"Ideas are good," Gabriel said, and it was clear he was thinking hard on all of it. "I want as many ideas as possible." Jack's grin had put him a little more at ease, and he appreciated that Jack was trying hard to tell him his options. "I wouldn't make you leave. If anything, if I decided to break the bond, I'd leave." And he'd take Mohinder with him. But even saying as much as he did made him worry intensely about how Jack would do throughout that.
He shook his head, trying to clear it. There were a lot of possibilities buzzing about him at once, but none of them were good. He chuckled quietly, and a little bitterly. "I never let myself think about it, but I think I always planned to come to you. After Mohinder was gone, and I'd had time to mourn...I'm a pragmatic sort of person. I don't do well alone. And I've always liked you." Admitting this much felt like a betrayal. But he was realizing that at this point, anything would.
"I'm sorry I'm an idiot who got us into this situation. I should talk to Mohinder before I make any final decision about this. But I don't think it's going to change anything." He sighed, deeply, and looked up at Jack. His expression was careful and gentle as he searched Jack's face for something. Eventually, it passed and he smiled slightly. "Is it terrible that I just want to hide out here until Mohinder assumes I've died and moves on with his life?" That wasn't fair to anyone, he knew, but the idea of avoiding that talk seemed awfully good right now.
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He shook his head, trying to clear it. There were a lot of possibilities buzzing about him at once, but none of them were good. He chuckled quietly, and a little bitterly. "I never let myself think about it, but I think I always planned to come to you. After Mohinder was gone, and I'd had time to mourn...I'm a pragmatic sort of person. I don't do well alone. And I've always liked you." Admitting this much felt like a betrayal. But he was realizing that at this point, anything would.
"I'm sorry I'm an idiot who got us into this situation. I should talk to Mohinder before I make any final decision about this. But I don't think it's going to change anything." He sighed, deeply, and looked up at Jack. His expression was careful and gentle as he searched Jack's face for something. Eventually, it passed and he smiled slightly. "Is it terrible that I just want to hide out here until Mohinder assumes I've died and moves on with his life?" That wasn't fair to anyone, he knew, but the idea of avoiding that talk seemed awfully good right now.