[There was a lot more than just formality put into it... And what had he said at the time? Probably something like "I don't need it." He hadn't and he'd never really looked back on that moment with anything like regret. Still, it's just astounding to think about.]
So you've always had this habit of worrying about things pointlessly. [There's another gentle pet of Toshinori's hair. Never mind that, had he done anything remotely like a confession back then, Shouta would have doubtlessly turned him down. It would have been just as easy as rejecting the gift. More than rejecting it that time, that's what he feels a bit bad about.]
As for what's left of you, though... [That other hand shifts, now, tracing down the length of his leg as far as his arm will allow.] Objectively, it's not what people would consider attractive. [He'd acknowledged that time and time again.]
... Attraction isn't something that works logically for me, though. [He sounds a bit ashamed admitting it. It was a bit easier to swallow that he was illogical while in love. Love made plenty of people act irrationally. Attraction seemed more like it should be wired into the body and his failing to do so for years was just another oddity.] When I have feelings for someone it simply... happens. By the time I'd realized my feelings, this was how you looked most of the time. [he drags his hand back, tracing a finger along the inside of Toshinori's thigh, stopping a bit higher than before, resting his hand on the dip caused by sharp hip bones.]
... So, I've only ever thought about you like this. [He's embarrassed of his own irrationality but not of the fact he loved Toshinori's body. He can meet the other's eyes when he says it. There's not quite the intensity behind it as his earlier moments but there's no uncertainty to his tone.]
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So you've always had this habit of worrying about things pointlessly. [There's another gentle pet of Toshinori's hair. Never mind that, had he done anything remotely like a confession back then, Shouta would have doubtlessly turned him down. It would have been just as easy as rejecting the gift. More than rejecting it that time, that's what he feels a bit bad about.]
As for what's left of you, though... [That other hand shifts, now, tracing down the length of his leg as far as his arm will allow.] Objectively, it's not what people would consider attractive. [He'd acknowledged that time and time again.]
... Attraction isn't something that works logically for me, though. [He sounds a bit ashamed admitting it. It was a bit easier to swallow that he was illogical while in love. Love made plenty of people act irrationally. Attraction seemed more like it should be wired into the body and his failing to do so for years was just another oddity.] When I have feelings for someone it simply... happens. By the time I'd realized my feelings, this was how you looked most of the time. [he drags his hand back, tracing a finger along the inside of Toshinori's thigh, stopping a bit higher than before, resting his hand on the dip caused by sharp hip bones.]
... So, I've only ever thought about you like this. [He's embarrassed of his own irrationality but not of the fact he loved Toshinori's body. He can meet the other's eyes when he says it. There's not quite the intensity behind it as his earlier moments but there's no uncertainty to his tone.]