"From ice. Yes, Mom and Stepdad told me such stories. Fairytales. Huh, ya now may be a living proof of such fairytales. Good on ya!"
He smiles, honestly, but that soon falters.
Through darkness, huh?
"If that's so, then I still wish I had never been found. I never meant to drag my Family into said 'darkness'. Because- because they loved me and I never deserved that in the first place, you see. I never- well, ya know."
Well, no, he's not really sure Loki Odinson knows, but he suspects he does.
A deep breath.
"Because you already know -that I had a good family. And so, for their sakes, I wish Mom had never found me when I was a newborn in the first place. At least, I thought so many times over last few ages, and-- and the worst thing is, I don't even really wish that Hyrrokkin had never found me back then, actually. I tried many times to think that, but... I never said that aloud, which is maybe why I'm saying stuff now, so, sorry mate ya gotta listen to such nonsense, but..."
He turns away.
"If I ever could- change it so that I never was - I can't, but if I ever could - I... I ain't certain I would. That's how I've learned that I'm evil. Because ain't no question in my mind that a proper course of action would be to erase myself. Well, I can't, but if I could. I.. I still don't know that I would. Prolly not. And that's - that's why it's my fault, I've learnt. Nobody ever told me that, but I know. It's all my fault. 's like I killed my whole family. My twin sister is dead because of me, ya don't can't comprehend what that means, Lok--Loptr. Almost my whole family, yeah - that's still new to me, yeah. The only reason I know I'm not dreaming is because I gotta think, heh, my brain would explode if I dreamt so unrealistically... getting my little brat again..."
Mhm, it's like Snorri is to Loki Hyrrokkinson something between littlest brother and a son, with the way he sounds.
"And. The brat is so stupid. Snorri, I mean. He should hate me now. I hoped he would. Maybe I should check if he's alright mentally, because. He really should loathe me now. Wouldn't ya agree? Because I - back then... I might as well be cursed with bad luck. And that's nothing to be fond of... because... Mom and Stepdad and others... and Angie--"
For a moment, he looks as if he might hyperventilate.
He casts some quick spell on himself, idly, instinctively almost, and doesn't.
"But I'll stop whining, now, and talk on happier topics."
But he's being quiet now, afterwards. Might be quiet all the way to the Palace.
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He smiles, honestly, but that soon falters.
Through darkness, huh?
"If that's so, then I still wish I had never been found. I never meant to drag my Family into said 'darkness'. Because- because they loved me and I never deserved that in the first place, you see. I never- well, ya know."
Well, no, he's not really sure Loki Odinson knows, but he suspects he does.
A deep breath.
"Because you already know -that I had a good family. And so, for their sakes, I wish Mom had never found me when I was a newborn in the first place. At least, I thought so many times over last few ages, and-- and the worst thing is, I don't even really wish that Hyrrokkin had never found me back then, actually. I tried many times to think that, but... I never said that aloud, which is maybe why I'm saying stuff now, so, sorry mate ya gotta listen to such nonsense, but..."
He turns away.
"If I ever could- change it so that I never was - I can't, but if I ever could - I... I ain't certain I would. That's how I've learned that I'm evil. Because ain't no question in my mind that a proper course of action would be to erase myself. Well, I can't, but if I could. I.. I still don't know that I would. Prolly not. And that's - that's why it's my fault, I've learnt. Nobody ever told me that, but I know. It's all my fault. 's like I killed my whole family. My twin sister is dead because of me, ya don't can't comprehend what that means, Lok--Loptr. Almost my whole family, yeah - that's still new to me, yeah. The only reason I know I'm not dreaming is because I gotta think, heh, my brain would explode if I dreamt so unrealistically... getting my little brat again..."
Mhm, it's like Snorri is to Loki Hyrrokkinson something between littlest brother and a son, with the way he sounds.
"And. The brat is so stupid. Snorri, I mean. He should hate me now. I hoped he would. Maybe I should check if he's alright mentally, because. He really should loathe me now. Wouldn't ya agree? Because I - back then... I might as well be cursed with bad luck. And that's nothing to be fond of... because... Mom and Stepdad and others... and Angie--"
For a moment, he looks as if he might hyperventilate.
He casts some quick spell on himself, idly, instinctively almost, and doesn't.
"But I'll stop whining, now, and talk on happier topics."
But he's being quiet now, afterwards. Might be quiet all the way to the Palace.