"Just getting my thoughts sorted," Lindsey admitted, although when he noticed Dean was partially watching him, he frowned. "Watch the road, Dean."

When he saw Dean was listening, the older vampire sighed and figured, if he was already making himself a fugitive with Dean, he might as well trust the younger vampire with some truths. If he was lucky, it might even help him sort out the mess in his mind.

"I thought it would be so simple to be soulless... and it was. Except I hurt you so much during that short lapse that if you weren't also soulless right now, you'll be staking me where I sit. I'm afraid of that happening again. That isn't what I want for us."