If you don't understand then I don't know how to explain it to you.

[His voice creeping lower, more closed-off. He does in fact want to "throw down" very much now, but Matt going and saying it like that took all the fun out of it.]

I've made my way in this life alone, as much as I ever could be. And I prefer it that way. Attachments, growing sentimental, taking things personally...it's a weakness. It makes you soft. It's the kind of unnecessary problem that I can't afford to take on as a risk, and so I don't. I never did and that kept me alive and at the top of my game for years.

And then I met her. Now it's all starting to come apart.