Bafflement easily streaks through his obvious hurt, the look he gives her plainly confused and at least halfway sceptical. Like he doesn't really believe that, even though he's so good at telling when someone's lying to him. He doesn't get that impression and yet—
And yet it doesn't make any sense to him.
"You were right about me. Completely. I wanted you to be my friend and I also wanted to have other friends. Like you were allowed to have. Like everyone else was, except me. Do you know how impossible of a situation that was for a child? Expecting me to not only understand any difference at all between my friends who were mean sometimes, and your friends who beat the living hell out of me every moment they could, but also pick your friends?"
He shakes his head, agitated, just one quick movement. "Of course I understand now. And of course I understand that you were in a worse-off spot. I don't blame you. But I still am who I am, Lily. That's my world, because they don't hate me there."
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Bafflement easily streaks through his obvious hurt, the look he gives her plainly confused and at least halfway sceptical. Like he doesn't really believe that, even though he's so good at telling when someone's lying to him. He doesn't get that impression and yet—
And yet it doesn't make any sense to him.
"You were right about me. Completely. I wanted you to be my friend and I also wanted to have other friends. Like you were allowed to have. Like everyone else was, except me. Do you know how impossible of a situation that was for a child? Expecting me to not only understand any difference at all between my friends who were mean sometimes, and your friends who beat the living hell out of me every moment they could, but also pick your friends?"
He shakes his head, agitated, just one quick movement. "Of course I understand now. And of course I understand that you were in a worse-off spot. I don't blame you. But I still am who I am, Lily. That's my world, because they don't hate me there."