[Stupid, stupid, stupid. He looks up at Aizawa with unmeasured surprise, looking just as anxious as the first time the man had laid eyes on him, if not... God, he's an idiot. Toshinori, you're a huge idiot, a pathetic idiot, what the hell -- He nearly laughs at that commentary, but then he'd sound manic and kind of crazy over something so...
He's gotten love letters before. All Might got a lot of love letters. Not Toshinori, though. He tries not to crumple it anymore, like it'd be another jab at Aizawa; is he going to keep this one? Of course he is. He'd never be able to discard anything from Aizawa. Not even if it makes his chest ache like this.]
... I don't... understand.
[He drops his head into his hand, trying to think. Of what to say.
He smiles, but it's strained, like a defense.]
This isn't -- You're not teasing me about fanmail, are you? Because... Of all the people you could have had -- the old ghoul who coughs up blood? [He chuckles weakly. He had expected to live whatever was left teaching kids and then -- you know, dying single or whatever. It wasn't even a thought, that he could do that to begin with. After all, is he not just looking out for the person who would damn themselves to a short and painful relationship? He's always sick! He's limited! He scares kids on the sidewalk!]
Why would you do that to yourself, Aizawa-kun?
[He doesn't mean to, but its spoken as if Aizawa is off his rocker. As if he could just choose, even though he knows it's not how it works at all. But... Look at him. What are you doing?
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He's gotten love letters before. All Might got a lot of love letters. Not Toshinori, though. He tries not to crumple it anymore, like it'd be another jab at Aizawa; is he going to keep this one? Of course he is. He'd never be able to discard anything from Aizawa. Not even if it makes his chest ache like this.]
... I don't... understand.
[He drops his head into his hand, trying to think. Of what to say.
He smiles, but it's strained, like a defense.]
This isn't -- You're not teasing me about fanmail, are you? Because... Of all the people you could have had -- the old ghoul who coughs up blood? [He chuckles weakly. He had expected to live whatever was left teaching kids and then -- you know, dying single or whatever. It wasn't even a thought, that he could do that to begin with. After all, is he not just looking out for the person who would damn themselves to a short and painful relationship? He's always sick! He's limited! He scares kids on the sidewalk!]
Why would you do that to yourself, Aizawa-kun?
[He doesn't mean to, but its spoken as if Aizawa is off his rocker. As if he could just choose, even though he knows it's not how it works at all. But... Look at him. What are you doing?
Toshinori just can't fathom it.]