"Just 'cause it was a long time ago doesn't mean I forgot." He's a lot less nervous now. "I just...It's you, me, Geralt, and the old man. I know it comes with what we are, but after--" Lambert cuts himself off with a frustrated sigh. Even knowing he's safe in Eskel's bed, it's hard to talk about. When he speaks again, it's a whisper. "The rest of the year, I kept wondering if I'd return to an empty keep, too."