Even the mention of that name brought to mind feelings that couldn't be described even with years to try and explain it, the deep down fight to save his own existence from being wiped out of his own body like he was a smear to be cleaned from the glass, feeling his mental self breaking apart bone by bone, molecule by molecule, and in the end, not knowing sometimes if he'd lost parts of himself that he couldn't even remember were gone. Too many of his nightmares rested on the fact he feared that some of that man was still inside of him, or some of himself was gone forever.
"You're not alone." Those three words revealed so much all at once, even as it offered companionship in the terrible knowledge of what they both resisted. Charles had wanted, in fits and passings, to rip the power from his head and never use it again, never wanted to suffer that pain again or be someone's pawn. The feeling had passed, but he knew the possibility was never far away, not while Hank hid his true form.
"But I'll admit, for both of us, that I'm grateful we haven't added to our... collections." Charles looked up with that, his expression full of understanding.
Re: Kurt and Charles
Even the mention of that name brought to mind feelings that couldn't be described even with years to try and explain it, the deep down fight to save his own existence from being wiped out of his own body like he was a smear to be cleaned from the glass, feeling his mental self breaking apart bone by bone, molecule by molecule, and in the end, not knowing sometimes if he'd lost parts of himself that he couldn't even remember were gone. Too many of his nightmares rested on the fact he feared that some of that man was still inside of him, or some of himself was gone forever.
"You're not alone." Those three words revealed so much all at once, even as it offered companionship in the terrible knowledge of what they both resisted. Charles had wanted, in fits and passings, to rip the power from his head and never use it again, never wanted to suffer that pain again or be someone's pawn. The feeling had passed, but he knew the possibility was never far away, not while Hank hid his true form.
"But I'll admit, for both of us, that I'm grateful we haven't added to our... collections." Charles looked up with that, his expression full of understanding.