately wishes he would have taken them today. but he didn't. he hasn't, nit since he sent Bruce the message, and he realizes maybe he wanted it this way. he gets pushed back hard and this time he stays. ]
I know how you are! It never would've been enough. Look at you, you're Batman. I was supposed to be Robin. Always. Always by your side! And all you ever fucking did was try to take that away from me!
[ the truth of it is, only half of it was about proving himself to Bruce. the other half was all that fear he carried inside of him. fear of losing Robin, fear of losing Bruce, fear of losing himself. everything that had happened back in San Fransisco with the Titans coming to a head. what felt like Bruce's betrayal had been the thing to push him over the edge so completely, but there was so much more to it than that. ]