"I do not understand His wisdom, either," he admitted, dropping his eyes a bit lower. He was never terribly good at reading human expression, but Dean's says a lot, and it... oh, it's painful. Painful knowing he deserves it, too. That he fully deserves to be left behind, and most likely will be. That... is very... breaking.

"Raphael's punishment was... equally as confusing, seeing as he received the greater one, though I brought on the worse transgression." He shakes his head a little. That look of consternation is back, and he flicks his eyes up to Dean again for a second, before they're back on the ground. Troubling, considering his usual tendency for laser eye-contact. "Dean... I cannot... there is no apology good enough for my actions. No excuse good enough to justify it to you."