[Was it dark in there? Apparently it had been, because the sudden light is startling and he blinks, then squeezes his eyes shut.]
God damn it, Cas, warn a guy before you go blinding him. That's just... like... dicks do that. So. Don't. You know. Do that.
[It's a little hard to keep a coherent thought when it isn't about how much his life sucks or his brother. On the bright side, though, Cas totally understands. Ruby is a bitch. A bitch on drugs. She's going to give drugs to Sam and Sam's going to die. The thought floods him because he can feel what it would feel like, just for a second, and his drunk logic is just so overwhelmed by it, he can't stop his eyes from watering.
He really doesn't want Sam to die. Cas steers him over to the couch and, childlike, he obeys, falling bodily into it, elbows on his knees, head in his hand.]
I can't even... I was s'posed to protect him. Dean, take care of your brother! That's, like, the only goddam thing Dad ever said to me and look what a good fucking job I've done. Dad's dead and Sam's six tiers to the fucking wind with that bitch demon bitch. She's... a fucking bitch, Cas, she's gonna kill my brother.
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God damn it, Cas, warn a guy before you go blinding him. That's just... like... dicks do that. So. Don't. You know. Do that.
[It's a little hard to keep a coherent thought when it isn't about how much his life sucks or his brother. On the bright side, though, Cas totally understands. Ruby is a bitch. A bitch on drugs. She's going to give drugs to Sam and Sam's going to die. The thought floods him because he can feel what it would feel like, just for a second, and his drunk logic is just so overwhelmed by it, he can't stop his eyes from watering.
He really doesn't want Sam to die. Cas steers him over to the couch and, childlike, he obeys, falling bodily into it, elbows on his knees, head in his hand.]
I can't even... I was s'posed to protect him. Dean, take care of your brother! That's, like, the only goddam thing Dad ever said to me and look what a good fucking job I've done. Dad's dead and Sam's six tiers to the fucking wind with that bitch demon bitch. She's... a fucking bitch, Cas, she's gonna kill my brother.