it says something about dorian's own assumptions that he didn't think anything would happen from what he said. typical. he speaks often without thinking of what may happen afterward. then, things like this happen. not that he's going to change how he speaks, because that requires too much of an overhaul of his personality. but, he often wonders how easier his life would be if he just spoke his mind instead of hiding behind veiled words.
he suffers in silence. stomach clenched painfully and his teeth follow suit. dorian knows he should just let it go. there's nothing here. he'll just get hurt. alistair doesn't really care. he's lonely. dorian's just a body. he's always just a body. if he just lets it go, pretends that it is just a small misunderstanding...there won't be much trouble. alistair will get over the embarrassment. dorian will squash yet another disappointment down to join the others. it'll be fine.
but. )
There's no need to apologize.
( dorian feels the words form and come out before he can really think about it. this is mortifying on every level. not to mention it goes against every fiber of his being. it's a struggle against everything he's built around himself. )
You didn't go too far.
( now, dorian sits up. though at first he hesitates, he eventually lays his hand gently against alistair's arm. his tone is just a murmur. )
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it says something about dorian's own assumptions that he didn't think anything would happen from what he said. typical. he speaks often without thinking of what may happen afterward. then, things like this happen. not that he's going to change how he speaks, because that requires too much of an overhaul of his personality. but, he often wonders how easier his life would be if he just spoke his mind instead of hiding behind veiled words.
he suffers in silence. stomach clenched painfully and his teeth follow suit. dorian knows he should just let it go. there's nothing here. he'll just get hurt. alistair doesn't really care. he's lonely. dorian's just a body. he's always just a body. if he just lets it go, pretends that it is just a small misunderstanding...there won't be much trouble. alistair will get over the embarrassment. dorian will squash yet another disappointment down to join the others. it'll be fine.
but. )
There's no need to apologize.
( dorian feels the words form and come out before he can really think about it. this is mortifying on every level. not to mention it goes against every fiber of his being. it's a struggle against everything he's built around himself. )
You didn't go too far.
( now, dorian sits up. though at first he hesitates, he eventually lays his hand gently against alistair's arm. his tone is just a murmur. )
What is it you think you've done wrong?