[ He crunches on another chip, letting the last of the tension melt out of his shoulders. The core of it remains and will till about six hours in, but right now? Everything's easier to handle. Nothing's bearing down on him in a way he can't bear. Everything genuinely is just...fine. Good, even. ]
Slowing my brain down is- it's hard. Only a couple of ways that really work. Opiates, which I hate for personal reasons. Alcohol which- I'm not leaning into that shit again when I'm this stressed, it doesn't end well, been there, done that- [ He takes another long, slow drag, exhaling with a drawn out sigh, head tipped back, throat bare and bobbing as he swallows. ] A solid fucking, like, can't feel your legs afterward kind of ordeal which is complicated for so many reasons and doesn't last longer than the afterglow so, fuck it, not worth the attempt. Or this.
[ He rolls the slim shaft between his fingers, smile widening somewhat, shrug fluid as anything. ] Which is the safest possible option.
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[ He crunches on another chip, letting the last of the tension melt out of his shoulders. The core of it remains and will till about six hours in, but right now? Everything's easier to handle. Nothing's bearing down on him in a way he can't bear. Everything genuinely is just...fine. Good, even. ]
Slowing my brain down is- it's hard. Only a couple of ways that really work. Opiates, which I hate for personal reasons. Alcohol which- I'm not leaning into that shit again when I'm this stressed, it doesn't end well, been there, done that- [ He takes another long, slow drag, exhaling with a drawn out sigh, head tipped back, throat bare and bobbing as he swallows. ] A solid fucking, like, can't feel your legs afterward kind of ordeal which is complicated for so many reasons and doesn't last longer than the afterglow so, fuck it, not worth the attempt. Or this.
[ He rolls the slim shaft between his fingers, smile widening somewhat, shrug fluid as anything. ] Which is the safest possible option.